fOr u, fRoM mi

2008-10-31T21:21:00.002+08:00

the more i listened to the song the worse i felt...
i jux couldnt control my tears
they jux started rolling down nonstop
and lasted for more than an hour
it jux couldnt stop
i could tell him wad happened
i cant explain why i felt this way...
all i noe was i missed you...
the more he love and care for mi, the worse i felt

woke up feeling so tired and terrible
my eyes swelled
freda asked wad happen...if i party too much...
HELL NO but jux didnt hav enuff slp...
how to hav eyes that swollen jux cause i didnt have enuff slp

at the end of the day
i dunno why i got a feeling that i wanna cya

went to the dentist..
and back hoping to cya somehow
when i was at tpy le
i tot i wouldnt get a chance to cya cuz it was late le...
was at the door, gonna board the bus le
i saw someone like u...took another look
ITS YOU
so i went to tap on ur shower =)

its been a long long time since we saw each other
the conversation was so cold...
and my heart raced
nv felt that before...and my mood went down again

mayb u havent realli forgive mi yet
mayb u still dun wanna see mi yet
but when i was gonna give up hope of seeing u...
u appeared
thats wad made mi decide to go say hi~
and i still prefer the bubbly u....
u forced a smile...

2008-10-30T23:57:00.006+08:00

Shuo hao de xing fu ne

說好的幸福呢 - 周杰倫

妳的繪畫凌亂著在這個時刻

我想起噴泉旁的白鴿甜蜜散落了

情緒莫名的拉扯我還愛妳呢
伴妳斷斷續續唱著歌假裝沒事了

時間過了走了愛情面臨選擇
妳冷了倦了我哭了
一開始的不快樂妳用卡片細寫著
有些愛只給到這真的痛了

怎麼了妳累了說好的幸福呢

我懂了不說了愛淡了夢遠了
開心與不開心一一細數著妳在不捨
那些愛過的感覺都太深刻我都還記得

妳不等了說好的幸福呢
我錯了淚乾了放手了後悔了
只是回憶的音樂盒還旋轉著要怎麼停呢

妳的繪畫凌亂著在這個時刻
我想起噴泉旁的白鴿甜蜜散落了
情緒莫名的拉扯我還愛妳呢
伴妳斷斷續續唱著歌假裝沒事了

時間過了走了愛情面臨選擇

妳冷了倦了我哭了
一開始的不快樂妳用卡片細寫著
有些愛只給到這真的痛了

怎麼了妳累了說好的幸福呢
我懂了不說了愛淡了夢遠了
開心與不開心一一細數著妳在不捨
那些愛過的感覺都太深刻我都還記得

妳不等了說好的幸福呢
我錯了淚乾了放手了後悔了
只是回憶的音樂盒還旋轉著要怎麼停呢

怎麼了妳累了說好的幸福呢
我懂了不說了愛淡了夢遠了
我都還記得

妳不等了說好的幸福呢
我錯了淚乾了放手了後悔了
只是回憶的音樂盒還旋轉著要怎麼停呢

fell in love with this song the 1st time i heard it...
so sad...
the lyrics are wonderfully written

holding on to a relationship is realli tough
forgetting one doesnt seems to be dat easy either
it reminded mi of the empty promises i made
how i broke ur heart
that u eventually left mi... ...
i tot i could give u up for some1 else
but i end up feeling the guilt whenever says he love mi even more
it made mi realli touched
and let mi recall how u used to stand by mi, cry with mi
and all the happiest times we used to share

as much as he alwaes sae dat he wanna be w mi forever
but if i were to leave him one dae he wud let mi go
but meanwhile he jux wanna love mi to his max and take care of mi
is there realli someone whu is as silly as him
to wanna go all out to please a gal whu cant even promise him much of a future tgt
the longer we're tgt the more terrible i feel
especially when i feel that he seems to be loving mi more after each conversation

since being together, we never had the ,luxury to spend the entire dae tgt
slacking at home
cuz im alwae busy with teaching and gym or gg out somewre
we hardly have 4 hours of peace tgt
and i finally came on last mon
we did NUTTIN jux slping in his arms from morning to sunset
he was realli happi to see mi when he open his eyes
jux like how u used to love to see mi 1st thing u wake up in the morning
we chatted and i started crying...
cuz he was worried that i didnt wanna tell him the reason why i was crying a few days ago...how silly of him...the lose this slp cuz of something i didnt wanna tell him abt...but there are some things are betta not known
told him why i was tgt with him...
cuz i didnt noe how to tell him that dragged the matter
and ended up doing things i shudnt do
causing u to leave mi in the end
thats why i did not leave him too...

mayb its within him hat he's prepared to see mi leave anytime
i dunno when do i wanna wake up from this
but its aint as easy as i tot to leave a silly boy like him
i dunno when "eventually" will come...
but if it ever comes...i hope that i will noe wad i REALLI wan

wHu's the one?

2008-10-28T22:29:00.002+08:00

i realli feel very blessed to hav sam sam dote on mi so much~
well in fact majority of the guys whu became my bf are very nice to mi
thx God for nt having too many jerks in my life
dun ask mi why
BUT it jux happened...

2008-10-22T21:15:00.002+08:00

6 MONTHS, 8 DAYS...

I just suddenly remember this song by Brian McKnight, 6 months, 8 days, 12 hours...
dada asked mi to search for it
i realli liked it since the 1st time i heard it
althou its realli sad...

excluding 13th apr...todae is the 6th month, 8th day since our phuket trip...
'the dae i went awae'
broke the heart of someone who realli cherished mi
and gave his ALL to me....
everythingy pass so fast...
and life jux dun realli get any better

i went to the idp conference on suN...
to check out wad uni i can go to after graduation.
seems like nuttins gonna happen from then all
cuz EVERY1 SAID: pHysiotherapy... arh...its a very competetive course to enter, so you require a very high GPA to get in...wads ur GPA?
i realli dunno how to ans...
so being sick and tired of them tell mi that its at least a 3.5 i jux said 3...
but in actual fact...
im damn far from 3!
and i can never reach a GPA of 3!
i was realli fustrated by all the freaking angmOhs whu were trying to bullshit mi
gosh! how many pple actualli have 3.5?
definitely less than 10 in the whole damn course!
i was realli upset...
i applied for 3 unis...
knowing that curtin would definitely nt accept mi, i realli hope at least USyd or UQ would take mi
and im darn worried...
somewhere pls take mi in~

i peeped at tak's blog again todae...
after so long~
well at least i do see some nice smiles on dada's face...
guess dis time he realli managed to kick mi out of his life totally le...
well at least he gt rid of sth that stab him in his heart
dats mi!
realli glad that he is smiling again =)

i feel so lost todae~
why do i feel this way?
im realli in need for a hug and some1 to comfort mi
im alwaes in need for hugs~
i still feel empty and alone... ... ... ...

no one knows hw i feel
no one knows wad i wan
no one is there for mi
no one cares for the slightest bit
i've lost everything...
including myself ="(

2008-10-07T00:33:00.002+08:00

IM GOING SO CRAZY AGAIN~~

i dunno why...i've nt been myself since ydae...
mayb i was never myself to start with...
i feel so GUILTY...
that i began to tok rubbish to Samsam...

duNno why...
suddenly i thinking of dada again...
the memories just flashed
and i guessed from the things i said to sam...
it made him insecure...

he's nt as cute as edison
or as talented as lee hom...
and by admiring others' talents i think i made him feel inferior...
he is so worried that he isnt a good enuff bf...
but i think im the one whu isnt good enuff for him
i dunno why would someone be able to love a gal so much even when he noes that the gal mostly likely wun be with him forever...
Juz cuz im his DReAmGaL?
im reAlli nt worthy of his love...
how does he even find security in someone whu is unwilling to promise him anything?

we're tgt for onli for 2 months
and he thinks he wanna marry mi...
when he asked if i would wanna marry him...i guess my ans disappointed him
and our conversation at night made him Sad...*im sorry*
i didnt mean to say such stuffs but i feel that im short-changing him with the amt of love him giving samsam...
i dunno why...mayb its the sad songs i was listening to...
i Cried
and suddenly i tot: 'eventually you'

how true?
cant imagine us getting back tgt le...
todae i saw c-130 fly pass 2x at night while i was waiting for JH & linus in the car
immediately i gt excited...
i was tinking if it was dada...
its been quite a while since we even talked
all our happi memories flashed back...
i miss dada!!
i looked the last msg i received...
=(

im nt too sure wad will happen in future...
but im feeling that i wun last till marriage with samsam...
mayb one day he will change my mind...
but if he dun i hope the image of his 'dreamgal' wun get distorted...
hard to sae...
im jux hopeful...

i changed my file and found one note which was written to mi abt 2years ago...
a letter from dad telling mi to jiayou and he will alwaes be by my side...
why i did i let all things happened in the 1st place?
to hurt and lose someone whu love mi so much~
he's the one i regret losing
and sam's the one i regret being with...
nt that he's nt good but we shudnt have started in the 1st place...
my life is totally messed cuz of my dumb decisions...

greed is with obviously within human nature...
and the worse is both are wonderful ppl
at the end of it...its to be contented...

aM i?

2008-10-01T20:13:00.002+08:00

FiNally the Hols BegiN le...so faSt its midweeK of 1st week of hOliday...
gRrrRr~~~
for the past 3 dAys all i did wAS TO go out and to watch my drama
hehe...
Am so tired...
wHy so TirEd lehs?
siAnz gta do mY FYP...not jux dat...
i still gta study for my next attAchMent...
tRying not to let AudreY giV mi heLL...
SuCh a BiTCH!!

TUESDAY
went to scH in the MorninG to diScuSs abt Our FYP...
den left in the AfterNoOn...to go AH to meet SAmsAm
was rAining...lUCky got UmbrElla...
buT he no hab..so all wet le...hahahaha

after we drANK avocado JuiCe and lAkSa...
YuMmY~~~
den we went back to vivo to change my sAnDles...
and we went for a SHOPPIN SPREE!!!
hahaz...
aLL long Sleeves!
muAhahaAha~~~ den go bAkerzin for diNner
den went hoMe...

weDNeSdAe
nO SuN =(
cAnt tAn...so we went to tke pic at cine and ate pepper lunCh
Yay!!!
walk walked and went home...
hehe

2008-09-10T20:28:00.002+08:00

blogging cuz some1 ask y nv update =(
wad to write lehs...

jux so tired these daes oso dunno why...hMmm
im so excited over fridae's broadway jazz!
woNder how izit like lehx...
wad if one dae i dun be a physio?
hMmm...but i dun think im good enuff to get into the dancing world
plus maybe by then i'll be too old to start le =(
haiz...
DANCE - my passion =)
totalli in love with it...

went for ras's clz ydae...damn cool...its so my groove...
hahas...nt event...
RUSSIAN ballet! dunno if can get to watch nts...
missed them the other time...

piAngs lee hOm coming to town too!!!
gosh so sHuai~ wanna watch too!!!
-_-"
why so poor now?

SUX!

2008-09-03T23:43:00.002+08:00

life realli SUX to CorE!
why mux i go on attacHmenTs?
realli hate it...i cant wait for this to end man! terrible x horrible
why am i SO SLEepy everYdAy?!
why is every nite so condusive to slp...

saw the pictures...

since the gal is noe from sentosa...

and is in those pictures

im guessing that she is the one alwaes trying to find a space beside u ya

shudnt be bothered aniwae...shudnt be concerned whu she is

well if she realli one of them in tak's blogged pic...

well i didnt find anione that cute/pretty let alone hot!

*am i gettin a bit GREEN over heres*

well...i guess its realli good to have a pHySiO girlfren

who provides free sports massage, or muscle releases

treat ur back or any other joint/muscular problems...

life carries on...

knowing that mayb no one gives a fark animore...

damn sianz

2008-09-02T21:39:00.002+08:00

NoT JuX EmO...

whY izit alwaEz liddatz? wHy for the 3rd time we fAiled to geT back toGether...u saiD that it mAybe fAte.....maybE...iM nt too Sure mYsElf~i jUx duNno wHy u gTa get sO anGry wiTh mi...its nT tOtAlly mY fAult! i Noe i sHouldnt lie to you...bUt hAve u tOt oF why did i do thAt? i wAs aFrAid thAt u wun WanNa get bAck with mi if u Knew the TrUtH and i realli wAnA get bAck with YoU...bUt, stiLL...hEsitAteD...

i cAnt dEnY thAt i do lOve u...mAyb nt as mUch as i uSed to...but its thErE, SomewheRe and im aLL reAdy to finD bAck thOse feelinGs...its jux withiN mi...

BUT durinG thoSe fEw dAes...i fEeL tHat u duN realli RESpeCt mi! iF u cArEfullY think of wAd i tOld...duN u thiNk thAt iTs jUx Nt riGht aNiMoRe? uR dEgrAdiNg the RelAtionShip thAt we sHAre...if i evEr coMplY, u'LL nv RESPEct mi aNimOre...and i tOt that thAt reQuest was realli selFiSh and uR nt thinKinG in wAd u Say...uR jUx 'bliNded' By uR DeSiReS...

MoSt iMportAntlY I DUN wAn soMeoNe whu duN reSpect mi in the deciSion i mAke...i Noe that uR uNhAppi wiTh mi oN fridAy...bUt i wAs realli tired...and u kNew the reAson whY...i hArdly gt ani slp at niGht, kenNA diStuRbed by my mUm in & out of the rOOm, worried thAt she miGht do aNythiNgy SillY sinCe shE's tAking mY bEd...and i stiLl have to wAke up eArly to work...and im dealing witH stRoke pAtients...itS realli mentAlly and PhySicallY draining...and u didnt tRy to unDerStaNd the situAtion im in, and wans to achieve ur own motives...wad abt mi? a long day that work and i rushed all the way down to yishun den to ur house...i almost fall aslp while waiting for my food! thats why i was watching my iPod!

u knew vEry weLL thAt i dun like u to kip nAgging and RepeATing...and u kiP strEssiN mi to breAk up with hiM...i was realli prepared to think of a way to talk to him...i noe he will let mi go but i have my other concerns...

u said u will change to be a better boyfren, but check on how u treat mi even before we got tgt...i dun care and i dun wanna noe why u said those harsh stuffs to mi...i noe i hurt u damn loads and i had nv intended to do so...if u realized, ur the one who said we shud think twice~ ur were the one who said dat we should stay as we are for a moment...You're still the one whu wanna noe the TRUTH! i agreed and told u wad i was hiding from u and u got angry with me

i seriOuslY dunno if we ever realli hab another chAnce..mayb we jUx blew the lASt one away...nt too sure abt the future wor...but the to kip things simple, the next time i will break off from everythingy before lookin for you again~ i mux admit its alwaes cuz i bu se de...thats why i cant progress nor can i withdraw from it....

2008-08-26T21:38:00.002+08:00

oiE eNuff oF pEepiN hoRz~

2nd dae of attachment...and i got stuFf to bitch abt 'hER' piangs realli cant stand siaz...she is the worse working "partner" i've ever get...impression nt too gud cuz of the last prac le now it jux gotten worse...

i've never met anione whu is liddat b4 la...no matter how selfish or wad...she seems to try means and ways to 'stab' mi sOmehow in front of my CE...why got suCh pple...the worse is that its onli 2nd dae! wow u can nv imAgine how piSsed off im ydae la...damN bitch! its her 1st time at NUH and i realli wanna make her get lost there la...but why am i so nice to go back to look for her...why come on u noe that ur let off late for lunch why do u still expect pple to alwaes wait for u...wait for u jiu suan le...still walk till so FArkiNg Slow...plS la its realli nt i walk damn fast...is u walk too Slow to catch uP...

i noe im so bitChy la but so be it ma...after this attachment i dun wanna hav anithing to do with such a person! i realli nv dislike anyone in the course that much! as much as i used to dislike JH, buts fine now...but i realli cant live with such colleagues! farking hEll..evEn thou i dun like CPL but my anger towards her is still lesser than thiS arse...damn it...lucky i got JAclYN & JH with mi! but why are we nt working together?! cant even bitch during lunch! after work oso bu fan bian~

guess she can sense that im pissed with her la...but i try nt to bear grudges la...but i dunno why she alwaes can find stuffs to piss mi off~ coMe on...as partners u try to cover up for the other one wad...why isnt that happening? and the worse is she is alwaes using some shallow tricks!!! damn fake lors..."my area of interest is MS, BUT IM WILLING TO LEARN ANYTHING haha, THE SPINAL CORD IS LINKED TO THE SPINE TOO hahaha!" thx huhs so fake fake fake la...wad u trying to sae that im nt willing to learn jux cuz i dun like neuro? or jux cuz my CE noes that i freaking prefer CP? StoP all these shit biTch~ i'LL show u my power!

siAnzZzZz Big tiMe

2008-08-18T11:32:00.002+08:00

wHy can i Jux conCentrate?
i freAkiN neEd to FOCUS!!!
ltr iS my MS Paper le...bUt im stiLL NOT exactly DonE StuDyinG yEt~
whAt im doinG nOw?
BLOGGIN and wad plAyin with ChiMnEy juX now
i wan a blAck LAbRadOr! i wan a reaL ChimNey at hOme...=)
den can plAy with jAde jAde and Shadow...
hOpefuLLy chiMney wun be as tOOpiD as the 2 of dem lol *=X*
-dreAminG again-
chiMnEy dun even exiSt~~~

all thE tot pls cLear oFf from mY minD..sHhhh!!!
oNly wanna tinK oF mY lecTuRe noTes...
iN fAct i was thinking so mUch abt it thAt i dreaMT OF havinG AnoTher MS pRac
SCARY or wAdz...
cant wait for wEd to coMe =)
den i cAn lalalalalala...
go cluBbin at nitE
and continue on sAt...with my cRaZy gf
*lOve them to Core*

no other women can take ur spot, my love

2008-08-15T22:50:00.002+08:00

im very uNsTabLe...
totally right abt mi...
today had my applied pHysio paper...thinK kinda BuAng-ed it...
buT still HOPE that i can pass... =)
*oPtiMiStiC*

im realli tired...i cant remember a single shit other than my name...
after that JH brought us to a nice italian restaurant to makan...
okie la but DamN EXPENSIVE! haha
den went back to sch with the raspBerry pie yUmMY! //chat with MoH hUan
den went to JH'S pOOl to nuA..
hoPing that i can gEt TAN but still failed =(
den after that i ran home from sErAngOoN stAtioN,
35 min joG to go hOme hoR dun PLay plAy...
i still Zai de...
cuz im tRaining for my NikE rUn on 31st auGust
darN tiRed
went to chiNatOwn with the entire famility to eat PekiNg RoAst Duck...my fav!

thiS feeliNg suX...to feel for someone whom i had given up
who i hav TOTALLY no right to hav...
do i let it jux diE down or ShouLD i fight for wad i realli wan
like i said...
UR wad i wAN...
i shOulD hav jux sPOke up...
woUld i get a 2nd chAnce if i ask for it nOw?
sliMmest chAnces
i stiLL loVe dada loads...
i miz dada~

Justin Timberlake My Love, my fAv!

2008-08-15T22:42:00.001+08:00

Could I have this kiss forever - WHITNEY HOUSTON & ENRIQUE EGLESIAS - Wan a BF sExy like hiM!!

My Love - Justin Timberlake - I loVE JT!

10 ooo years later

2008-08-14T17:35:00.002+08:00

well suddenly jux felt like gg back to bloggin...stop cuz no point aniwaes...so now i jux wallow in my self pity in my own little world...no one cares no one reads aniwaes...

im finally year 3 into PT...terrible course...attachment after attachment, tests after test, no time to rest and now that my life is kinda totally screwed up...dun as mi why...i dun wanna explain...and no point explaining aniwaes...

i once had a wonderful boyfren whu is alwaes there for mi...not that i dun have someone to care for mi now. but i seriously REGRET that i didnt make him stay when i knew all all along that he was kinda the one for mi...well wad can i do why i fucked up my life lidat. like stef sae, jux gta live with the decision i made...although i might still have the chance but i guess i jux lost it about 1 week ago...and wad mummy ida and stef said was...why do You NeeD StabiliTy when Ur oNly 21?

true...but without my stability, im insecure...and i still dun think sam sam is the one for mi...and im realli guily about it...can i jux M.I.A? leave the world...finish up my course and live in get lost...lost my jC frens...oNli left with KAi and Sam from primarY sch, the 4 crazy gals & 3 boys from secondary sch and the PTs...hahaz...when every1 think that i got a lot of frens...those frenships that i think can realli last, nw i can count the numbers with all my fingers & toes...

time to remove him from my sight, including all the stitches...
~hen ke lian
~da zui ba
~xiaoxueren
~yao shui jiao
and dada zi who looks at mi everytime i wake up...
reminding mi of how stupid i was to allow my heart to waver cuz of stupid adam...landing mi in such a situation...

wad the hell...emo oso not gonna change anithingy...live with it and hopefully things will get better...
sorry sam sam (thou i now he wun be able to see)

2007-10-11T13:09:00.000+08:00

MY HOLIDAES ARE ALMOST OVER!!! *SOBS SOBS*

aiyOh time realli flies and i dun wanna go back to sch!
damn!
the time table sux big time too!
haiz...SATURDAE still hav to go back to sch...
wtf siaz...

last week of Hols realli quite eventful...
MONdae...
i spent my whole dae with my dear...
haha so Nice
caN see him the moMent i wake up...waH~~~
ate seafood that was left over fr our BBQ at Mary's hse...
the prawn...
waH suPerB~~
den we nap a while and went to bishan to watch....
baLLs of FurY
Maggie Q damn skiNNy...piAnGz...
the Movie so damn sTupiD & laMe!
but some parts quite farnie la...
went to arcade to pLay BasketBall...
den go home le...

tUesDay
morning wake up to go gyM den meet

mary
yAnjiA
Suemei
Viv
KoBe
jinGhAo

for kBox!!!HAHA
damn fun...we did a lot of farnie stuffs....
but i think sill go kbox with my s1 peeps is the best...
hehe...den we walk walk awhile at far east den go home...
wedNesdae
went cycling at east coast with Mary, Suemei, Viv, Cindy & BERNaRd...
cycled from my hse...abt 45 min den reach ECP...
so i had a v good work out ydae! haha...
cuz at ECP im still cycling ard...hehe...think i cycle more than 20kM
within 1 dae i lose 2 kg!
POWER~~~
but still got a few kg to my ideal weight! haha jiayou to myself!
thuRsdaY
teaching at the cc near jurong point todae...
oH gosh...
can i teach more big Gals?
i dun like to teach kids...the time so difficult to pass...
haiz...
after that will be mtg the gals at somerset to tke sticker phoTo....
den its cluBbinG time at douBle O
hehe...

friDay
gg to pAsir riS for chalEt with en, carol and peeps...
everydae oso got activity
i dun wan my holS to enD so sOOn!
i dun wanna go bAck to sch!

2007-09-16T20:04:00.000+08:00

guess whO's back....
bAck Again...
SharoN's Back...
tell a fren...
Guess Who's Back...
Guess wHo's BacK...
Guess wHo's BacK...
Guess wHo's BacK...

10Th SepT o7
WoKe uP: 4am
Darl iS supposed to go to AuSsie toDae! damn it got sore eyes...
sO he cANt go and gtg bAck to bASe to pAss sTh to hiS coLLeagUe...
HAiz...awAken...
pOor BoY...
den i sLp bAck uNtil 6 am...
My turn to wake uP and Get ready for phUkEt!!!
JiA's pArents drove uS there...
Farnie linuS kip reminDin us to reAch Before 7am but he was lAtE!
lolx....
afTer Cx in we when to BK for breakFast...
Ohh GoSh...
Its MOre expenSive thAn in towN...
a breakFAST thAt coSt me almoSt 8 BUcks!!
scAry or wADz...
aiYoh ChuAn ChuAn AccompAnied YanjiA to thE aiRpoRT...
haha chAo Geng no go cAmp...
And siLLy gAl cried...
aiYoh 4 daes nia...miss him untiL liDdat
and its onli dae 1
pHoa~~~
not even 1 hr apArt yet~
lolx....

finAli reached pHuKEt after alMost 2hrs oF fliGht...
cant go to the hotel yet cuz not time to Cx in..
so the tour GuiDe brought us to a cashew nut factory...
not bad...ate quite a bit...
althou at 1st we were grumpy that why he dun wan bring us for food 1st
after that was lunch
he said: "xiang jiao yu yuan"
TranslAted into english: " banana fish ball"
SouNDs interesting
but it was jux another
fiShbAll beehOon!!!

and he meant yellow snapper fishball lolx

yummy~~
with loTs of fiSh sAuce!
den to a tee-shirt wholesale...
got nice tee but all no size...
-__________________-"
so no difference ya...
got to a hotel...
bARaSaRi....or sth similar i forgot le la
daMn NiCe!
WOaH THE pOol...
mAkes u wanna juMp in...
the hotel toilet daMN chiO oSo..
the bar got swinG...
the enViroNmEnt iS great....
but!!!
its not wre we gonnA stAy!!!
i Knew it....the hOtel nAme is diFferent!!!
the driver brought us to the wrong place...
He smAsh oUr dreams just liddat!
juSt to COmfort ouRselVes...
oUr hoTel not thAt bad too la...haha
Mei and i sHared the sAme roOm hahaz...
got bAck...chAnged into our bikini...
and dip into or pOol...
yay....
got mini jAcuzzi...niCe or whAt...
so mei YanJia and i got to the pOol 1st...
Ne and SijiA cAme after that
den linUS and Bernard...
and finalli our kObe...
soAked for awhile den we went bAck to chAnge to go out for dinner...
Got to BanglA Road...
wre theres lOts of sexy sHows and trAns...
TranS : "come...tAke picthure"
haha we went for seafood...
noT bAd but can be betta la...
wanted to club
but last min cancelled...
and JiA (YJ) was quite unhappi...
but nvm la
den we stroll to the nearby shOppin centre cuz bernard wans to get drinks...
den walk back to bAnglA rd...
haha she damn scared of the trAnz la...haha...
hOld mi so tite...haha...
den we found the banana club thAt the tour Guide wAs recOmmenDing
got in! 300B onli....still got 2 free drinks...
sOngs not bad...but after awhile it was techNo...
BorinG~~~
But the anGmoHs sOmehw likes it...
-_____-"
den bAck to hip hop, r&B
cOOl i like...when it changed bAck to techNo...we left cluB bAnAna
-----end of dae 1-----

911
woke up earli in the morning...
yay time to go to the islands for snockelling...
got to the jetty and board the speed boat...
phoA~
the speedboAt Fun or Wad....
its fASt & bUmpY
quite ScAry for most of gAlz...
but....i likE!!!
dAmn ExciTinG...hahaz...
island 1: no island...
haha just jump outta the boat and float ard looking at the fishes. corals and sea urchins...
damn nice...
its so good to hav the fishes swim beside u!
the sea urchin realli in abundance siaz...
tke back eat sasHimi haha...
IsLAnd 2: fiSh iSland...
more fishes and sea urchins and corals...
we fed the fishes with bread so nice!
some miss the bread and attack my finger haha
THE FISH KISS MI *muacKz*
the tHAis sae got shark further in the sea but i nv go la...
my goggles and tube giving mi prob
and i damn tired to swim all the wae...
ltr the shArks bite mi how...
hAha
iSland 3: eating place
we had our buffet lunch there
piAngs not enuff food 1...
the pple realli hungry or wad...
even jAc hAvent hav her fill the food no more...
survivor of the fastest
den we slack under the shade...
we had COCONUTS...
and ate the flesh usinG coconout husk!
interestinG...haha...
it was a new experience...
den mei, jia and i went to the beach the chiLL in the waters...
freaking cleaR!
but got a lot of rocks so we cant go deep cuz we dun hav our flippers with us...
so to avoid cuts we avOid roCks haha...
so fast time to boaRd the boat again...
wEEeeEeE~~~
nice ride back...but it was rAininG...
and the raiNdroPS hit us like hailsToNes... cuz the speed was so fast
not v nice...lucky it didnt last the whole trip...
we got out of the cloudy area and all is clear again...
exciting ride back haha...love it to core...
even better den roller coaster...

went bAck to the hotel and rested awhile...
den go out for dinner...
hahaz...
MENU
1. tomYAm souP - damn clear but super spicy...too much for mi...so i ate the sotongs inside haha...
2. Fried rice in Omelette - not bad but a little to little to serve the 6 of us
3.fried spicy mAggi mee - too spicy but taste was acceptable...nv eat much of it...haha ate all the sotong in there again
4.Fried vegetable - goSh...oil dunid money!
-therefore as a whole i didnt eat much for dinner lol-
but i filled myself with...
1. grilled corn...eat 1/2 hr still havent finish...thanks to my beautiful braces haha
2.banana pancake...which is like banana prata with honey on it, amazingly its damn nice haha...original is w condensed milk but i prefer honey haha...
3.snacks in the hotel in bernard's room
-----end of dae 2-----

12th sepT o7
nuttin much happened todae...
just to pAtong beach...
tan awhile no more sun...so go jet ski...haha
fun but linus and i fell off the jet ski...sia la...scary...
den i took over to ride it
pHobia...i wun ride it again unless with some1 wre is experienced...
hahaz...
almost lost my oakleys sumore...
lucky linus found it....
phoA heNg~
but he lost his specs
so we had operation specs search...
*failed*
so we went to boots...
bought damn lots of stuffs...hahaz...
went back to hotl and soak in the pool...
rested a while and went for dinner at some road side stall...
guess wad...
NO fRIed fooD...nO riCe...
eat wad?
den b4 we left some guy was trying to tell us abt TsUnAmi @ 10 pm
huh ok nv we went to another roadside stall and i had pAd tHai and shared another plate of fried rice with bernard...
woah nice siaz...even betta den the restaurant...
got a afro guy workin there...his hair....
3x biGger thAn the heAd!
went to the restaurant at the hotel for drinks...
damn NOT NICE sia cocktails...
EwwWwwWw~~
celebratEd Jia's birthDae haha
Chat awhile plAYed pOol...
Phoa mi n the black baLL realli no fate...
just dun go in...
den we went back to bernard's rm to chill
Again...
but we watched rugbY...
until tired go back slp...
-----end of dae 3-----

13Th sEpT 07
had breakfast and went to hurry pack all my stuffs before i leave for bungee
damn ex...
and 2 idiots still went for it...
a cab came and he is not licenced and wasted our time cuz he didnt dare to pass the police "station" in the middle of the rd...
end up we got a tuk tuk there and we paid 500baHt for him to waste our time and money~
the tuk tuk driver was kind la...
bernard and i did tandem
which means JUMP together...
iTs never a YOU jump I jump
cuz either 1 jump the other got no choice haha...
and mayb it was less scary
it was a wonderful experience man...
next time i will try again
with my eyes wide open cuz this time round i was having sore eyes and the pressure was too great to tke...so i had to close them
and after the jump...my vessels still buRst!!
FreaKinG scAry...
blood in the eye...
just that nv flow oUt as tears onLi if not even worst...
den we rush back for medicure and pedicure...
and i BraiD my hAir...
*i will upload some pics ltr cuz my mem card is with the guys to complie the pics*
by the time everything is done we went back to the hotel to go to the airport...
we bought DUNKIN' DONUTS...
almost the whole shelf of DonuTs "sWepT" by uS...
ate at BK...
im sorri i was damn mean to make fun of the thai's english but its fun to noe how to speak like them haha...
thai is a nice language to learn
but i dun hav the gift of language...
forget it ba...

MY THAI VOCAB

pang (same pronunciation as cheap in cantonese) = expensive
shawn = spoon (sa-poon in thai eng)
tom yam soup = tom yam soup
pad thai = fried thai beehoon with seafood...damn nice with extra fish sauce and peanut if no cashew nut
sui-mak-mak or sui-jeng jeng = pretty
sa-wa-dee-ca (gals) sa-wa-dee-cup(guys) = hello, welcome
kor-poon ca(gals) = thank you
hoi-dam = sea urchin

English

nemo = clown fish lolx
fin = flippers
har-bound = hashbrowns
ma-sach = massage
pic-thure = picture

it was a fun trip to phuket and i realli enjoyed myself to core...

if can i will visit that place again...

but with dada...i think we would hav a lot more fun together...

cuz at least i dunid to miss him hahaz

think my hp bill for dis month sure f***ing ex...

2007-09-04T13:47:00.000+08:00

OMG 5th SepT iS lEss tHAn 24 Hrs awaY~

SUNDAY
Dada goT guArd DuTy... =( so no Go hiS hse so i asked Zhen oUt to go Gym with mi...
Cool Damn Fun...
We aTTended Su'S hipHop advAnce...
Hope she hAd fun with thAt giLa Man haha...
den we went ard the gyM
1st stop: THE ROWER
row row row our mAchine
gently down CF
Merrily merrilY...blah blah blah
life is like a dream.... ARgHhh
2nd StoP: the sTepS!
tired or wad...7 min enuff to kill our quAds mAn...ache like dunno wad...
so we got down...
3rd StoP: the flOAting mAchiNe!
bAd move...ater the step machine...it made our quads feel worse...so we got down in like 3 mins!
LOL!

Den we went to the weights section and work out abs for a while....
its been a long time!
den we went to the StEaM RooM!
can ani1 tell mi wads are its benefits other den making mi hot?
dun seems to be able to burn any fats...
dun seems to make mi perspire too...
hmMmm...

Finalli was ShoWer!!!
yAy!!! Clean cLeaN...
den we went to walk walk...
wanTed to watch evAn aMiGhty bUt the time wasNt good so we went shoPPiNg!

ate crepes at cine...not nice...
marche one nicer...
bigger summore
den not full oso...hAiz...
den we went to far east...
walked ard...goSh the things are so ex!
aM i thAt mountain??
haiz...and nuttin seems the sUit the plAin Galz...
aLL so Flowery...so exaGerratinG siaz...
not that i dun wanna try but im sure to look funie in it siaz...
walk so long oso no Shou Huo...
...UNTIL...
we reached sHuAnG~
their cloThinGs qUite plain coLoured But the design sPecial...
and i fell in love with a tuBe dress!
OMG!
love it tO Core...
Nice or wad....
LooKs a little Baby doLL...
and zheN got a blAck tOp...
hey i think u got sth siMiLar too noe...
but nvm iTs Nice too! v UNIQue!
yAy! we lOve our new Clothes! haha

den we went to wismA and sHop...OMG...tAngs Close so early...
9+ onli lehx...all closed le...
and tAka and wisma was cloSing too...
i tot they alwaes cloSe ard 10+?
hMmm...

took a bUs hOme...
Gosh a mAn board and sat beside mi...
i didnt notice anythig until he start to scratch his head...
PiAnGs...
snowing siaz!!! eEeeWww~
i was realli scared that his flakes come near mi lehx...
oHhh gOsh...
uNCle...do sth abt it la...
i dun mean to criticise...
But it realli tRauMatised mi la...

MONDAY
earli morNinG woke up to meet my dada at tPy...
aiYoh i miSs hiM so mUch...
i bought BK breakFast and he got gOng bAo Ji DinG
OHhh My...
i shuDnt hav bouGht mY BK la...
after food...we hug each oTher and fell aslp...
duno if he got dream of mi not...haha
den i went to the dentist in the evening cuz dada and his mama, papa go watch 881
-_____-"
so i changed the colour of my braces!
BLUE and BlAck...
mY BlUe ColoUr can ShiNe~~~~
niCe or wAd....BlinG bLinG~ haha
at nitE i go for my lAst bAllet lesson...
go thRu every thinG...
i hate GraNd Romde Jambe onlAir
but i love full contretemps...and karene sae i siao...
cuz thats oNe of the loNgest exercise...
and one of the most demanding 1
which is done 1 by 1
haha...its nice siaz...

aiYoH i canT beLiEve that iTs Tues Le...And Tml iS my exAm
siAnz...
hurri finiSh
Muz Do damn freaking well!!!
let hOpe and pray hArd thAt i can Get diStinCtion!
but tough lehx...so we can onli hoPe that the examiner can see all mY good poinTs
and blinded from all my flAws...
And i cAn do my douBle PiRouEtTe dAmN niCe...
i wiLL ComPLete iT and wOw everY1 muAhahaha...
and the other pple going for exam with mi is lousier than mi muAhahahaha!
den i can score! =x soUnds so eViL...
But for gOOd reSuLts i dun care! muAhahAhahAhahaAhAhahAhhAhAhAhahHAa~~~

2007-08-31T10:17:00.000+08:00

OMG its last daY of August le!!!

mY roOm is stiLL iN a terRible mEss after fiNishing my exams for mOre thAn a week!

hAha...so Bz with other stuffs...

...go out gai gai...

...dance...

...gym...

...watch my animae...

...watch scv...

...club...

...read my magazines...

...sleep...

...listen to my mum scold the dogs...

..."clean up" my ballet shoes...

*and if u realized...im still at home...but jux lazing ard! keKez...

mayb cause of ballet i seems to be quite bz...

4x a week...

and to my horror my exam is this wednesdae!!!

omg...

GOD GIMME POWER!!!

*transform to SUPER DUPER that dae!

cannot fail!

muz do so damn well!!!

Ms teo sae im ready...but dun seems like...

BUT!

so good...cuz that means im closer to my PHUKET TRIP!!!!!!

yay!!! cant wait to go n play...
i wan...

1. sNoC

2. BuNge

3. wAKeBOARd

4. TaN

5. Play wiTh sAnd

6. sHOp

7. dO MaNIcURE

8. pLAit mY hAir like aliCia kEys! after i cOme bAck can cut!

9. PiCk sea sHells

10. pArty wiTh every1

11. Look at AguAs

wanna get a red bikini from Vic's secret leh!!!
aNy1 waNNA share the shiPPing fee?

Went to thE GyM on TUes...

HiP Hop BegiNNers clZ...haha daMn farnie la all the AunTies...

fUnnie or wAd...

cAn u imGagine they still flirt with SuhAiMi lA...lol...

But its a Nice clz aLthough v slOw pAced And nuttin too chAllEnging...

after dat got PT with henRy...

OMG he train mi so hAir...

i can feel myself sHake invoLuNtarily!!!

cAn feel my muScle acHing all Over on wed...

hMmm...after My clZ...

went to dfac to do CamP...

As STATION IC

BUT

not too much diff from trainer lehx...end up still i coNduct every single shit...

still Hav to wAsh toiLet fot the kiDs!!!

hAiz...dun like...

i tot belAy nia...

dAmN!

Thurs MorNinG

so hAppEning...

already whole nite nv slp well cuz kevin on his palM toP

and iT was too loUd for mi to slp

until i nid to plug in mY mp3 earpHones to blOck ou the soUnd den can slP siAz...

Heng arh my ear pHone is the bLock out noise one!

when the lites tuRn oN...there was a loud sQueeK...
TO MY HORROR

got a mouse rying to escape from the trap...

and wre the trap?

beside my bed!!

luckily i was slping at the upper deck la...

but enough to scare mi till i dun dare to do anithing...

goSh! that was the worse sight...

although i dun like mouse...

but a bit cruel huh...

until when i go home its still struggling...

all wet and soaked in its own pee and bian bian...

...eEeEw...

stinky or wad...
but it was dying le...so Poor thinG...

but theres no wae to release it...

man dun even dare to go near la...

still wan tok abt release...

for the benefit of all...
the mouse muz die!!!
so sOrri mOusEy...

pOor mouSey!

whOle dae do the same thingy...daMn siAnz...

fiNalli can go HoMe le lor...yay...

dad n mama come bring mi home!

eat at adam rd after that...

Prawn Noodle...BBQ StingRay...KaNg kOnG with Heh Bi hiAm...tAuhU goRenG and iCe kAranG!!! Yum yuM!!!

tHe beauFiful MoOn oF Bukit tiMah...at the quarry

2007-08-23T16:26:00.000+08:00

FINALLI EXAMS ARE OVER!!

oHhh gosh for the pass few daes it was madness la...

so lack of slp everydae and cant wait for everythingy to end

realli hate studying man

SatUrdae was inNo's annual diNner...

left after my ballet and pick the gals up at ccK

WE REACHED SARIMBUN AT 6+

den our dearest Mr Chew CHong tAk so da pAi lor...wan us to go out n pick him

so being a nice gal i went out AGAIN!!!

thankz huh cuz of him the 3 of us got no food

hugging my carol dear dear....like 10 000 yrs nv see her le

zhen & mi...

zhen and carol...why she not opening her eyes?~

Zhen & i met up at bishan on sundae to study...

wanna study at the library initialli

but the library was already packed

so we hav our brunch and studies at coffee bean =)

we talked alot of crap but we both agree that we were still more efficient than at home hehe...gosh...until 8 pm liddat we went to Ajisen Ramen for food...

we shared a bowl of ramen...

so LOVING leh
den we went to walk ard...and saw these....

all made of JacoB's Biscuit...power! i like the eifle tower...

Malaysia's Twin Tower

twin Bridge tower in Some ang moh place

Great waLL of Chi-Na

Taj MaHal...
*izzit a mosque?*

Eifle Tower in PAris

*Rush Hr 3!!*

PyramiD

*NOt v special huh i think i can build it too*

Finalli oUr v oWn esplAnade! haha

2007-08-10T17:53:00.000+08:00

HAPPI BURFDAE DADA!

DAda 21 yeARS old le =) and im still 20 only haha...

pOor boy end work late on his birthdae eve...

after clz i went to get the tix at cathay...

he came over at 10+ and stayed ard and we left home tgt

RUSH HOUR 3

not bad...

i quite like it...

quite fARNIE lehx...

but dada sae not nice...

mani cuz he is too humorous that nuttin else is more farnie than him

ROCHOR DAO HUAY

after the movie we walked to the shop...

yummy that dao huay

its OH mY GoSh!!!

Superb lorx...after that we walked home from there

ultra long walk...and we met some ah gua

eeewww so ugly...

realli look like man~

this like got pple as for their service meh?

We woke up at 1045

aiyoh so happi to see dada once i open my eyes...

got ready and took a cab the restaurant

but it dao pi le!!!

so we went to kushinbo

haha quite nice oso...eat until we wana puke

our tummies like pregnant lidat

so we walked ard suntec

den go home...

n i knocked out

realli tired...

...whole week onli slp for 3-4hrs everydae...

A boring dae for dada's birthdae

but realli sorri...im realli busy with sch and realli tired

but i think dada was still happi

cuz he got a NICE WALLET which burnt a BIG HOLE in my pocket~

but as long as he like it

den nvm lor...

haha dada i love u!

*muAckzzZZz*

2007-07-21T19:47:00.000+08:00

IM SO "LUCKY"

mayb its juz isnt my week...

next week mux be betta man!

there is so many stuff to do yet so little time

YES im COmplaining that i've got not enough time again~

its got nuttin to do with dada summore

cuz i didnt see him for more than 1 week!

so Poor tinG...

He sick yet i've got no time to go and see him...

haiz and thatz the cause of him complaining so much!

but i realli tired...

why am i so busy?!

cuz im having 3 times a week of ballet lessons!

Ohh gOsh thats bAd...

no choice cuz im taking the exams this yr

but guess we are still not good enough!

i dunno...haiz...

dun even hav the time to go to the gym for clz...

OMG!

GIMME MORE TIME PLEASE!

haiz...last wednesdae shud hav ballet lesson

and i realized that i forgot my shoes

so choing home to get it....

but it was cancelled cuz the damn studio wasnt available

but the management forgot to tell ms teo!

FARK! where can liddat waste my time

so bo bian lorz...

no clz but we went to get our demi-pointe shoes....

den after dat we went to another shop to get my new pointe shoes...
and i spent $84 juz on my ballet shoes

thats scary...damn broke!

den on fridae i went to sch for prac and realized that i forgot the bring mS teo's CD when i reached DHOBY GHAUT!

so i gta chioNg for the train again back home and rush out

damn...

while i was changing...

my HP slide out of my bag and dropped into the toilet bowl...

Singapore's weather too hot that my HP wanna go for a swim...

lucky its clean!

so i hurri pick it up and clean it dry...

den it was happi and wanna SWIM again!

so it slipped again

but lucky i hit it to the floor

and it flew to the next cubicle

damn XIN TONG!

went to clz...dunno wad i was doing...

can i blame it on the shoes?

cuz i was wearing a new pair...i guess i could...

its just not my dae...

At nite i go marine parade to drive dada back...but the roads kips changing and i took a wrng turn....

damn gotta tke a long way...den i missed a turn!

and got myself a longer way!

haiz a least i get to see my dada...

i realli miss him so much!

DADA!

2007-07-07T23:15:00.000+08:00

DATE: 070707

our 2nd yr 7th month together le =)

last nite dada slp over...

so freaking tired

slp before he did...

cuz he was doing sth to my lappie...

den i felt some1 kissed me...

was 1/2 awake...but i didnt care

slp back ba...tired leh...

Woke up at 8+am this morning...

washed up den slp again

realized that i was still tired...

woke up at 1130h again...mum was watching transformers

OMG

the quality suX and so mani pple stand up to go toilet

dun understand...

den dada fell aslp again...why kip slpin de...
we left home at 3pm to go to somerset tke pHoto sticker...

got new machine so tried

piangs must use yen!

den the BitCh so wad lor...

Bitch: "we dun accept this.."

Me: "huh wadz..."

Bitch: "we dun accept 50 cent coins"

Me(thinking): "piangs...50 cents not money arhz...kao dun gimme that kind of face...u think u damn chio ar...like wad onli lor...make up so thick!!"

wad the hell...use yen already like wad le...

wad kind of serive attitude siaz...

no wonder Singapore dropped in service rankinG

Thx to Dis kind of LouSy stAffs with stupid attitude!

den we went to pAStamania for lunch =)

YummY...i ate bacon agliO and dada ate creamy chicken again!

cant finish so go da bao

rushed to city hall...

realised i forgot the bring the tix to ndp!!!

im such a damn ass...

gtg back n tke

lucky my dasao at home

so she bring to the station for mi...

*PHEW*

we forgot to go to the toilet...

gta use the mobile toilet

*SCARED*
wad if v smelly?!
lucky it isnt...still quite clean...

woah the stadium quite small but i like the place...

not as warm as kallang cuz got wind =)

CT & HY were sitting a few rows in front of us...

but nv see us lolx...

hMMm the performance by humAns...

not v good...

so messY...

oH plS...Other than the STD one...

do the kids realli noe ballet?!

ok nvm they are kids...but even the adults are so messy...

think cuz it involved too many pple le

HIghlites: AIRFORCE and FIREWORKS

i love the helicopters...esp the APACHE(think its spelt this way) cOOl!!! the fighters ultra cool too...

i dun like the canons...

it scared me...

so sudden when i was talking to dada lor

my heart jumped 2x when ever it sounded...

after the show...we went to HY and CT there...

walked to starbucks at suNtec convention centre...

drank my JAVa Chip

NICE!

den go home...

IM realli buzy...nid to do alot of things and got so many test coming up

mux tke the shit and "paint" on the walk (translate to chinese)

i must try my best to do well in yr 2...to pull up my GPA

den got higher chance to get into Curtin UniVersity...

i wanna do my degree conversion in perth

dun wan SIM de!!!

JIA YOU!

I CAN DO IT DE!!!

PS to Dear:

BAby i love u...

but y mux go play mj?

spoilt it all...minus 10% of my love for u todae...

hMmm...

aniwae...im realli glad that i've got u...

still by my side...

u must cherish mi...

and i will treasure u...

dada u mux jiayou for mi kae

although i noe u dun wan me to go overseas

but its for my own good

so u should gimme all ur support

NO!

its YOU MUST!

lolz i love u loads...*muackZ*

Ps to CT: ehhh i Update le hor...

2007-07-01T22:04:00.000+08:00

To CT: Dun sae i Nv UpdatE hor~ i Come bAck to UpdAte to enTErtAin u aRz... -_-"

Listening tO: Cry mE a River by AaroN NiviLLe
So jAzz...niCe...
niCe to Slp tOo...woAh...
Wonder if my dada ever lEarn to aPpreciate sUch muSic
...realli roMantiQue...

Just nOw go n eat FroGgiE pOrriDge
...with Dada, Cha. Tak, SY, ZH & JoyCe...
niCe!! bUt v spiCy...
i could realli feel thAt i eat uNtil v mEssy...all the Gravy all oVer...
and iTs so spiCy thAt i couLD feel mY liPS bURning!!!
But sOmehOW i feel tHAt todAe's oNe isnt as SpiCy thAt those i've tried before...mayb my chili Skills Level uP!!!
yAy =)

So Fast mY HolS end lE =(
goNna hAv test every wK...bUt i stiLL dunnO wAds goinG on for EPA...hAiz...
i duNno wAd to exPect...alThough i noe hOw to uSe every singLe stupiD mAchine
but
i think M-I-N-A (juz in case i kenna anyThinGy) miGhT mAke things difficuLt for mi...
But for this sem im hAppi fo 2 stuFFs!
i Got My 1st 2 As in poLy...
REsearch Methods and Clinical triAls Woah....
nV get A before lehx...Gud chAnce to puLL uP mY GPA...=)
determined to do well And V muCh Better thiS sem bUt im stiLL as lAzy...
got no MooD to stuDy...
not that i didnt do anythinG...just dat i Spend a lot of time doinG my MS proj...
dunno wAd Wei(my patient) iS hAving...
suspect just some strain but didnt heal cuz she didnt allow her ankle to rest from GyMnAstic...
...haiz...
so notti...dun wanna stretch before and after training summore...
predisposing factor arh!!!

GOD PLS HELP MI TO STUDY HARD...
I WANNA DO WELL...
I DUN WANNA BE THE WEAKEST LINK IN MY CLASS...
...I'VE NV BEEN MY ENTIRE LIFE...
...AND IT REALLI DUN FEEL GOOD BEING ONE...
=DEMORALIZING=
=CRUSH MY SELF CONFIDENCE!=
STRESSING MI UP SO MUCH I CANT WAIT FOR IT THE END...
...NOT EVEN SURE IF I WILL PRACTICE AS A PHYSIO WHEN I GRAD...

well...the 2nd week of hols...
Thurs
i went CluBbin at DouBle O
with Bernie, Zhen, LiNUS and Gf, YanjiA and frEns...
woAh niCe...its realli a niCe place to drink cuz iTs coNsidered cheap for a clUb...lol...
hAd 2 screwdrivers, 1 vodka ribena, a total of 5 shots of whisky and 15 shots of tequilA...yummy thats a lot...
out of the shots...zhen n i onli drank 1/2 shot of whisky and 1 shot of tequila each...the mixers drunk cuz we lose the game...
by the end of it we were a little tipsy...
but after dancing...im alright but zhen seems to hav gotten worse...
...realli worried...learnt my lesson...
-mux ctrl her drinks...
lucky got bernie to send her home 1st until her doorstep...
pHew lucky bernie is not that kind of guy~
but it was fun~

muz get all the s1 clubbers out 1 dae...
nv club wih s1 b4!!!
MR WONG CHU BI wun be happi...
...but...
ass compared to mj "practice" i club realli little le lor...
it onli happens in hols...
so dun compare...

3rd weeks with braces le =)
haha getting used to it...
but andy sae i v stingy with my smiles...-_-"
aiyoH...sometimes is no choice cuz when i eat the food can get stuck...den v disgusting mah...haha...
my motor homunculus for my toNgue indeed expanded!!
lolx...just as mary said...
-i will learn to remove the food particles with my tonue sooner or later...
BUT
i think better to bring my tOotie bruSh along just in case...haha...

OmG mY hOls iS EndiNg!!!

2007-06-18T21:02:00.000+08:00

mi got braces le...oMg im GonnA stiCk to this iMagE for anOther 2 yRs lehx...hAiz...dada say i lOok like im alwaes so unhAppi aBt everything...sOmetiMes i aM but most of the tiMe iM not...haiz...he is not the onli BF of mine whu sae i lOoK suX when i duN sMile...Last time reAsoN is "nuttin SmiLe For wAd?!" now...other than that...i realli cant smile too mUch lehx...tHe FrictiON bY the braces is HURTING mi...hAiz...aNd now i LoOk extReMelt uGlY whEn i luFf or SmiLe OMg~~ i lOok so fAke...hAiz...wiLL i forget hw to SmiLe when they Are remOved?

BrAces realli mA fAn lehx...oso cant slp well...aLwaes get awaken by the pain den wake up le like tooth ache liddat =( haiz...kip drooling oso...mornINg oso cant realli bruSh proPerlY...pAin so oNli can bruSh slOwly aNd after every meal mUz bruSh with the tee-nee-wee-nee toothBruSh to bruSh betweeN the braces

*bruSh bRush bRusH aLL the Food stUck awae lolX*

PeiXi's Burfdae celebration

atE at Changing aPpetites...saw the PT 01 ppLe hahaz...wad a coinCidence...we ordered pasta, fish & chiPs, grilled fish and a chOcolAte drinK...everything suCkx except the drink bUt pat sae it was too choColaty...but i quite liked it hahaz...including the caKe...we tot it would be nice for a change so we bought fruit cake (longan and cherrY...sounds good...but it was eee too...) we are never gg back there again...

after that we went to DXO for a drink cuz it was ladies' nite and got free drinKs so we went for the drinks...sat and tok tok awhile aniwae not alot of pple...but oso got dance a while...but still not a lot of pple...so awhile pat & i went home le lor hahaz...wonder bY izzit alwaes PCD's ButtoNs that caused everyone to come and dance?! so mani nice songs in front oso no one come de...but once that song is played...woah...u can realli see the pple gg to the dancefloor simultaneously...?!

hais so fast my Hols ending le hate ir why izzit so short? n i stiLL havent got a patient yet hais...

2007-06-12T14:42:00.000+08:00

DANGEROUSLY IN LOVE
by Destiny Child in Survivor Album =)

I love you... I love you, I love you

Baby I love you, you are my life
My happiest moments weren't complete if you weren't by my side
You're my relation and connection to the sun
With you next to me, there's no darkness I can't overcome
You are my raindrops, I am the sea
With you and God who's my sunlight I'm blooming, grown so beautifully
Baby I'm so proud, proud to be your girl
You make the confusion go all away from this cold and misty world

I am in love with you (in love)
You set me free I can't do this thing called life without you here with me
Cause I'm dangerously in love with you (in love)
I'll never leave
Just keep loving me the way I love you loving me

I am in love with you (in love)
You set me free I can't do this thing called life without you here with me
Cause I'm dangerously in love with you (in love)
I'll never leave
Just keep loving me the way I love you loving me

I know you love me, love me for who I am
Cause years before I became who I am, baby you were my man
I know it ain't easy, easy loving me
I appreciate the love and dedication from you to me
Later on in my destiny I see myself having your child
I see myself being your wife and I see my whole future in your eyes
Thought of all my love for you, sometimes makes me wanna cry
Realize all of my blessings, I'm grateful to have you by my side

I am in love with you (in love)
You set me free I can't do this thing called life without you here with me
Cause I'm dangerously in love with you (in love)
I'll never leave
Just keep loving me the way I love you loving me

I am in love with you (in love)
You set me free I can't do this thing called life without you here with me
Cause I'm dangerously in love with you (in love)
I'll never leave
Just keep loving me the way I love you loving me

Every time I see your face, my heart smiles
Every time it feels so good, it hurts sometimes
Created in this world to love,
to hold, to feel, to breathe, to live you
Dangerously in love, yeah

I am in love with you (in love)
You set me free I can't do this thing called life without you here with me
Cause I'm dangerously in love with you (in love)
I'll never leave
Just keep loving me the way I love you loving me

I am in love with you (in love)
You set me free I can't do this thing called life without you here with me
Cause I'm dangerously in love with you (in love)
I'll never leave
Just keep loving me the way I love you loving me

Dangerously (dangerously) Dangerous, dangerously in love with you
Oh, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you I love you..
oh yes..

OhH gOsh i lOve thiS soNg so muCh...DeliCated to the lOvers of the WoRld and to my PeePs...cuZ i lOve u gUys too muAckZzZz!

MOst imPtLy to mY Cutest BabY! i'm DangerOuSlY in Love With u tOO! lolz....

i love my new BloGskiN =) whEn i get mArried i wAnnA weAr SoMething liddAt too =) beAutiFul...wHo wAn spoNSoR?! den weAr oNce le can frAme uP lolz...i love the gReeKy feElin oF the dreSs wiTh a touCh oF the ViCtoriAn stYle...like so lAdy so gentlE and eLegAnt...haha iTs so nOt mi...

2007-06-12T00:38:00.000+08:00

FINALLI ITS "HOLIDAYS"

Damn shit so much stuffs to do so little time...wtf is gg on in my life? for one moment i was okie the next it jux sux totally...haiz...wad is wrong with mi man...haiz...finalli get to update my bloggie...aiyoh 100o yrs nv post anithing le...and i realised that is alwaes complains complains n more complains...

this hols got like no hav lidat got so much to do! And i still havent found any patient for my project...PPLE PLS REFER URSELF OR UR FRENS WHO GOT LOWER LIMB PAIN TO MI THX =) hope that i can do by this hols aniwae haiz...i dunno...God Pls giMMe a patient....aiyoh during this 2 wks break still muz do so much self study and catching up...aiyoh hols gone!

now adays some guy kip playing his favourite game...and i realli cant stand it...purposely dun wanna ans ani of his calls n smses...sae i petty but thats realli the case...he alwaes dun kip to his promise to "try" yes thx huh i can see ur "effort" in trying not to play...im not against u spending time with ur frens...but cn dun alwaes do the same activity...im realli sick of saying anithing thats why i cant be bothered...if he can give up his pact with mi...forgoing his fav food as reward i dunno wads the next fav that he is willing to giv up...ME, i guess...well im nv gonna make that dish again! not even on his burfdae...unless we realli get married 1 day...hopefully i can put up with him till then...as much as i dun wan to...i dunno when i realli cant tke it and giv up...lets hope this dun happen *touchwood*

nuttin been gg too smoothly for mi since i got into Physio...dunno why...mayb im jux stupid...its realli time to accept the fact le...im bloody dumb...hate myself hate my life...

todae...1st dae of "holiday" piangs go back to sch lor...aiyoh sianz so lazy dun wanna do anything...wads hols when u cant slack and realli call hols...a complete break?!

Pointe work was terrible...my big toe is ultra pain todae i dunno why...its not usualli liddatz...aiyoh...now got a layer of hard skin on the side of my toes..all thx to pointe...although it looks beautiful on stage...man i hurts a big time...when will my toes stop hurting mi? Pointe work is so effort consuming...mux prevent my foot to go into xs. inversion to prevent a sprain...mux balance and put weight on my big toe (ke lian de da jiao zi) and still mux suffer in silence and look graceful...omg...BALLET~~~ torturing todae...can someone tell mi why?

2007-05-14T11:50:00.000+08:00

IM SICK

wad an unfortunate burfdae...fancy gettin sick on my burfdae...im supposed to meet auntie kee choun at 1030 so i woke up earli feeling great cuz its my burfdae...n wanna go to the gym 1st...when i was paking my stuffs i suddenly wanna go toilet...(u wun wan mi to describe wad i passed out *eEeerRrrr*) when i was done...i suddenli feel like puKiN...so i didnt go to the gym n rest on the bed until 0945 den i prepare to go out...

reached TPy at 1030 and auntie kee choun said she will be late so i go loK ard to see wad i can get for mama...it didnt tke too loNg...bought her a carnation and a scorpio kee chain...bear bear one quite cute...my ling gan come again...so i go do business...gosh...feeling terrible...like the puke stuck in my chest...nvm met up with auntie kee choun le...we go MOS so i drink my regular milk tea n she bought a pack of fries...nv eat breakfast so i jux tke a few...cuz hungry...den no appetite...drank the cup of milk tea n left...

we took 145 and the bus jux left...so we gta wait...and i was like...i think its coming out...but nvm...hopefulli i can tahan until i reach home...board the bus...once the bus turn out of the interchange i pUked out my french fries...haha lucki not smelly...if not paisehs...and realli lucki auntie kee chOun got lOts of wet tissue...n a plastic bag...i felt much better after that...once i reached i went for lunch at Thai Village at oAsis...didnt dare to eat lor...so i ask dad to order onli for 4 person...(excluding mi...cuz my da sao was with us) cuz i dun wanna waste the shark's fin...very ex leh...and her order 1 pot for every1...so mum gave mi some...and i gave her back abt 1/2 of the shark's fin she gave mi...and ordered another haisma(xue ha) soup...havent finish half i donate to the toilet bowl...aiyoh...den dun eat le lor...the rest of the fin giv mummy...she didnt tke my soup cuz the baO ci more ex canot waste...

realli dun dare to eat...but when i got home...after awhile 9i hungry n felt like eatin dao suan...so ask dada to buy for mi...onli eat 1/2 and i dun feel like eating again...(waste food dae) and im feeling uncomfortable again so we go oRhorH...wake up feeling reallie uncomfortable...and cant get anithing out...ate the chinese med and eat suan mei...when i was feeling realli bad den i go puke again...haiz...go doc no doc opened to see mi...bo bianx...go home eat bao ji wan n rest

den mary came with my present n 2 cakes...oMg when i stand up i could realli feel it coming...thx darlin =) den i went to shower...so cold! n SLPT...

and my burfdae jux passed liddat~ haiz...why has it gota be like dis? i wanna enjoy my time eating the good stuffs and everything...mum sae i no kou fu...cant tke good food on my burfdae cuz i will waste food...haiz...

2007-05-07T17:46:00.000+08:00

bernie in my sexy adidas skiRt lol

LAST weeK jUx fLew pass liddats!Bernie went for medicine's test n interview...woah he wear so nice come back to sch lehs...seldom see him so smart...as in dressing..he is alwaes so smart! our top student lehx! goNna miSs him if he decides to leave us...aiYoh...den no one to tok alot of cock le...even linus when for the law interview todae! haiz...are they realli gonna leave? dun lehx...

during EPA prac...dey were so curious with my skirt haha so we made him wear it n took a pic of it lol! so funnie...the whole clz burst out luffing...oHhh bErnie!

wad a big bloody tear drop dada shed!

on fridae nite...we went to play basketball with the peeps haha...fun...and i bought meal worms before dat hehe...so disgusting...cuz its for the sentosa thingy the next dae...n jux nice i had blood donation on fri too so i got a drop of blood n dada n i were playing with it at the station...haha...so cute...*hen ke lian* dear dear dun cry!

bernie & i

bernie'S teAM FOR the Sentosa trip with the Jr.s

FathiAh & i

*OMG my hair is so messy*

yAnJia, sUemei & i

*aiYoH jiA stop makinG fuNnie faces can?! cant stand lehx...hehe...meimei so pretty in this pic! she's unattached!*

mS han & i - hehe so loving

feAr fActor luNch...not v scary la...oso nOt asking them to eat...

mealwormS + bread = yuMmY!

thEse are some pHotos of the senToSa trip with the Jr.s didnt put all.. cuz the jR. are insignificanT lolx...WE are more impt...n alot of them didnt turn up...wah lao...waste the effort of even to plan n organise for them...i truely understand the feelings of my seniors haha but my batch wasnt that bad! this time rouNd there were more seniors than jr lehx...atrocious! aniwae i think they had fun lol...(those whu camE of cuz) cuz i diodn enjoy myself althou i get luffed at with the TOTALLY UNEVEN TAN ON MY BACK!!! thX huh...GrAndpA suN! haiz...but i sit there no hav full shade ma! my fault meh...i realli didnt noe lor...i still tell zhen i didnt get tan sad...but now im sad cuz my tan is totalli disgusting...nvm...at my station, the whole time i was playing with the mealworms lol...they were quite fun thou...haha...

mi n zhen zhen

after the "race" i had lunch...n met zhen zhen to slack with her hehe...gave her "gang" free lunCh! so muCh left over...we jux give los...gonna throw aniwaes...den we play basketball...woah sux...when i shot in there was a "WOAH"....wahlao...gal cant play bball ar...even if play cnt score mehz...im not v gud but im not dat louya either ya?

den we play cards...play sand...n thats wad i've drawn...so nice lehx! i love u dada!

at abt 6.30 we went to shower...woah hav to walk all the wae to palawan! cuz the siloso toilet is ultra small & damn crowded...den went vivo with zhen, teh and 4 other frens to eat at CArls' Jr...yummy...

zhen n ah teh

den went home n drove out to give cindy the worms n drive dada home to stay over at my hSe! aiyOh so tired...watch quan neng mei shi xiu oso can fall aslp...dada althou we didnt get to pillow tok...i still feel so hapi to kiss u goodnite n realli slp le...and see ur face even i wake up...althou we didnt slp on the same bed haha...but still can see lehx...

woah v long nv tke bus with dada le!

and we watch spidey man on sundae! not bad la...but as mary said...abit too emo le...i like the black suit...damn cool la...red n blue jux sux big time...haha...den go eat KFC melt, drink starbuCks Java chiP and bUy fLorida's nAtural's stRawberri sweeT den go hoMe slP...yAwnz...wake up eat n plAy moNoPolY...lose to dada agAin...at 1st i win one...den downfall when i got into underwater world! pAy him 9,750! den after that i kip paying him ar!

070507

todae is dada n my 2 yrs 5 month tgt le! aiYoH so loNg le leh! althou there were difficult times...times when i realli cant stand u and think that mayb we should breakup...but those were jux tots...nv realli wanted to do so cuz i noe i will never be able to get over u...mayb im selfish cuz i dun wanna experience a breakup that is so painful...but dada oso will feel the pain when he does wad...so no matter wad...i will try to kip this relationship no matter wad...dada i wanna love u! n i think ur the man of my life...*tak can be our bestman! carol my bridesmaid wearing the tux and zhen zhen the flowergal...* i love u dear dear! *muAckiEs*

2007-05-02T19:53:00.000+08:00

3rd wEek Of schOoL

Rest never sEems to Be enuFf...so fAst friDae is comiNg again...So iS my biRtHdae..gueSs pPle do luCky when thEir bdAe is ard thE corner...hehe *hey im not remiNDing but juX happi i noe u guys will not forget de!*

lEts tok abt ydAe...1st of mAy...

Woke uP 1st in the family and sLack ard...waiting for the rest to wAke up froM their lala lAnd...to Eat DIM SUM!!! my favouRite of all chinese cruisine...mayb cAuse mUmmy is cAntonese and my fAmiLy is very uSed to eating the canto sTyLe loLx...we order so muCh food...esP BAO! we got cHar siEw bao, chiCken bAo, cuStard bAo...add tgt theres12 baos for a family of four to finish! oMg...aRe we trying to feed ourseves to death? NO! cuz we didnt noe it was 3 per set...we tot onli got 2...so thAt on avg each person will jux eat 2 bAo...althou i oNli plAn to eat 1 lol...end uP we da pao them all home...lolx...

the i went home to start work...was rushing my assessment out cuz im schduled to meet RAYSON, my patient...and i dun wanna miss the Jazz clz at california fitness 9btw im now there member) drove there and the f***ing traffic was ultra bad! end up still late so cant join the clz le...feeling so reluctant to work out but i still dragged myself into the gym and do some cardio and strenthening...stretched and showered n left...

got home ate dinner...and when i decided to call my dear and rayson, i realized that my hp was no wre at hOme...so i huri called cali to ask them to help mi find...cuz i threw it into the locker...gave them dada's no. den i called him but his hp wasnt on...and i totalli dun rmb any of my frens no....totalli blank...after i finished i took my stuffs and left for cali...told my parents that i was gg to get andy prezzie...rush rush rush! den lucky! they found my hP! so hAppi...so luCki!!!

THank God mAn!

den i go shop for andy's bdae prezzie...realli didnt noe wad to get...haiz...walked into new urbaN mAle...end up getting a top...i realli like it alot...but i totalli regret buying it...cuz its super ex and im so broke! 60 bucks...byebye!

2007-04-27T21:37:00.000+08:00

WOAH! JUX REALIZED THAT MY BDAE IS COMING

"wad do u wan for birthdae?"
got 2 person close to mi ask mi le lolx...one is ma-li-ann the other is my most adorable dada! hehex... but realli dunno wad i wan...could onli tot of 2 things...cash and oakley 1/2 jacket sunglasses lolx...cuz i dunno wre are my glasses...most prob i dropped it at sarimbun...

now i still think cash is the most si ji...so short of money siaz lolx...

other wishes included...do realli well dis yr...and to slim down!!! think no one can hlp mi in dis kind of wishes horx...

woah i v excited abt the trip to sentosa with the PTs lehz...thinkin of all the funnie waes to scare the juniors...currently got mealworms...(lucky the NYP pple dunno wre is my bloggie) but i come to realize that they are quite ex too! a box for 2.20...n the budget is abt 6 bucks for each station and thats definitely not enuff!!! mayb mux get the bigger ones...haha so that its more scary ba...lol....bigger size so dunid buy so much...tot of getting fish but how to kip after that? clarice sae get frogs...but i scared...any more ideas anione?

2007-04-16T17:39:00.000+08:00

CAN I NOT GO BACK TO SCH?

yesterdae morning i went to east coast park to VOLAR! an outdoor by SMU cuz hanchong is working there so i asked s1 to go with mi...thinking that we all shud love such stuffs...cuz its outdoor! but onli zhen, tak n sy came...wah woke up at 7am...zzz den zhen n sy late summore so i hav to waste time at home...drove over to tpy to meet them 1st...and after i took my own sweet time to park n walk to the station still gota wait!! qian da ar!! so we A sy money to buy us breakfast...yay! den i drove them east coast...

haha got goodie back...woah so big ar the bag took to top n wore it...went for cable ski! oHhh nice...mi n zhen went the furthest...haha fell at the same spot lols...but still fun i wanna go again next time...haha...den we went biking...to macs den buy choco milk shake n mc flurry...den we ride to BEDOK jetty! woah...marine parade area RIDE to bedok jetty lehx...(actualli not v far) next time muz try from 1 end to the other ar haha...everything was great! expt i kenna summon! haiz...30 bucks got wings le...1st time lehz...die le la...gonna starve to death to pay the summon le... =S

den i drove to sembawang...let zhen go home...den sy n i go tak hse to slack...den go sun plaza to meet dada, HY n Si yun for dinner...we play 1, 2, 3, 4, 5 haha fun arhz...esp when i see that puzzled lOOk on tak's faCE! lolx...den we went to tak hse slack summore cuz it was still raining...when the rain stop we go n play bball! aiyoh cant seem to get ani ball in...depressed! v long nv play le lor!

at nite i drove to dada hse shower...sit sit n left for home...den i call kor to get the car he told mi he at serangoon...ask mi go pick him up...den go lorx...den end up oso drive my dasao home...haiz...tired arz...zzz

todae 1st dae at sch...late summore...the train la delay...haiz...1st dae at sch wanna die le...i can feel the stress...haiz...shud i quit sch?!

2007-04-15T00:04:00.000+08:00

I JUST WANNA BE HAPPI!

The sadness of life often happen to everyone of us or the frenz ard...wad matters is hopefully the interval isnt to short in between so that we can happily lead a happier life...cuz i guess majority of us live with this mindset " but...i just wanna be happi..." and im also guilty of that, unfortunately...wad is happiness?

for the pass weeks i've been on attachment at orchard physio center...im v glad that im there cuz i learnt alot of tings from Joseph Wong my "boSs" and Li Ann the asSt. there was realli frenly...i enjoyed it more here...althou im alone again...wanna thank him and ann for taking care of mi all these while =) its realli a blessing to work there =) and its definitely one of the most unforgetable episodes in my life...other than physio i was introduced to supplements...which i dun realli believe in taking...until i met my supervisor...so i let dad try them...i read a lot on it and think mayb we realli nid them irregardless of our age...cuz the nutrients that we are receiving from our food is realli not enuff...i dunno...i've yet to try but i guess i will...

yesterdae was the last dae at work...so after work the "physios" gatheredat fish n co for dinner and went clubbing at momo...im not gg back there again unless i got a lot of frens sae they wanna go over...and wah piangs i fell there...i didnt see a step and tripped over...so paisehs and got 3 blueblacks and a small cut on my hand and 1 on my foot...lucky im wearing jeans or i think i cant last thru the nite with the pain...i realli had a wild time but im still not quite happy...i cried at work todae...not cuz im leaving that i miss my "boss" and ann...but cuz of the msges that my baby sent mi...

i tot we are at the verge of splitin...and we dunno how salvage...cuz it had been an existing prob between us...and that realli hurt mi...that we had different views and principles and the insanity in the both of us...we've alwaes disagree that taurus and leo cant get tgt for long cuz both are stubborn pple...nw i think im staring to agree...no matter how cuz leos could be...i guess the romantic and emotional taurus is often taken aback by her bloody emos...so much so that i cant listen to zuan shu tian shi cuz i wud think abt him and start to tear...NO SAD SONGS! and the whole issue still boils down to cuz " i jux wanna be happi"

on easter dae i was happi and not quite happi...happi cuz my baby is gg to my "boss" church tgt with mi...and the theme was " i juz wanna be happi" simply by the verse John 11:35, "jesus wept" the shortest verse in the whole bible...cuz i've alwaes wanted him to convert and i dunno why whenever he is in the church with mi i get ultra emo...i cry when i pray, watch clips on the death and resurrection of jesus and sing my fav songs in church...n i was sad cuz he didnt seem interested at all to be God'd child and follower...and i guessed he ticked the box that saes he is interested to noe more cuz of mi...and the box that sae he is not interested for himself...and the topic was left hanging there again...i dunno why he is so reluctant to come into the family...cu jesus wept cuz ppl dun understand the gift of life...believing that he is our miracle that he can walk us thru in all ups and downs...and i wepted cuz he could not understand the goodness of God and his invitation to him to be his follower and child...to come to be the christian bf and hubby that i've alwaes wished for...and he made mi doubt even more whether we could realli be tgt...forcing mi to choose between him n God...back to the topic...i dun wanna choose...and i wan both..."cuz i just wanna be happi"...cuz if i lose ani...i would be unhappi...this happiness is not wad the word can give but wad God can give the joy in jux being thankful and grateful that we can wake up in the morning........

Thus my resolution for now...is try not to go on the basis the " cuz i jux wanna be hapi" cuz that is the cause of my stubborness and also part of the reason of the BIG COLD WAR between mi n my baby this time...indirectly...theres realli a nid for change but how are we gonna do it and the amt f effort put in....to sustain n love bravely

2007-03-18T20:01:00.001+08:00

BACK FROM AUSSIE

back for quite some time le and i've been busy with my stUffs lolz...

the wedding was fabulous! aiyOh gao lai gao qu i finalli noe how to pronounce my "bro-in-law"' name vladamir...haha i think he will make a fine hubby...lolx...so nice an sweet...so fun oso...realli had fun playing with him on the wedding dae! lolx...we bought him a red undie with "mr happy" on it and made him wear in the middle of the road n walk in to play with us...haha we made him pole dance and he realli did it so funnie! he's realli good! lolx...den i served him his breakfast consisting of chilli wasabi sandwich, honey drink and lime juice...

he was realli sporting and played along...but some ppl kip asking us to stop...the bride ask us to torture him...but some ppl wanna kpo jux cuz she dun hav such fun during her wedding...while others whu got no relation is not shutting up on her comments...i wun let such ppl stop my "sistas" and my bridesmaid to torture my hubby and his bestman (tak...u sure u still wanna be our bestman?)

hAiz...i wonder is my bay would be as fun as Vlad nots lol...CT u watch out! lolx...thats the price to pay for being the bestman...why not consider to be my BRIDESMAID...lolx...

come back to tke the stupid TP test woaH I passed and yet to drive alone lolx...now i realli dun sare to drive out man...hope that my dad wun worri as much to let mi drive alone soon man lol...theres a lot of pple i wanna drive ard with esp my dadA! must reserve for him to be my 1st passenger...hehe

haiz...so sianz...my hols ending soon! 1 more wk! haiz...hope that my attachment is a good one...=s

2007-03-10T22:22:00.000+08:00

FREAKING HELL

why are there pple out there whu are out to piss the hell out of you?! i realli dun understand wads the logic behind of doing dis kind of shit?

why do i hav a workaholic mum whu likes to do work for pple and would like to lay down at home n do nuttin (although at the end of the dae she would still do wad that has to be done)? i realli dun understand...why muz she be so enthu..its not that i dun wanna hlp but sometimes u mux foresee the outcome of hlping n evaluate if u realli shud...

for example hlping my cousin prepare for her wedding cuz she dunno the chinese tradition...thats perfectly fine...but some damn bitches kip tellin my aunt abt some stupid superstitious stuffs to do n make everyone bz and stressed up...can they jux shuddup?! cuz of them my mum has to do even more work...nvm jux hlping my cousin cuz she already v bz n stressed too...i would if i knew...but i dun...

wreas...like hlping in the restaurant my uncle opened...she hlped them when they were realli bz...okie fine...i accept lor...aniwae at nite nuttin to do in australia oso...so i got hlp oso...but she do everything...n when we were less bz the waiters ROC...wtf?! they are paid to do their job...its their responsibility to do dem ya...n my mum jux hlp them do everything...saying that she is v experienced so she do very fast...but thats not the thing to do cuz the other workers whu are paid are not working n the one whu isnt paid is doing all the work like the paid workers tok...wtf is that?! RIGHT...they think its gud to hav u there is not cuz u hlped them so that they dunid to rush n be so bz...but its cuz got pple to do there WORK while they LAZE ard...see of cuz they love u...

i realli dun understand...wad is holidae when u gota work? so u pay an airfare that is so damn ex to work?! WTH?

while some pple jux like to cock rubbish and boAst ard...wad the hell is wrong with them? cant dun boast? i noe u damn power in wadever aspect of ur life...dats uRs n i dun f***ing give a damn abit it! so wad if u wanna look at diamonds? so u think i care? go la...tell mi for wad? yes i cant afford any...but that dun mean that i like diamonds too...im not interested kaes...get lost with those shiny stones! i dun give a damn how well ur doing...how rich ur! im happie with my huBbY...and we are contented with wad we hav...so f*** off...

and there is another kind of pple whu kips wanting to go home...comeon...u pay so much monEy to coMe to auStralia to slp? jUX sLp in Singapore...its more comfortable too!a holidae is mean to be...RELAX, ENJOY N HAV FUN not to kip complaining abt being tired and wanna slp...and stay in the hse...waste all the precious time for shoppin...

arGhhh...like Russell Korkor said i've been grumpy all dae n yes iM...im in such a bad mOod...i dun care...jux dun irritate mi... hate todae...except for the nite when i went to the carnival and Sherman kor won a biG Charmander and a smAll pOny for mi...while he got a BiG hoLmer and BArt SimpSons lol...kinda cute...i played a ride with yali jiejie and watched fireworks...so fun...this is wad i call a nice event in my holidae...

haiz so much of complaints...enuff of the bad dae...im leaving it...wanna slp le...

2007-03-07T20:27:00.000+08:00

IM IN AUSTRALIA!!!

its been a few daes since i've step foot into australia but i could onli blog now cuz my cousin's internet was down...and it jux got done todae =)

nuttin much here jux lots of shopping...its realli try that the fast food restaurants are the cheapest food ard! so u can imagine how ex the food is here...3 bucks for a chicken rice? Dream oN!!

i landed ard 2a.m on 3rd march...jux nice im one the same plane as brad's (my cousin's fiance) dad, bro n granny! haha wad a coincidence =) but their flight was realli long...transit after transit...a total of 29hrs!OMG! wad a tough journey for a 80+ yr old granny but she is feeling great...thank God for the safe journey...Granny is realli a cheerful and happy women...and still so beautiful in old age!although i dun wanna live till dat old...i hope that i'll be a happi old granny next time...

this few daes i've been shopping alot and i jux went to melbourne zoo for a walk...OMG realli tired and i went to the crown casino to...the biggest casino there...wanna try to play BlackjAck and bAcaRrat but i didnt cuz i didnt dare...

thru ut the trip my mum realli toked a lot...correct/ incorrect...Haha she tot i learnt how to plAY cuz i watch the HK drAma abt gambling...dots i knew how to play bacarrat since primary sch -_-" and who dunno how to play blackjack?! lol...my aunt kip asking mi to play jackpot but im realli not interested in it...lolz

the weather here is cold at nite but kinda nice to live in a cold country some times...im realli lookin fwd to stuDy here...iF can...stay here...less stressed than SG! (at least) and its a realli nice place...everyone is so nice...althou some angmohs might despise the chinese...BUT IM NOT FROM CHINA!!! (why cant they diffentiate?! DO I LOOK LIKE CHINA GAL?!) i dun think so...no one asked mi if i was from china b4!

todae is the 7th le...dada n i oso 2yrs n 3 months le...but i cant spend time with him...sorri dada...but as long as he noes i love him n he dun cheat on mi its okie...cuz everydae is a special dae... =) realli hoped that we can last...wait a while more darlin im coming back soon! meanwhile ur not allowed to flirt ard or look at gals...while i look at the angmohs here...but i still think dada is betta...hehealthou might not be as shuai =x

2007-02-27T14:42:00.000+08:00

IM BACK!

so long after the exam but im still back to blog lolx...jux a little late...cuz im busy enjoying n slacking my life after the damn paper...*toot* it get loSt!

waiting for fri now...cuz im flying awae!! leaving singapore for gud lol i nid a long a hols and jux nice cousin eileen is getting married...Australia here i ComE!! lolx... i love it man!i love that place...but this time im realli gonna walk ard the place...cuz the last time i went there i was still a freaking kid...lolx...

well after the papers Jinghao bought us lunch cuz its his bdae =) oMg 30+ bucks per person man...thats a lot...that will nv happen to any of my frens im sorri peeps...unless i become millionaire over nite...mayb trillionaire better...lolx *impossible* the chocolate fondue!! oMg! heavenly...

on sat i met up with my crazy bunch of gals...and the siao za bor club went to chen laoshi's hse! so noisy and we were toking abt our secondary sch daes...those were the best times...crazy frens...lots of gossips...making fun of each other...pulling the "target" to the guy they like lols...not much stress and lots of after sch orchard shoppin...come to think of it my skirt was FREAKING LONG!!! esp sec 1 its at mid calf! i looked so gunDoo sami man...haha and we toked abt whu liked whu in the past and all the juicy rumors in clz...some was true and others not lolx...

i realli love being with the 3 of them...althou we seldom meet...mayb max abt 6-7 times a yr...(we surely meet up for bdae celebrations and rox the restaurant with our thunderous laughter) but we are nv short of anithing to sae and luff lolx...we rox to core man!

JC peeps i love u too...and i realli enjoyed my JC life too...but there was a little more studying and stress filled with bball sessions and tok cock periods haha...i love u guys too...esp my MAN! the one im settling down for...as much as i would like to continue to explore my forest, i noe he is the one whu will be the best hubby...(lolx too bad he's mine) and the one whu will definitely try his best to provide the best for mi...and he is none other than my chubi dear dear...

"I LOVE U"

oHH ya...almost forgot...i cooked for dada on fri...we went to cold storage after my lunch to get our food stuffs...haha yummY... i cook v nice lehx...1st time cook the thing all by myself...dada sae v nice but a little too salty...nvm nxt time will be better lol...and we made sushi...chuka chimi, ebikko and cucumber and dad cooked ba kut teh w abalone *yummy or wad*

now adaes life is jux slacking ard doing nuttin...packing my room after CNY haha...so many things pack till sianz onli...

as much as i wanna fly awae...i will miss dear v much de worz...12 daes nv see him leh... like BMT confinement liddat...and cant call for long cuz the calls are ex...haiz...well his kakis pls tke care of him...but dun tke care until he go hug other gals huhs...cant bring him see gals or watch porn tgt...if i noe...*hehehehe* u dun wanna noe the consequences...

that's all for now...v sianz...the weather so freaking hot...wanna go laze ard again le...BUaiiiIiIiiI

2007-02-02T19:54:00.000+08:00

LIFE IS SO SAD

i guess i wun hav much time to come n blog as frequent until after my papers...

somehow i realli hate myself...and it seems that nuttin in my life goes smoothly de...haiz...with pple ard mi that makes mi feel bad although i noe they dun mean it...im jux a useless freak...cuz all i noe is to cry and hide under the blanket...

wads with sunshine after the rain? i dun see anything like sun shining in my life...its alwaes gloomy...and stuck in the storm...when izit gotta end? i dunno i dun understand the purpose of my existance! wads the goal of my life? nuttin...

i jux wish that i could jux end my life liddat...cuz i dun see any reason liing in this cruel world...heartless and dark...even if there is light...its never bright enuff to light my wae...

i guess the onli thing i can thx for...is that i hav a supportive man...by my side...whu alwaes stand by mi no matter wad...cry when i cry and make mi luff...but still no one is perfect...and i feel that im like dragging him down alwaes making him upset with all the events related to my life...

born into a family with a strict dad and a noisy mum i dunno...not as if im damn rich...with one being unreasonable and another one toking too much and adding oil to the fire kind...i dunno...i think my family quite sad...when i hav my own family i wan it to be a realli bonded one...better den everyone in the family gettin unhappi cuz of a qn...all these are uneccessary de lor...so bo liao...

sch wise i think everything in the f***ed up sch jux sux big time!

simply...LOFE JUX SUX BIG TIME!
someone jux KILL mi...

2007-02-01T21:24:00.000+08:00

WHAT HAPPENED?

Nowadaes i juz feel damn bad...wtf is wrong with my life lor...even blogger wanna bully mi...DAMN!

2007-01-27T21:49:00.000+08:00

WE GO PA TOR LEH

todae got duty for open hse...damn sianz n waste time...althou if i dun go i will still slack it awae but i rather slack it doing sth i like...so linus n i ended up playing spider solitaire...and scared the o lvl students that they nid A lvl cert to get in...lolx...so many pple wan go nursing leh! den linus like saying PT betta den OT lolz..

meet up w dear at 3+ after my duty...den we went to vivo! wah v long nv pa tor liddat siaz...woah...so nice lehz...went to candy empire to get jelly bean...shud hav got the other brand nicer...cuz the package nv sae got licorice de...so i got it...but end up still got so diSgusting la! smelly lor...so greedy...we spent our money on food onli lehz!!! nuTtin else...eat n eat n eat~ lolz...no wonder the both of us gettin fat(ter)...lolx...

but realli happi we very long nv go shoppin n spend time tgt out of home...other than gg to yishun 10 for movies...but now adaes so less frequent le...cuz i got no time...n no hav realli nice shows that the proper slots...

suddenli we back to our old daes when we jux pa tor...lolx...initialli we wanna go into sentosa to watch the music fountain de...but other than that go nuttin else to do...so we didnt go in cuz still hav to pay admission...and we are not in the attire to go to the beach...n i noe we cant chill at the bar de...dun like him to drink so cant go drinkin with him lolx...so we decided to go home to play monopoly...lolx so i got a box of kimchi (yummY) and we went home...

but the ending was we didnt play monopoly instead dear left for home cuz he v tired...so i watch shao(4) nian (2) te(4) gong(1) dui(4) lolx so funnie...

after the big fight its todae that i find that we are gettin back to our lovey dovey daes...althou no as much but we are improving...lolx...jiAyoU! i kNow i love my dear~

2007-01-21T17:33:00.000+08:00

wHu cAn i trUSt?!

yEstErDae got work at sArimbun as belAyer at cRc...but yestErDae was quiTe alrite the kids for the 1st grp not bad...duNno y mAyb i jUx dun like boys la...cAnt stAnd thEm...i love the galz...esp those frOm the 1st sLot...

we didnt do alot of work...cuZ after the 1st 2 slOts...it stArTed to rain and every thing was changed to wet weather...so we slack at the tentage there...pArtly oso cuz after the 1st slot its lunch le...(but we jux had breakfast at 8+ and lunCh was at 11+?!)

when we can contiNue oUr activity, during the briefing the sudden rain cAme again so it was cancelled again so we continUe to slAck...until the last slot which started onli at 4:40pm...which was suppoSed to end at 5:15pm...and i did the transverse ladder...due to the short time i didnt clear all n i tried cuz i didnt let them finish the thing...and asked them to fall on so that we can save some time...cuz lowerin is faster than climbing down...cuz its realli high...(im so nice...cuz we wan the trainers to do the higher ones...while hab n i do the lower on...clear fast n not so tired cuz we hav to do whole dae of belaying but they sent an attachie who nv did cRc belAy suMmore so i took the hiGh oNe)

one thing freakin pissed...i dun mind trainers slackin...but noe when is the time to do so...iSnt it like a normal thing that u check to kid's harness before sending them to mi...already request them to do it le...but still not done...instead of standing there to tell them how to wear cant u jux hlp if u see that they got difficulty?! check their harness tight enuff not...helmet n stuffs. end up i still hav to hlp them do it...izit they dunno how to wear oso? the monkey tails hanging...wait loop n leg loop not tight enuff...helmet in funky style...u think v funnie...if anythinG happen whu's responsible?! iSnt it better that u check the kids den send betta den i dunid waste time to adjust for them when they are there so that the time wasted to adjust can be used to clear more kids?! wads w pple these daes? onli noe tok big n dun do work...wads more already asked that they check for them before sendin le! onli noe how to stand at one corner tok...nv do crowd ctrl summore...i noe ur new...but wres the attempt to even do ur job properly?!

after that majority of us showered and we left...woA 1st time shower open at the sarimbun toilet...cuz all the cubicles stink like hell...so i locked the door n occupy the whole toilet...cuz the kids were having their dinner aniwae...damn nice...drove the guys home...den hAnchoNg kip tokin to mum lol...hiS chiNese...lolz...and hes frm Chinese high suMMore lol...tokin abt his scouting experience n outdoor cookin...until mum sae he realli noe how to cooK...

BUT

he's cookin is dig hole, bbQ, bAke the chiCken in mud one! lolz...den mum n i had dinner at beach road...yuMMy tom yAm soUp, mAngo sAlad n piNeapple rice...i v bad...got 2 women as mi whether i wan drink i sae dun wan den i end up drinkin fr the other stall...but i dun think im at fault cuz i alwaes drink frm that stall...so im not to be blamed...n we onli order one glass...so whu shud i order frm?! dun pester mi...i get irritated i both oso dun buy...lol

i drove home...lol damn cooL...

finalli got home...msg dear...he still playing mj but sae will go home after dat so okie lor i wait...damn tired damn slpy...but toked to mum n watch tv as i wait...asked mi whether i was slpin...already said "damn tired...u sae lehz" isnt it obvious that i wanna slP?! but after dat he sae gg to tak's hse...kenna faked lor...so not happi...iM like here waiting for u to go home so that we can chat on the pHone...n there u go tak's hse...informing mi onli last min after i wait so long...

called him...den he sae "i tell honest u dun wan believe...u like training mi to tell white lies to u lehz"
> its not i dun believe but the point is u wan go dun wait until ur on ur wae le den sae...tell mi earlier den i can go rest!i didnt slp well at campsite...gta wake up earli gta work...belay the kids...i oso wanna rest n slp de lor...den wad i got in return? the person i trust the most...the person i love the most saying to mi..."ur like train mi to tell white LIES to u to CHEAT u" if ur mi u can tke it? asking...can i even trust u le? how i noe whether u lying or not? liddat i oso cant angry? u might tke it as a joke...but to mi it isnt anything funny abt it...or to joke abt!!! i said before...if the guy cheat on mi...theres no 2nd chance...no matter how much i love him cuz if he can do it once...he will do it again! wres the trust now? loSt!

still msg mi if i not seeing him todae let him noe so that he can plan his activity...wad else can u do other than mj? u noe i dun like u to playin so muCh...u sae i dun let u spend time w ur frenz...make it like dun play will die...its not like u dunno ur playing so much more than last time...when i kip stoppin u frm playing...but wad can i sae now?! no choice right when u sae u dun wanna waste ur wkend when u not with mi...whu is the one whu sae wanna rest properly this wkend?!

its realli not i dun let u play lor...ut mj kakis oso my frens lor...if i dun let u go it makes mi look bad...n i've not been stoppin u if u realize...n its not that i dun wanna let u go tak house...but lettin mi noe in advance canot? u think i wanna make a big hoohaa abt u gg there? NO! iS wad u've said...realli sae till i dunno wad to sae le lor...

i said" i care u! u wanna lie to me go ahead jux dun let mi find out or i wuN wan u animore!"
clear enuff?! u think i kup for fun?! realli dunno how to tok to u le lor...

sae i angry till morning...think of wad u sent mi! i didnt open till mornin! u think i can jux see n still lol?! sae i can dun wan u! fine! if this is wad u wan...aniwae the periods between disputes are gettin shorter...y can lidat...cuz some guys sae dat i wan him to cheat on mi...n HE WILL DO IT!

reflect! when u sae this kind of things to mi...u tink i can jux let u go off liddat?! mum sae i love him more than he love mi when she sees it liddat...but i told her i think u love mi more...but i think after this incident i can sae that my love for U is no less than u...its measurable...cuz u dunno how i jux hurt mi liddat...and i noe that im realli sad and if one dae i have no choice...i nid to let go i will! even if its gonna affect mi so much~ cuz i hav to do to wad i said when there isnt a crisis base on how i see the circumstances...cuz i noe when it realli comes...i wun wanna let go...but i jux hav to...cuz i dun wanna be the kind of gal whom u jux hoax a little n i get back to u...cuz sooner or later...i wun even be hoaxed animore...and be left at one corner...crying my heart out when MAN think its li(2) suo(3) dang(1) ran(2) for guys to be liddat...by them i'll be a pitiful soul whu asked for it...

i dunno when we are gonna speak to each other again...but i noe i wun initiate...cuz u realli broke my heart n i wun giv in...askin myself if i can still trust u...i dunno...

2007-01-17T20:42:00.000+08:00

SIGNS N SYMPTOMS OF DEPRESSION

-mayb i should quit physio soon...-
> cant let mary see this...i think she will scream at mi again...but im realli kinda stressed up cuz it requires v consistant work...n im not that kinda of person...simply too slack...its ez to sae buck up, pull up my socks and wadever not but its realli tough when u stuDy for the sake of it...realli sick of this feelin lehz...

wads more...even the powerpack pple are leaving! n mi this stupid dumbass is still trying to survive in there when im like drowning and dying soon...the pressure is reali up and i realli feel f***ing bad to see everyone else ard mi doing v much better den mi i realli cant stand the feeling...

tell mi: "PUT DOWN UR EGO AND STOP COMPLAINING!" but too bad im jux lidat its realli upsetting to see that i study hard n my efforts dun pay?! realli hate memory work...im an application person...but wads worse...it dun realli reflect on my prac scores...actualli no diff...cuz u gotta memorize the stuffs to do well in praCs too! wAd shit man?! n i think the damn M**A women sux totalli i dun think i deserve to get D for dis pRac! i deServe BETTA grAdes! even fathiah said so...i did do that badly...she realli practice favouritism till lidat siaz...

TO THE DAMN WOMEN:
jUx cuz im not the ultra good student doesnt mean that u treat mi w unfairness...n it dun make sense that "u" let off the guys so easily! n the gals alwaes dun get the better grades...come on lor "u" also female lor! CAN BE MORE FAIR NOT! fair suemei jux cuz she didnt noe how to explain wad was X-ray therapy?!when u define it usinf the root words 'X-ray therapy is a therapeutic treatment using x-ray' WTF?! u think ur explaination v good?sae we get confused w stuffs i think ur the one whu is confused!

super pissed with sch man...and im tasting something familiar which i think it happened to me...DEPRESSION...my world is in darkness...no point saying that u guys will stick by mi...when no matter how "sticky" it wun hlp cuz every one got their own problems n stuffs to do...n it wun like improve mi grades like wad lor...i will still hav to depend on myself...realli thx the frens whu go thru this w mi...dun meant to be mean...but the 'support' is not hlping mi...instead it jux make mi feel worse n more stupid~

mAyb i jux die n let it be...mayb i shud jux stay in australia if i hav a chance to...Singapore...jux too stressful for a dumbass like mi...

2007-01-11T15:36:00.000+08:00

LOVE + SEX = RELATIONSHIP?

realli not sure if it does works...for some couples yesh but for others, not neccessary...do men realli nid SEX so much? DOes love+sex realli nid to come together for a reLationShip to work? i totally disagree lorx...cuz i believe that it can work withouT it...its the chemistry in the relationship itself...duNno but i jux wanna last with dear...but i dun think i wan thAt uneccessary factor to come into the piCture...

yes i do agree that it miGht hlp but i think that concept is more for the married couples than to be applied to unmarried ones...say that im conservative...knowing that im actualli quite open...i still think that 1st nite shud be presented to ur spouse...and theres so many pple whu are not treasuring it...and treat sex as sth v normal...izit realli dat so?

i think its pretty hard to be involved with some stranger...even with the one u love it might be difficult cuz u dunno whether he is the one for u...wad if he isnt? wad will happen in the future...althou the guys now are mayb more open as in they dun mind not having a virgin wife...but think...someone else screwed ur wife lehz! okie kinda crude but how do i get the point across?

but it doesnt mean that a couple will not divorce even after marriage...infact the numbers are gg up so fast lors...

but wads is the men's point of view? it seems super easy for them to get into one nite stand...or even multiple stands in one nite? like man is jux one knOb but women has tonnes of them...do they realli think with their head below?

as we grow older...the siGnificance of sex seems to diminish...the person whu look like a big flirt might still b a virgin and a super guAi lookin one had already tasted the forbidden apple...and the concept shows itself whether 2 ppl work out is not based by that special relationship that links it...cuz there are couples out there who still broke up even thou dey had that "forbidden" magic in their relationship...

when 2 hav diff perceptions n opinions abt something as sensitive as this...whu is the one to giv in? cuz the concepts are totalli opposite of each other...WORLDS APART...how shud the lifestyle be changed...for them to continue as a couple?

personally...i dun believe in oPposite attracts...neither do we wan 2 to be too similar cuz the extremes of both = FRICTION in the diff. aspects of life...now im getting confused by was im trying to sae...the tots are floating through my head...so am i open or am i conservative now?

so wads the conclusion?
NUTTIN...
cuz i feel that is someting that differs for everyone...their views abt a relationship...views on sex etc. and wad u wish for in a relationship...

2007-01-09T20:19:00.000+08:00

pHySiO iS mOvinG to NUS?!

Dr SaNn toLd the clZ when jAc n i was in the lAdies...i couldnt believe mAn! i tot the whOle clZ wAs plAying a fOol n jux trYing to Fake uS lehz... ...but its kinda tough to get everyone in the clZ to pA kAt but i dunno dAmn hAppi aBt it cuZ liDat i duniD to gEt my degrEe overseAs n i cAn get OuT the dAmn scH!

n i can stArt mY life in Uni aLL oVer agAin cuz i didnot do well lAst seM...and if i can stUdy in NUS tHAt woUld be gReAt cuZ i get to sAve a lot mOre n i duniD to leave my frEnz n FamilY to go oVersEAz...n my dArLin wiLL be siAnz withoUt n mizz mi lIke crAzy i nOe haha...den his buddies will ask him to kip plAying mJ...or brinG him oUt see gAls i die...

bUt hAiz cuZ i dun get to gO oVerseAs to sTUdy...realli wanna see the outside world but nid to PAY for it n iT aiNt cheaP iF not i gUess i'LL be oUtta SingApore le...and thE coUrses out there Are definiTelY more inTErEsting...eg aniMAl pHySio whiCh im sUper iNtErEsted in...haha cuz i love animalz n wanna work in the zoo...bUt no chAnce...aniwae will learn more abt it from mAryAnn haha...cuz she's in aUstRAliA now =) miSs her n toDaeS her bDae........

HaPpi bUrfDae to u
hAppi buRfdAe to u...
hApPi bUrfDae to MAryANn.......
hApPi bUrfdAe to u! haha

But i realli hope that the dept will hurry shift uS all over! its v mUch bEttA cuz we study so hArd we deserve to get betta den a diplOmA!!! SHIFT SHIFT SHIFT! I WANNA GO NUS!

yay a nEw blogSkiN!

2007-01-08T21:57:00.000+08:00

no ballet...went hoMe earli to study...hehe...stuDy plAy druM and daNce awhile n bAck to bOoks agaiN...den eat diNner and waTch "SO U THINK U CAN DANCE" damn niCe haha but i think lAst week nicer...

got a new blogskin haha but i think oso no one care...cuz i dun think got pple read my blog aniwaez....lolx...but i think the brown a little too dark n nid to find the code for the folders to arrange it nice nice haha....time to lOok for kim korkor...he ar dun wanna sae le...go bac HK oso nv tell mi!

haiz sianz everydae oso nid to stud study n study alamak gimme a break!
well will update more interesting stuffs as in m0re of my tots n feelings soon.... =)

bye to who ever is reading

sianz big time

2007-01-03T18:18:00.000+08:00

sch start le...but haben done anithing in the hols damn it...

go to deAr's hse after sch...freakz siaz...go to sch jux for one lesson...aiyOh kenna fAked...
dear deAr at home play mj den still hav to buy lunch lor...GONG BAO JI DING!!! YUMMY!
but bits sianz leh hahaz...

after dey play finish dada won money =)
den the 4 of us (siyun, ceyi, dada & mi) slacking in the room super sianzzz~ dats why im here to blog muAhahahahahaHAhahahAhhaHA...........

lOOked at Tak's wiShliSt...guess can onli afford lots of rocher and FOSSIL watch hahaz...

TIME FOR SCRABBLE!

2oo7 lo~

2007-01-02T19:20:00.000+08:00

2oo6 jux zoom pAst lidat...OMG so fast lehz...

hopefully that 2oo7 will be a much better yr for mi...in terms of my rship with deardear, in my studies & my character...

WISHES FOR 2O07...

WORLD PEACE - may the world be free of disaster and war =) and may every being become good natured
TO WORK ON MY SPIRITUAL LIFE - i wanna beginning walking close to God again
DEAR DEAR WILL COME TO ACCEPT THE LORD - may hubby will be a christian =) and serve the Lord together
EVERYONE AROUND MI TO LIVE IN HAPPINESS & IN GOOD HEALTH =D
TO STUDY HARD TO BE A GOOD PHYSIOTHERAPIST (mimi: physio the RAPIST haha) - to fufill one of my ambition...its a tough course so i nid...
TO BE DISCIPLINE - in dealing with my studies n spiritual life and therefore...
GIVE THE GLORY BACK TO GOD, TO HONOR HIM N MY PARENTS - woah sounds so xiao(4) shun(4) but 1st muz...
DO WELL IN ALL TESTS AND EXAMS! - no choice mux go australia to do my degree conversion =)
DEAR AND MI WILL BE AS LOVING FOREVER =)
DEAR'S CAREER TO BE SMOOTH SAILING AND MAY HE RISE IN RANKS - cuz if he do well i get to live well too...can save more money to prep our marriage =) and we can enjoy more stuffs =) haha
THAT 2007 WILL BE A MUCH BETTA YEAR FOR MI N DEAR DEAR!

mR stiTch with my mp3

2006-12-27T15:21:00.000+08:00

diS chRisTmAs

2006-12-27T15:12:00.000+08:00

time realli flies....its the 2nd christmas spent ith my dada...sound little...cuz 2 onli...but it also means that we've been tgt for 2 yrs+ realli happi dat we can last so long...=) n we've nv broken up b4 n our love is still gg very strong...even stronger than super glue lolz...

i met dada on christmas eve...we watched "Nite at the museum" haha liked it although it wasnt as funnie as i tot...went home...i saw the prezzie he prepared...jux as i guess...iM correct he got mi StitCh n the Sony mp3 i wanted =) thX babY i love u...

didnt expect him to gimme such an expensive gift =p but mayb oso cuz he got bonus so buy for mi haha so next time my christmas gift dun nid ke qi le lolx =X the mp3 is realli cool! hahaz...dun wan ipod cuz every one got...n abit sick of it lolx...but i mux ipod is definitely more user friendly but i still like my mp3 =)

but my gift was another t-shirt (LET IT RAIN) haha bought 2 so that we hav the same one...our 2nd couple tee lolx...wanna buy dada a wallet cuz i cant stand the one he is using lolx...but he sae dun bother...save the money for my own use...wah so gud lehx...no wonder i love him so much...he so totful lor...

we went to my place after dinner n dada stayed over =) but i bz with my mp3 n he kip playing initial D on the PSP! aiyoh...anger mi...got PSP dun wan mi le izzit...lucky he got stop =) den we go brush teeth n lay in bed n chat...toked abt some stuffs he dun even noe...quite sad la...but lucky got dada for mi to lean on if not i realli dunno how to survive till todae...

todae(christmas Dae)
awaken at 10am...den we go to OCC for kor's church christmas lunch...food not bad lehx...the chef whu cooked the fish is gud...cuz the meat isnt overcooked n the fish is real fresh! but dada dun like cuz the arlic alot haha but i quite like it...

den we Bowl with tak, hong n Sy haha...quite fun arhz...tak pro lehz got turkey to celebrate christmas...dada sae dunno how to play end up oso play betta den mi haha but i oso dun realli noe how to play la...hehe =p

after dat we went to yishun 10 see got movie slots not...since no hav we went home slp till 8pm den eat dinner...hahaz den we jux chat with each other...aiyoH dada said alot of touching stuffs...so touched till my tears flow down leh he oso touched lor lolx...

I LOVE U DADA! UR THE BEST...UR ARE MY XING FU~ WITHOUT U I REALLI CANT SURVIVE FOR LONG...I NID U EVERYDAE OF MY LIFE...DUN EVER LEAVE MI KAES MUACKIEZ...

doing wad i like

2006-12-23T23:55:00.000+08:00

todae is a boring dae...kinda sick...having flu, cough n sorethroat...but dun care i still eat wad i like n drink cold drinks...like the chinese saying "yi(3) du(2) gong(1) du(2)" lolz

watched tv the whole dae...i planned to go church but didnt cuz my baby not gg with mi n i dun feel like gg out...supposed to tidy my room n do some work but didnt oso cuz i got stuck to the tv...

haoyi asked mi to go k with them at yiShun sAfrA but didnt feel like it...cant realli sing oso n like i sae dun wanna go out...partly oso dun wanna see some pple...n its quite far for mi to go...or shud i sae...simply LAZY

went clubbing with px, pat, ting, yeye and andy at DXO...the environment not bad lorx...cuz got non smoking area =) quite like it but the crowd wasnt there...so dancing started late...but better than phuture cuz at least no guys to tke advantage n i could realli dance...cuz of that experience im not gg to zouk again...dun like it...they got band performance haha not bad lorx...quite like it...

although i no guys took advantage of mi...a gal eat my tofu haha not realli la jux some gal whom i dunno came to dance with mi n like shake butt competition lidat but is friendly match la...so we shall be open n play eith her lo...haha anywae better den a guy come n grope mi yah...

but realli dunno why baby dun like mi to go club...im not those whu will pick up smoking cuz i dun like tha habit...im nt that a drunkard...i guess its more on the thing that guys will tke advantage...well jux becareful...i like to go cuz i like to dance mah...canot meh? dun expect mi to jux dance at home for nuttin wad...n it does feel awkward when some one is watching u n not dancing with u...cuz its not like a performance...hMmm mayb we are jux v different in this aspect...will his mindset change after gg with mi?

watch alot of tv programmes todae...so i post a qn...

"can we trust guys for the 2nd time after they cheat on the gal?"

myAns: N-O NO!
cuz once they do it once they will do it again...cuz like andy sae..."some guys think with their dickhead rather than the head on the neck" lolz how true...

dats wad mum sae n warn mi to rmb my stand forever n not be blinded by the love for the guy...but andy said sth too..."gals can oso do the same wad" true but i think it is less likely cuz the females will normally concentrate on their rship one guy at a time...not sae its not possible for a gal to cheat on her bf...cuz we've seen real cases ard us...but i think when a gal is serious abt settling down she will put her whole heart into it...am i right?

on the other hand i start to qn...do i realli trust my baby as much as i thought? when i said it i was very sure that my baby wun betray mi cuz he dun look at other gals de...hMmm n he loves mi a lot...even more than i love him...but the more i think i more i lose faith...dunno izit in myself or in him...shud we trust men to a limit so that we dun be as hurt? (sounds crappy) i dunno...

it depends on how each person think...right?

the reality of life...

2006-12-18T20:35:00.000+08:00

finalli im back again cuz its the hols and im free to slack a little haha but still gta stuDy...stupid or wad...many stuffs happened...n i saw quite abit abt human...

1st i shall start by popping this question...
WHO ARE THE CLOSEST PPLE TO U?
a) family
b) ur other 1/2
c) frens
d) stranger

well my ans will definitely be (B)...cuz without my baby i dunno wad will happen to mi...im alwaes so reliant on my baby...lucky dear dear is alwaes there to help mi up and let mi lean on him in times of trouble and sadness...

its even more scary and make mi realise the importance of him when i see how pple can present themselves in their mask n without them...terrible...its makes mi question myself...are they realli frens? or jux there when dey nid mi??? did they realli befriend cuz the realli wanted to? who are my real frens and who arent? i realli can no longer differentiate le...

i dunno why some frens can realli be so sacarstic...n its does feel that they mean it cuz they dun sae it cuz dey are joking...ask mi how to differentiate but i dunno its jux a feeling...RIGHT? somehow it seems that the frenship start jux for the sake of starting...and it wasnt a 2-wae thing...in the 1st place i think...i dun wan such a frenship...it jux sux when it seems to be wad ur thinking...not happy den dun see each other lor...dun show black face la...its not that im super eager liddat...so wad if im alone? i dun mind i can tke a nap slack or do sth until my baby knock off...its not like i nid a company badly and not that i dun hav others..dun understand why some pple can jux be so insincere...n hypocritical(if my england is correct)

i dunno mayb u might not get wad im trying to sae or to mean cuz i oso dun realli noe how to express it...jux dunno how to put it in words n to kip it confidential on certain stuffs so that we dun make the situation worse jux in case the "frenz" sees it...sort of dun even noe whether i consider them as my frenz still...

many things change ard mi as i hear of stories of them from certain pple and mayb i shud jux mind my own business and shall not comment on them but jux on how i feel abt frens as a general topic. its like sudden they can jux be so different y liddat?

am i influenced by the dramas i watch abt how ugly human can be?
and im slowly seeing the drama in reality...who can i trust? its realli sad that pple actualli dun mean wad they "act" to be...they turn out to be so self centered...im not saying dat im a saint but at least i can be true to myself that i treat my frenz quite well in some sense...at least the frenship on my side is sincere and wholehearted...

wad is the value of the frenship between pple izit measured by money or how much advantage the other one can give? or how superior u can become from comparing with ur frens? are frens onli there when they nid u? i dunno...

i seen how they can smile a bit when they cya...den like a bit not quite happi cuz of ur presence and fuck care how u think ltr and show u how sacarstic they can be with their comments den show u that the frenship isnt as treasured as u tot it was...and even show how heck care they are with ur common frens too...and suddenly with other pple ard dey start smiling and befriend like so damn gud lidat...pple can see thru the mask n tell mi "like quite hypocrite" lidat...when she barely noe the "fren"

somehow it goes in this wae...when u ruin one relationship its tough to mend it back thats all i can sae...[when "u" dun wanna see "them" it does not mean that "they" realli wanna see "u" too sometimes its jux a courtesy to ask...esp when the rship is already ruin by "ur" attitude]

enuff of this disheartening topic...
i did had a great time at sentosa celebrating zhen's birthdae had a gREat tan although i went home quite tired hahaz...at least i had fun being with her...and the effort she puts into our frenship is the same as mine...although we didnt realli spend much time with the guys but still felt quite fun with them ard haha cuz can luff at them =) i love my tan...gg back b4 sch starts again...haha...

went back to DFAC todae for camp renewal...for jux 1/2 a dae...zhen told mi that quite a few frm yj...lolx but i saw the person i dun wanna see most...well he gave mi the shocked faced and so dao mei in the same grp as him...aiYoh...i was like dun look at mi lidat i was here 1st...dunno why he like so damn "famous" there n i dun care but jux quite unhapi dat he show face...mayb is i too sensitive but damn it u think i wanna cya? i dun hate u but i dun wanna cya either...so i jux go lor aniwaes its the bukit timah hike...lazy oso no shorts oso...lucky didnt go after hey left abt 5min ltr it started to rain lolx...heng arhs we go cold storage with huda n azlan...lolx...den went velocity w zhen =) went home n slpt till nite...

i m realli glad that i hav my dear...he is the best ard! i love my baby! he even go to my clz christmas party with mi n when we got back home he quite high on wad linus sae..."he qute good lookin wad why u alwaes sae he not good lookin?" haha he gonna siao le...when he heard hadi sae he cute! hahaz...n he impressed my clzmates with his card tricks even zhen yan oso dunno how he do whahaha...he so cute...lost at daidee 3x and had to pump like 82 times cuz got one is 13 x 2 x 3 = 78 and +12 +2
dear dear is so cute~ i love him...

i'm BACKZ!!!

2006-10-16T00:12:00.000+08:00

its been a thousand yrs since i've blogged lolz...and i jux realised it lolz...many things happened in my life happy n sad, angry and pissed or crazy and fun =) most imptly i learnt abt pple in this holiday...or shud i sae HUMAN BEINGS...

basically whu can we trust in this world?

the one whu seems to be the best among the bestfriends might jux be "bestfriend" and hlping u make all the wrong decisions, influencing u to look at pple in the wrong angle...turn ur life upside down n u still trust her like dunno wad...mayb she is jux there to ruin ur life? mayb she is jux jealous that u've found a sth so precious n wonderful...

n we call these "bestfriends" the super backstabber!

another species of human live in this world to tke advantage of ppl...

after working...we can confirm that ppl are in some sense attracted to FREE gifts lolz...they wun wanna tke ur flyers on the ususal daez...but u show the FREE GIFT *ting* their eyes brighten up n tkes the flyers frm u! AmAzinG!!! den they will open their mouth " can gimme one more?" no some even power...they tap u on the shoulder n stretch out their hand, when u look at them they point at the FREE GIFT!and its lagi more amazing to see them walking round n round taking the GIFT frm u again n again...not twice, not THRICE but i've met one uncle whu took like 8-1o from mi!! until i had to tell him off! den there are oso aunties coming to u n sae "can i hav another one (so u jux giv), 1 more i wanna give my daughter (okie so u give 1 more), 1 more lah i wanna give my son (so u give one more), jux 1 more...i wanna give my husband..."

wahKao! and as andy sae " auntie u wan tke the whole stack?" or " why not u count the no. of ppl in ur family tree den come n tell mi u wan how many" now u see the sides of these grp of pple i call the YEOW GUIz lolz

the next grp of contenders happened to be my buddies...

they love their gal too much...dat no matter how she hurts him...he still love her...i realli admire the courage and the power of love...cuz if it was mi...mayb i've died like until dunno wre...or sad till i die of crying...and suffer frm dehydration...n hide myself frm everyone....and this grp of pple need the support of frens esp the gal whu he loves...so i will support them...him/her...and be their v gud fren whu listens n be their...i call this grp...the LOVELY BUT NOT LOVED (wadever cant think of a nice name lolx...)

izit human nature to hurt the pple ard us?

even the person we love the most in our life...even thou u dun mean it most of the time...and u sae the most stupid thing in ur life noeing that u didnt meAN IT at all...that its jux an excuse to run awae frm the situation? and saying wad u realli meant seems to be as difficult as touching the moon? is letting go a gud solution to prevent ourselves frm hurting them again?

laST nite was one of the worse nite i ever had in my entire life...i hurt my dear badly n so did he...but i guess it was entirely my fault for being too sensitive...i threatened to commit suicide if he dun let mi go home...i said too much hurtful words that i dun even rmb wad i said...i knew very well i love him alot...i knew very well that i wanna spend the rest of my life with dear...n i definitely kNow that he is one guy that i cant giv up for other gals to grab him awae...he sae i took him for granted...mayb i realli did...he said...

"when was the last time u cared for the pple whu love u?

when was the last time u did sth for someone?

ur parents spoilt u...so much so that wad they do nv please u...( i guess so...but do they realli know whu am i? do they realli understand mi? i guess not...they think thay understand mi n know mi inside out onli lor)

i love u alot...and i spoilt u too...dats why im in this state now...u tke mi for granted...

the number of times he got angry in this 2 yrs was even more than his entire life before i came into the picture...mayb 2x or even 3x more...(am i dat bad?)

MAYB WE SHOULD RECONSIDER OUR RELATIONSHIP...ARE WE REALLI SUITABLE FOR EACH OTHER...(the statement that im most fearful of)"

when he asked mi if i will cherish him...my heart saes YES but my actions said i dunno

"do u still wan this relationship to carry on?" i shrugged my shoulders again but i realli wanna sae YES! but on the other hand i was thinkin mayb dear dear might be better off without mi...cuZ im alwaes making him upset...im alwaes making him angry...i noe i cant be so noble to let him off so i jux continue crying...he said he might not treat mi as well as he used to be cuz he is afraid of gettin himself hurt again...his heart had died half le...i knew very well that i cant let him go...he wanted to leave...but i didnt wan him to go...cuz if he did he means that he wanna leave me behind n walk through his life without mi n leave mi for good...thank God he didnt...

i guess i realli dunno how to express myself...to tell him my feelings...cuz i alwaez hide my actual tots...and often i get upset abt little things n awhile ltr i forgot wad actualli made mi pissed...most of the time jux leave mi alone n i'll be fine le...haiz...after last nite...i dun wanna cry that badly again n for the same reason again...im gonna love him so much! and im gonna try my best to change...for him!

i call myself n the grp of pple whu are like mi the "EXPRESSOPHOBIC" meaning afraid to express our real tots n feelings...okie im lame...zzz

gg back to sch le...i hate sch!!!

burn the SCH!!!damn it!

freaking pissed

2006-06-21T14:22:00.000+08:00

blooDying hell the stupid agency kip hanging up my phone wtf sias....they trying to cheat my mOney....mY dad even drove mi to the add they gave mi n it turned out to be selling lingerie!!!!! wad shit siaz...how they even wanna cheat awae my 1st month pay! and the stupid ah neh niD mY dad to call him den he pAy kAoz...den didnt pay all summOre! shit siaz... thinK of it i oso angry! how can sUCh thing hAppen siAz...damn it! so uNreliABle de...the stupid agenCy oSo arhz!

they think they can jUx hang up on mi n i juX fcuk care arH....i can be easy but when the blOody hell get on mY nerves they think i goNna let them off so easily?! damn it!

EVERYONE OUT THERE...ESP TO MY FRENZ WHU GIVE TUITION TOO! IF U HAPPENED TO CALL AN AGENCY CALLED ACE, BETTA SIAM! CUZ THEY ARE A BUNCH OF RUDE CHEATS!

arGHhhHH!

2006-06-07T13:44:00.000+08:00

jux realised that i havent blog for quite some time...haha doing now during my break b4 sociology test cuz im so bored and i dun wanna study le...haiz i like read my stupid notes for more than 5 times la...SIANz wad can get more sianz den dis i realli dun understand y the socio teacher dun wanna put the test at tthe usual lect time wahlao make mi wait so long if not i would hav finished it le!den i will go beach rd hlp dear to do his nametag...

todae is dear and my 18th month tgt le =) lols so happi lor...we last so long le...but we still like at our hunnYmOon period oMg! so loving! muAckz mUAckz...hahaz...im jux so glad that i with dear cuz he is the best...at least he truely cares for mi n love mi for who i m...despite my lousy temper and so mafan n blur...i dunno wre we going tonite but i realli hope that i got flowers...but i noe i wun =( haha but nvm la...dear sae that they dun last so not realistic dun waste money...so okie loooooooOrrrRrz...

todae i wore a dress to sch haha FOR the 1st time!!! lolx...i v long no wear dress le worz...

tracking back on wad happened before this post n after the previous one...i SERIOUSLY dun rmb...haha i've been slackin so badly... =( haiz...finalli hols are coming le =) time to realli catch up man....

last nite dear told mi that he finish the 1st book i wrote to him haha...(records of the past) he sae its v nice =) n he was reading it n not stuDyInG for his test todae!!!hahaz...its realli great to hav all the sweet memories recorded although dis yr there isnt many sweet times but even little little stuffs can make the dae romantic... =) n reading it jux let us recall and luff at each other which is so sweet...

may i'LL start another book...TODAE since its a special dae~ haha

hMmm i was thinkin yest. at SGH that iF i realli wanna become a phySio cuz i canT imAgiNe mYself doinG that in the near fuTuRe...i stiLl feel thA i duNno wad to do...mAyb i mighT mAke my pAtientS worse! oMg! mAyb i jUx stArted and dun feel like studying lOlz...but i certainly enJoYed luFF with mary, yanjia n peiling on the train...suddenly i felt like im their kai xin guo...cuz i dunno why they alwaes luff at mi...n the stuFf i sae esp the 5birds(in indian accent)

MARY SAES THAT IM A BALLERIN TODAE =) NOT THE USUAL CHOR LOR N MAD BASKETBALLER lolz...

my shot

2006-05-24T17:47:00.000+08:00

wow todae i went for my 6th blood donation wah the blood test!I THINK KENNA MY NERVE cuz according to Tan CB, it shudnt be painful cuz there's v few sensory nerve on the fingers so it wun feel so pain but my 4th finger ish painful like dunno wad canot even use it to type lor...hahaz great i did a gud deed todae =)

after lessons i went to do shots for the sch...haha okie la quite fun and a while onli hehe but the make up was so thick! =p there's lots of work todae but once again i dun feel like moving at all! haiz...

i miss dear especially his long hair...stupid army stupid carlie...den my dear's hair alwaez like botak so ugly...he looks so cute in his long hair den esp when he cut until v straight haha den like use bowl lidat v cute! =X haix...sch sux! ike jux start dn gonna test le...haiz...oso dunno how to study lorz -_-" HELP!

dear gonna POP frm sispec - YAY! no more charlie! no more BOOK IN =) hehez...i can see hiM every dae =) edden is comapny best again...this time sCh best suMmore and best in PT (or sth lidat) so li haiz~it realli hlps to be strong n fit huhz...honor of the sports clz =) hooray!

hav i get so used without dear...

2006-05-19T15:18:00.000+08:00

for 4d3n i dint get to tok to my deArest...3 daes of nutcracker and the 3rd nite he wasnt free enuff for mi...hAiz...his stuPiD cockass compAny lA~ SO GaRang onli -_-" come on lorz...like ive mentioned so many blOody times so unFair to him!

i still do miss darlin aloT bUt mAyb i didnt send him a lot of smses...
cuz im bz with my sch stuFfz i hardly have enUff slp le....and my work are piling uP like no one's buSiness...cuz iTs ONLI my problem la! damn siAz....

i onli got to tok to my dearest last nite and i was bz doIng my cuLTure researCh and memOrizing mY anAtoMy~ hAiz end up nO diScuSsion and i dun rmB a single thing for my aNAtomY...when Dr. Uma came near My hearT puMped so fast thAt i mighT juX get a heart attAck...hAiz...im stupid la...jUX plAin stupid! den dear said thAt i've reallli got so used to him not being ard and sooner or later i will leave him and dun love him anymore~

no suCh thiNg lo...i do admit i hAv kiNda goT uSed to iT but thAt doesnT mean thAt i love u~ and i duN miss u...cuZ i hAv to adapt to it as i cant possibLy be crying for dear everydae wAdz~ and anOther thinG iS thAt i m bZ with my work....i kNew i did hurt dear lAst nite cuz of this iSsue...bUt in mY hEart i stiLL very muCh wanna spend time with dear and be with him~ if poSsiBle i woUld rather giv uP my stuDies...its stRessin mi too mUch le! im going crAzy and now i seems to be neglectIng dear...im realli sorry...bUt i cant giVe uP my bOoKs cuZ i canT affoRd to...easY to sAe...but whu is goNna provide mi? i cant be dependent on oThErs lorz...and i'll be waStInG my life awae if i dun go coNtRuCtive stUFfs in mY life...isnt thAt worse? i duN wanna be soMeone so useless and woRtHless...not contribuTinG to mY family nor the soCiety in other words jux a stupid freeloader...waste food resources onli...

life is tough!
can i call it quits?
can i juz cry myself to death and leave this cruel world?
can the world stop stressing n hurting mi?
im going crazy le...wads with the face the REALITY?!

i rather stay in my dream...total fufilment of life with my dearest pple...and live in jux the beautiful memories and not face REALITY which is jux a whole lot of bullshit that the world hav on us!arghhhh~ crap!

i miss my dearest

2006-05-16T08:49:00.000+08:00

life ish boring without dear ard cuz he ish such a cheery person alwaez puttin a smile on my face with his stupid lame jokes and acts~ he luffs at his own jokes and not at mine =( although dear dear looks fat he actually onli weighs 60kg! why pple still cant see e diff? he realli slim down a lot le...majority of the baby fats on his face lost le...n his waist is so much small...the used to be fitting DCP jeanz is s loose now and he has to get 1 size smaller for his levis...oHhh...dear cant go any thinner le! i dun like to hug bones...i like to hav a cushion to lie on when i watch tv and nt slp on bones when we nap...but i noe u wun get to bones de la...hahaz cuz dear ish so pig...eat n slp...see...life ish so bored dat i hav to crap on my blog...haiz...

nyp system sux totally! i dun like...but the teh-c(with a lot of c) in sch ish cheap n gud!onli 40 cents! the yong tau foo at the north canteen ish the best of all bah~ hahaz...v nice! is dat why the aj pple alwaez come? pls lor already no place to sit still come nyp tke out seats kaoz...

ydae malay lesson was okie...better at tutorial...n my malay jux sux! hahaz...the lecturer still kip tokin to the childish nursing 16 yr old kids...argh! dun like her i prefer my tutor! prettier and younger and more frenly oso...at least she dun like leave pple behind and tok to jux the pple sittin in front of her....niCe voice too...after 2 lessons...saya tidak dau melayu! i onli noe...
lelaki = male
perumpuan = female
saya cinta awak = i love u
selamat hari raya
selamat pagi - gud morning
selamat tenggahari = gud afternoon
selamat malam= gud nite
selamat hari jadi = happi burfdae
selamat hari ibu = happy mama's dae!
awak bodoh macham babi = u stupid like pig!
hahaha
and most imptly,
saya nama sharon = my name ish sharon
hahaz dots...at least i noe more den last week...cuz last week i onli noe bodoh macham babi and aku takdau melayu...come to look at it actualli i noe quite a bit huhz...i jux nid to learn how to form sentences hehez...

oHhh...drums toDae so hAppI v loNg nV touCh druMs le... =X

pictures

2006-05-14T23:48:00.000+08:00

why dear muz book in?

2006-05-14T22:21:00.000+08:00

it was 3 daes of bdae celebration for mi...it was the most memorable birthdae i had in a gud n bad wae...

11 may 06
went to sch nicely dressed and with make up =) for the 1st time so far...
den lessons were as usual and during lunch...while i was waiting for my food,huixin jux pulled mi and ran back to wre we sit and the clz was there with a bangawan solo bdae cake...den i realize that that is y the whole clz is at food junction that dae...and why the whole clz ish trying to get space to sit all tgt...(thou it wasnt possible but we tried) and why they kept askin us to go buy food...the plot was to get mi awaez...the celebration was unexpected! total surprise and the clz made mi a birthdae card with tigger playing bball =) haha cOol i love it..Thx PT02!!!

after sch was celebration with the other 3 crazy galz...namely, peixi, pat and yuting hahaz...i ended earli so i reached town early too...so i walked ard and den go HMV listen to music...tempted to get the tke the lead ost but it wasnt dat nice think jux get the movie hao le...den finally px n yuting reached but pat isnt here yet...end sch the earliest among dem den lastest...after dat den i noe she went to harbor front to get my walnut cheese birthdae cake so nvm la haha on the account of the yummy cake...CHEESE summore haha
we had our dinner at billy bombers...honey chicken and the oat fish and chips haha...we were craking lame jokes luffin at each other and catching up...hehes i realli had a great time!wanna tke pic but too late le the stupid counter gal dun let us change for coins damn lorz...next time dun wan fgo there tke le...
so we went to look for somewre to chill went to balcony but the place looKs like a gambling den upstairs...not nice...and the music not v gud thou...haha so we went starbuckz and jux ordered a mocha fruppacino haha and the 4 crazy galz bagan their crazy acts when weshifted to th sofa seat haha...we kip tking pics n making a fool of ourselves but i realli enjoyed my company with dem =) i love u gals!!!THANkZ LOtZ

12 may o6
was slackin at home after my tuition...damn didnt wanna go de...but since im free so okie lorz...haiz...earn money bah~ slack till i v sianz wanna see dear oso cant! anger mi onli lorz...why cant?! end up evening i da ban le den go meet dear at bugis...he bought mi a couple nike bag...haha he likes it more den i do but since he wants de buy lorz...den jux happened dat mi n sy wore the same pants arGhHh! hahaz...den we took cab to holland v...wah got lost so ask for hlp frm mr lim den up ms tan told us how to go muAhAha~ so mAlU~
settles cafe not bad la...gud concept but the manage,et not dat gud la...hahaz...food oso okie...hahaz...had swensen's ice cream cake dat nite =) cool! nice wors....we payed snorta...haha quite fun cuz the a test of memory n rxn oso hahaz...quite cute la...hehez...while the guys chat with mr lim abt ns -_-" again~ nv ending...den play daidee...haha 1st time i see teachers playin daidee!!!wah...
after dat dear and mi go town cuz we wanna watch poseidon...
movie starts at 0040am so we had to go somewre chill 1st...haha startbucks again~ bought cocoa cuz dear cant tke coffee at nite...wah taste like milo lorz...almost fall aslp le...den we left the place and watch movie haha...it was a disappointment iexpected it to be betta...cuz the pple were supposed to escape as fast as possible but the were wasting time...the worse part was "say that u love mi...i nid u to sae that u love mi..." wah den the gal kip cryin onli and the guy kip askin here to sae...pls lor...jux sae and jux go la!idiots! -laxin-
after dat we took cab home and i prepared the bed for dear to slp...but we watch final fANTaSY instead...didnt finish den i could tke it le...wanna slp...so we slpt haha...feels nice to be in dear's arms n slp tgt at my hse summore! dear i love u

13th may o6
woke up at 1pm...it did rain b4 that =) so nice to slp...esp with dear ard hahaz...we arrange back my drums den we prepare to go out for food...but my bloody hp cant work pissing mi off totally~den my mum was so sensitive tot i dun wan her to go out with her when i asked dear to ask her out for lunch de...cuz i tot the next dae ish mum's dae and i didnt get to spend enuff time with her...which pissed mi more...real unhappi!realli dun wan tok le so i jux left home...we took a cab to bras brasah for the bacarrat restaurant for buffect cuz dear fren sae v nice...but end up not opened...end up at marche...nvm la...at least dear managed to make mi smile again...we went to buy v3i...cuz dear wan...den go to his place but went to his ah ma hse 1st...i slpt thru out the bus ride...dunno why so tired...slpt even at his place after my shower...realli didnt wanna go home but dear msg mum and den ask mi go home...den i became forced to go home! i guess its the unhappiest bdae i had so far...but i was okie after dat...no pt making it so unhappi for everyone esp mi! its my birthdae leh!

14th may o6
its kim bdae todae...jux sent him a msg his pressie still at home hahaz...went to dear's place as usual and slpt as usual too but i managed to study todae oso.,..why dear hav to book in again i reali dun like it...its like a weekend den he book in the next 3d2n i cant contact him again...i was think why the trg can be of diff standards?can we realli trust the soldiers frm the companies that are slack to protect us? protect the country?i realli hav my douBts...its unfair to pple in the xiong companies like my dear...and not benificial to the country's defense! haiz i dunno...whu would care abt mi?im jux a little gal whu's bf happens to be in charlie company...every week i miss dear...haiz...how i wish he POP tml! and end all these shit he ish experiencing!

oHhh i wan mY huBbY!

2006-05-08T21:00:00.000+08:00

haha for the 1st time i watch "so u think u can dance" haha man they are grEat!
it realli makes mi more determined to learn arGentiNe tAnGo and to go bAck for my bAllet as well as to work oN mY hiPhoP mAn~
Saw ballerinas at nyp doing their pointe and warming uP i oso wanna be like dem!
i wanna dance on the stage gracefully AGAIN!
but no dance Partner...hAiz...

todae was anAtoMy prac mAkeuP...we went to see the cadevour(dunno ish spelT liDDats nots most likely not haha) in other word the dead bodies for oUr reSearch...learning anAtoMy yA....okIe i was feel okie...but dun realli like it...haha to some its like eerie yah...

its our 1st malay lesson n they are duMpin us with so many stUffs...AiYoH n we were like trying to fiGure oUt wad everytinh means n mAking fun or everying like how to say "smell mY butt" which iS most prob bau saya pantak haha...lolz but i did enJoy...haha...

i miss dear v mUch lorz...tml he go back tekOnG wun hear frm hiM =( haiz...huBBy mUz tke care....

baby got route march...

2006-05-04T19:58:00.000+08:00

was approached by some teacher in sch to do a brochure shot for the sch...
but todae i rej her le...
cuz no one wanna accompany mi and i feel kinda paisehs to do it...
i scared pple make farnie farnie comments...
yah dats why after dat i decided not to do it thou i wanna go play play...
i still cant realli decide...

wanna play bball wih my clzmates de but not in the attire to do so...
went home n i slack till now haha...
dear dear called mi after 1/2 of his route march...cuz he went back for dinner...
get to tok to darlin...
haha den he sae got some crew came to film
haha den its their company marchin n singin the song muahaha
dunno if can see darlin notz...dun even noe if i'll get a chance to watch it haha
ohh so sianz dun wan study...
physio ish realli tough!

a stinky dae!

2006-04-26T21:28:00.000+08:00

its the most stinky dae of my life! i cant imagine dis!!!

it was raining and we played captains ball with the physio seniors ya...it was okie but as an injury-prone kiD...yes i fell...wads worse was i fell into a puddle of water! after the thingy...a few of us went running...onli ran 1 round i giv up...dun wanna run le! so i jUX sat and toked to jasmiNe...after dat i went for the frisbee trg...it wasnt much...not v fun lorz...got 2nd tots again...mayb i shud go back to bball but the gals are strong man...i scared i c.m.i into the team...another thingy is i dun wanna commit too much into my cca...cuz physio is quite hectic n tough so if i get too involved im afraid i cant cope with so mani thingys!

it was raining and raining so my tee was dry and as its dri fit it dries easily too...so i ended up being smell cuz of the rain and the sweat oHH i cant even stand it myself! i was abt to puke when i was sittin on the bus on the wae home! goSh! StinKs!

another thingy...i find it v stupid to go to sch den end up with lectures being e-learning...wads their proB?! i like to not attend clzes but dey kip puttin stuffs for e-learning...and one of the lect on fri is for us to present the proJects and its sth like we do it and present or in toher words teach the lecture grp on that topic...if we are doing the job for the lecturers den why do the sch wanna employ her?man we are students n she is the lecturer why are we doing her joB?! i dun understand! so stupid...

another thing...the lecture notes we get and the e- learning slides are the same...doesnt it jux defeats the purpose of having dis e-learning system? so lame! arhs...their notes sux n so do the lecturers...y cant they jux teach properly?!

scHooLin VS freeDom

2006-04-24T08:25:00.000+08:00

guess i mux realli learn how to make bloggin a habit...jux like the wae i write to my dear in the notebook everydae...

sch started and im like i dunno abt whether i can cope...
the notes
sux...no pictures short explaination...come to think of it although those lecturers are like Dr. so and so...they cant teach as compAred to YJ'S teachers who are like degree holders,at most mAsters...lectures are redundant! dey got us to buy txtbkS and guess i will hav to rely on them le... =( N i hate txtbks...so bulky, heavy and EXPENSIVE!!!
the classmates
BOYS
i dunno to sae that they are hardworkin or kiasu...going to the library to read up on bio...start doing tutorials! they are stressin mi out!
GIRLS
they are a nice bunch but i dunno izit mi but mostly i hav nuttin much to sae...mayb i dunno how to start a conversation...mayb its jux the 1st week...its normal to feel the distance....mab its cuz they knew each other le...come frm the same JC blah blah...but im the miserable lonely YJCian... =( there's a YJCian but she ish in OCCUPATIONAL THERAPY...arhz....zhen zhen...guess the both of us are in a similiar situation...
the school
nuttin interesting...except for the exsistance of cheers wre i can POP my POPCORNS =)
ME
im beginning to feel that freedom is better...at least i wun hav to start gettin stressed out and can hav more free time...physio seems tough...and dear is sufferin in the army too... =( i realli love the dae when the both of us were so free...cuddle in bed the whole dae...i miss the daes we go pa tor...shoppin and walkin to no wre but jux enjoying ourselves...no nid to worry abt time...everydae ish spent without worries and nv apart...

hav i sink in too deep into dis relationship?
YES
i realli cant bear to let dear go...
listening to his weekly stories hurts mi...
seeing his body with injuries, rashes and mosquito bites jux pains my heart
everytime when its time for him to leave i jux dun feel like lettin him go...
every week i jux hope that we could run to somewre to be alone
BUT WE CANT
the little time we hav now ish realli not enuff
everytime we wake up frm our nap
its evening and time for dinner...
time to go soon...
one more month to go...izit considered long or short?
i dunno...
its another 4 yrs plus before he get out of army...
since dear wanna get the lump sum...
it wud be another 9+ yrs
wud it realli be like dis?
is he gonna remain in his line thru out his life?

super long no blog siaz

2006-04-13T22:43:00.000+08:00

realli dun hav the habit of using com everyday jux to blog...lOokin back, its been like a thousand yrs since i blogged! other en missin my dearest, its still missin my dear~

my last camp ended todae!
marymount pri 5! oHhh gOSh!
super busy today cuz of the stupid rain~
we had to kip everything...tents flYin all over like kites liddat~
damn!
left earli...f***king bus driver bluff mi~ den i had to tke pUbliC tranSport out...
"rush" as mUch as i coUld to DFAC
meet zhen and get pay!
"ruShed" summore to nyP for oUr orienTation...
5hRs late!!!
pHySio pple quite clever de...moStly frm top sch...
todae v tired lorz...
last nite sit at RM's lighthouse to chat
end up onli had 1 hr 51 min to slp...
so tired!
dear haven call...oHhh mY~
when ish he callin??

haiz...so very sick...

2006-02-27T11:24:00.000+08:00

come back from thailand got a few daez le but my cough and flu seems to get worse...on sat we went to celebrate cha's bdae =) ate at some american restaurant haha...the volcano wings are like "BOOM!" haha but dear sae its quite nice haha...we ordered a triple platter...consist of chicken, steak and pork ribs with wedges haha...but i didnt eat muCh can sae that dear finish the whole plate cuz i didnt hav the appetite...i was realli restless and uncomfortable...dear even sae i no backbone lidat cuZ i kip leaning on him and wads worse i cant hear properly cuz its so blocked up...cuz of my flu...so i left earli didnt even cut the cake jiu go le...dear when woth mi cuz he sae he wanna accompAny mi to see the doc...so we went to the clinic lorz...doctor fees $36 buCks...sia la...ex sehhhz...den dear walk mi hOme...and FED mi my medicine cuz i sainai saying, " wo shen bing lehz" haha den he kip teasing mi with dat phrase le -_-" den dear hlp mi the take oUt mY braids hehez...he pull oUt so mANi hAir siAz...hahaz...den he left for home...he sae got a lot of things to do so not staying over at my plAce~ =( supposed to wait for his call when he get home but i got so drowzy dat i slpt le... =( sorries darlin~

went to his hSe on Sundae...haha...ate a bit den slp all the wae till 6pm... muZ be the medicine again...woke up to hv dinner den dear feed mi again =) haha xinG fu! so gud de dear go wre find? hahaz...

coming 7th march iSh dear's Passin out parade le... =) and iTz oso our 15th month together le =) im so happi for him and for us...

For him cuz he nid not suffer at BMT haha but since he wanna go OCS i think it will be worse at OCS lorz...haha but im still happi for him...hopefulli my baby will get into OCS lorz...it wun be dat diff for him bah i guess haha since he so popular in his bunk and platoon hehez...everyone seems to like him alot =) mayb he ish so cute and funni dat he alwaez bring joy to others haha

for uS cuz its gonna be 15 months together le and we are still so loving and sweet...the honeymoon period can last up to 3 yrs but mani pple's honeymoon period dun last dat long...im realli glad to hav him as my dear...izit fate? yes! definitely! i realli wanna be with dear as long as possible...till death do us part? nO~ longer den that...our love will continue after life....hehe...

recallin wad seems to had happened a thousand yrs le...

2006-02-24T13:01:00.000+08:00

startin from 1st aid....everything went thru smoothly and i passed it gud for mi~
the next thing i rmb was on the 2nd dae, after 1st aid course...i went to darlin's hse to wait for him to come back...and i stayed over dat nite...it was a pity dat i had to wake up earli the next morning for my 1st aid...haiz...den i rushed back after dat den we went to wheellock with siyun n edden to meet the rest to celebrate tak's bdae hahaz...the next dae i went to dear's hse as earli as i could but i didnt reach earli la...i wasnt feelin well...end up i was there resting till dear had to leave for tekong haiz...im sorri...

the next event that happened jux passed...it was my trip to thailand...it was ok la...
dae 1
reached thailand at 7+ sg time = 6+ thai time...went to meow's hse (fAmily fren) to stay...had dinner den we went to some place with ultra posh cinema...cool...onli got 40 seats in the one i watched...got mani diff clz one...and it jux got more posh and comfortable~ i watched Big mOmma's hse 2 there...well the movie was okie la...not dat funni oso la...onli the ending more funni...if i rate its like 3 stars?wun recommend it la...but its okie to watch la...as in its not like a muz see movie lor...mayb i sian dao for the travellin la...cuz the traffic sux there...short distance oso can tke like 1/2 hr - 1 hr to reach plus my ears are sufferin cuz of the pressure...and im very uncomfortable the whole nite...or shud i sae the whole trip! cuz its still not cleared~

dae 2
was brought to a shoppin centre...bought quite a few stuffs there...and i did my nails! beautiful! hahaz as usual the traffic sux...it took mi abt 2 hrs to reach there...den go back to hav steamboat den at nite go to chit lom cuz my mama wanna go pray...it was quite le when we reached...ohhh i took the thai mRt haha...the enterance gate ish like wad we used to hav in SingApore! i think since we changed to ez-link they soLd the old ones to dem hahaz...dat God realli a lot of pple pray siaz...the sell flower de earn alot bah i think...and the thai dancers hardly hav rest siaz...hehe...den mum bought birds to release hahaz...den i released dem...it realli feels great to see dem able to stretch their wings to fly! u see the birds in the cage v poor thing lor...if got money i will free all...jux cuz i wan dem to be free haha but i no money oso nvm... -_-"

dae 3
actualli ish go dreamland de...but got sudden chage of plan to go shoppin 1st the shoppin centre v big but like nuttin to shop haha...but it was oso there dat i pleated my hair haha nice siaz...but i think i will like it betta if they do in the wae like alicia keys haha...and its realli cheap to do it siaz...onli 350 baht to wash, blow and pleat...which ish abt S$15 onli!!! after dat we went to dreamland...but didnt get to play the rides cuz they close at 5pm and we reached at 4:15pm -_-" cuz meow tot they close at 7+...but that onli apply for weekends!!!!!!damn! i wanna play arhz...end up jux go in see see and tke pics den go le...at nite we went clubbing...actualli ish go to a ultra posh club...route 66...its damn big and nice la...play english r n b, hip hop de...suits us more...cuz i dun like techno la...but that place very strict mux got passport if not canot go in...but think! whu wud go ard w the passport...wad if lost? den cant go home le wor...dats why didnt go in lor...but that place nid to be 20 den can go in...end up we went to another club called hollywood...dad sae ish quite famous oso la...but i dun realli like it there...why?
1. no dance floor (wanna dance...dance ard the table allocated...and wads worse the table very close to each other de...quite squeezy)
2. they play techno ( told u i dun like le lorz...boom boom boom wre got nice?so diff to dance...truthfully other den shake head i dunno wad to do)
3. live band (sia la...thou the singer was cute the lady singers are like jux showing flesh...BITCHy siaz...and the dancers sux at dancing!thou im not the best dancer la...even my mum n meow oso sae they sux...no feel de...its like doing for the sake of doing)
4. 2nd live band...nice but i almost fall aslp...its boring to watch and not noe how to sing...and ur down there jux tryin to appreciate the music and a lady standing singin onli but the plUs pt abt it...thEy hAd the Best druMMer in thAiland plAyin!! he's great esp his head...up dpwn up down haha so hard siaz...scared his head drop siaz haha)
but overall still ok ok la...cuz in the middle got hop hop and rnb songs...and that nite i drank 3 bottles...1 bacardi lemon, 2 cruiser raspberry...i was okie la...but i think the last part cuz i gulp down abt 1/3 of the bottle to finish it den go back dat time like uncomfortable liddat abd i think cuz her cousin drive us back and he drive real fast bah...i cud like feel the car flyin?! haha like roller coaster lidat cuz the road oso not smooth de...quite bumpy

dae 4
im back...slp for abt 3 hrs den go airport come back...found out that results release on wed damn it and i got camp that dae...put mi in a diff spot onli but in the end i still got go camp la...cuz i wan the money haiz.......zao zi dao i dunid to spend extra 80 bucks to come bACK earli! damn damn damn pissed siaz...

*BABY I MISS U!!!*

piss dae

2006-02-15T19:48:00.000+08:00

it was an ultra boring dae cuz i stayed home cuz mum was complaining that i m alwaez not at home haiz...so i tried to slp in as late as i could...den i watch alexander vcd...haiz watch till wanna slp sian arhz...so SIANz! tml 1st aid course summore...haiz...im so bored with life...dear not ard...how to stay alive lidat?! i miss my dear so muCh everydae oso missing him...and everydae...i jux feel worse den yesterdae

todae oreadi very sianz mood not very gud le...den next week im coming back earlier to get my results den hav t pay extra 80 bucks and my mum like like screaming my head off! damn it...u think i wan? sae dun wan go le lor...damn thing! the results betta be out by den if not im mum ish gonna kP mi even more...hAiz...

dear wre are u?

are u lost in the jungle?

why this 5 daez seems so diff to pass...so long lorz...

but whenever im with u...

1 hr ish like 1 min?

baby i realli nid u with mi~

i love u too much to lose u...

how i wish u cud appear right now...

spend time tokin to mi...

playing with mi...

even if iTs like slpin together...

i juX wanna be bY ur side...

dear...

ur absence ish torturing mi...

and i cant tke it ani longer

u noe i hate waiting...

i hav no patience

den y are u lettin mi wait for sO long?

i had enuff le...

but for u i will continue waiting...

haha bUt it is ALL JUX FOR U...

u betta be touched and cry for mi too!

u hav taken awae too muCh of my tears le...

u betta pAy back!

with all ur love, care and sweetness u can gimme arhz...

uNhApi vAlenTinE's dAe

2006-02-14T23:07:00.000+08:00

"why?"
"cuz i cant spend it with dear thou iM happi to spenD it with mY buDdies...i still wan dear very mUch!"
"oHhh~ aniwae hAppi vAlenTine's dae to mYselF...and every one out there celebrating it..."

oHhh wAd lAme shit was that...but truThfuLLi...i've been trYinG to be very sTrONg withoUt u with mi...mAnY things hAppeNed...iT was sUppOsed to be the SEASON FOR LOVE but wre's the love? mi gettin pissEd with some bitch...cuZ oF somethinGy thAt she did to mY buDdy~ hAiz...wad the fuck iSh wrong wiTh her?!

thou iT wAs vAlenTine...i wAsnT lOOkinG forward to it and intenDed to stAy hOme and hiDe awae from the poSsiBle miSeries...but cha cha ASked uS to go to sch to plAy bball so we went bUt before that we went bUy flOwers for waiting with carol haha...actualli shud be plAying bAll dbut we ended up tokin...

AfTeR dAt we when to diNg tAi feng at biShan for food and took stiCker pHoto...den plAy play awhile...oHhh yA...we shoOt some arrow thingy...cuz they promoTinG sex aftEr mArriage poliCy hahaz...den rush hOme for diNner den ruSh to yio chu kAnG for drivinG lessoNz...hahaz...siAnz...and dats wad mY vdae was abt...

but iTs been uPset cuz...everyone was askin wre's my valenTine and how am i spending it but mY dear ish at tekoNg...hAvinG field camp and i kiP repeaTing anSwering siMilAr qns...thAt i realli canT tKe iT animore...nO offense la gAls...bUt i've been feeling so bAd siNce 7th feb and the fri which i fell aslp...trying to coNtrOl mY emOtions from the very 1st person whu ask mi dat those qnz...till when lin asked mi...i realli cudnt tke it animore...im so uPset and i miSs him so mUch...im sorry bAobei iF my sUdden breakdwn when u asked mi...i dun blame u...and dun blAme urself...but im realli sorri cuz i realli cant tke it and i cant forgiVe mYself for lAnding mYself in suCh a stAte...

dat's y iM so guilty and sad
i cried...
im realli sorri dear...

thou its anothEr special vdae for us...without u being ard...but as loNg as i can be with u i realli dun mind...like dey dae...as lonG as we're happi.........everydae can be vdae! i love u *muAckZ*

im sorry...

2006-02-12T21:07:00.000+08:00

its been so so so long since i bloGGed..........

ive havent toK to deAr siNce 7tH!!! cuz i got camp and wadz next...when im fianlli back...i fell aslp unknowingly and missed his call im so upset and angry with mySelf for being such a slpyhead!i've disappointed him so much and im sure he was damn depress when he didnt hear frm mi...im realli sorri darlin...i realli dun mean to de... thou they alwaez sae dat dear will understand the situation de...and i noe he will too...but it lies with mi...so guilty and i oso wanna
hear is voice...now dat i had to wait so loNg...den even if 17th get results....i cant meet him to get it cuz i got 1st aid couRse...till sat...=(

time passes so slowly without dear ard...n after this im even more sure that i do love u alot and i realli miss u like crazy...abSence mAkes the heart fonder...true...but dear's absence ish wae too long!plS coMe back...damn...why im like so bz dat i cant get to dear? why why why???

thou im bz but i think my daes will be touGh to pass...=( im sorri dear...dat my life ish like so occupied...hAiz...i realli dunno wad to do...and im doing things for the sake of doing...like i learn driving jux to get the liscence...and i think that the sch ish like tryin to drag the course cuz they wanna earn money...im like thinking shud i change to private...cuz the sch fees are damn ex!!!and im working at yuki yaki cuz i dun hav another higher paying job...so i betta work den dun work...at least i get paid...an im so damn poor now...i realli dunno wre to find money~

i went tanning with tak, hy, sy, bev, cha and qiu qiu =) didnt tan for long...we left for yuki yaki to hav our lunch cuz dinner...and i got my paycheck...$33.45 bucks haha so kelian de little siaz...den we went walk walk awhile den go home...sianz i dunno why everydae i m so tired...nxt week im gg to thailand le...oso dun hav the excited feelin dat im gg overseas...izit im missing dear too much? no moNey? and that i will miss dear and seldom get to hear from him again? haiz...or izit the results coming out dat ish giving mi such feelin? haiz...

6 feb le...

2006-02-06T23:18:00.000+08:00

oHhh tml ih oUr 14tH month together le...i realli dunno if dear still rmb or not...mayb not he ish too bz "enjoYin" his armY life...well vdae ish coming too...sads cuz he will be in army at field camp...haiz...wun be even hearin his voice...and i got driving lesson...sianz a lvl results coming out le...i realli dun dare to noe siaz...i jux hope for gud results...i dun wanna disappoint my parents la n neither do i wanna end up somewre sucky...hAiz...and i wud definitely not wan to re-tke the papers...damn~

nitemare again

2006-02-06T00:26:00.000+08:00

omg and im dreaming dat my darlin dun wan mi again! i dunno wadz the heck ish wrong with mi la...dream of such stuffs...i realli dun wish dat it wud happen and i felt betta after dear sae dat it will nv happen...haiz...

went to work todae to tke over carol...bad dae...i scalded my finger and cut myself without even noeing by wad and when did it happened....

but the gud thing for todae was i won mj!!!haha...itz the 1st time i gamble mj too...hahaz...and a gud thing which doesnt hav impact for mi...i saw talfiq and sly todae...cuz they were at the tentage behind cine and i saw dem while i was workin at yuki yaki hahaz...told u got no impact le...i oso not interested lor...wadz best was i found someone whu noes how to make the crystal angel pandant dat dear bought for mi during christmas...hopefulli i can get the gal to repair it for mi...cuz i dun wan buy another one cuz it wud lose its meaning le...itz my 1st xmas gift and i didnt tke care of it...im sorri dear but i didnt noe and didnt expect the fish line will snap too...haiz...nvm onli can wait for reply frm her...

and thx to huishi wud intro mi to online shoppin...dat i found sumone whu noes how to make this precious thingy...and for her whu has hlped mi to close 2 deals hahaz...yay and i got new stuffs...goody...now i can look for cheaper stuffs to buy online...but some of dem are still more ex than market price....thX huNny!!!

ChiNeSe nEw yr weeK

2006-02-03T21:09:00.000+08:00

dear dear came back fro cNy dat weekwas one of the best moments...cuz dear can come out...but he came out sick...everytime tke medicine...see him cough until lidat i oso xin tong~

new yr eve...
met him at home and stayed for awhile den go to my uncle's hse le...cuz having dinner at his place...planned to go out that nite de...end up didnt go...quite upset...but nvm bah....i will get to see dear the nxt dae...but he's sick and inconvinent for him...

1st dae of new yr
morning went to my uncle's hse den afterdat i meet dear at nOrthpoint to watch fEArless...buT i was earli so i went to plAy initial D...siA la...2 games oso select wrong thing...wan use manuel i end up using auto~ sianz...but the movie as quite nice...haha but abit violent la...dear seems to enjoy the movie more...guy mah~ den we go to his ah ma hse...sit sit den we go home during the evening...hehez...wanted to stay at dear's hse...but mum dun let so hav to go home RELUCTANTLY lor....

2nd dae of new yr
waited for so long for dear to come to my hse...come le still slpt all the wae in my room cuz of medicine taken so i play monopoly with my cousins and jill outside with my dad as banker...sia la he banker oso so excited siaz....haha den when dinner time i woke dear up for steamboat...wanted dear to stay at my hse de...but dun think can so onli can see him tml le lor aniwae the nxt dae i hav to wake up earli....

3rd dae of new yr
morning went to Koh bC hSe...den was rushin and end up spoilin the pineapple tarts for dear...sit and tok awhile i took a cab to darlin's hse den he still haven change or eat....very paisehs cuz i ask to meet earlier den up i 12+ den reach...den we played blackjAck there waH...win money siAz...27 buCkz...not bAd worz...but at nite hav to work...sianz....

4th dae of new yr
morning went to jAlAn bAtHrA to recce...lAtE cuz oF iDa...den we muz kenna fine...sia la not fair lor i woke up so earli so that i can get there in time...den end up late cuz of other ppl....i bu shuang.....den rush to nOrthpoinT to watch movie with dear...haha i not stupiD...quite nice la...touching mah...den so many pple sobbing siaz...haha even dear dear and mi wor...but i try not to cry la...so tears onli roll down my eyes hahaz....den during the evening i went to work againz...at nite darlin came to go home with mi...wear till so nice siaz...and stayed over at my hse haha...gud! i like to wake up with my dear beside mi...

5th dae of new yr........
dear gg in todae...haiz...why so fast...i cant bear wor...i woke up to watch tv...den went back to bed after the drama......and slpt till 2:30 pm still dun wan wake up i oso dun why i so tired....went back with dear den at nite go to pasir ris with him...so earli...but this time i wun see him in another 16 daez.........i will miss him badly de lor...why lidat? jux cuz his field camp ish later den chris den he mux kenna confine~ arGhhhh~ damn it...

todae
jOgAthon...dun wan run de but end up still run sianz arh fat and old le...run abit oso tired...stitch and wanna puke...after dat wewent to kbox for lunch haha...we went crazy in there...kbox become club le...dance like dunno wad and so high lor...shoutin nonstop...den we went to play bball but too little pple play until sianz...den we play blow wind blow cuz the court very windy haha crazy le...den we go to mos burger for drinks and sat there till like almost 7 den go home...waiting for dear's msg~ but im so tired...................

uR cominG back tml le =)

2006-01-27T21:49:00.000+08:00

hAvenT heard muCh from u the past 2 daez...cuz we spoke for less than a minute yesterdae...so sad...i hate dat feelin...suddenly i felt that im such a lonely person...

tokin to u now

it was quite a bz dae cuz earli morning i woke up went for breakfast den go bring joseph go home...den driving lesson...kenna the same instructor sianz arhz...he tok a lot...make mi quite fan lorz cuz those things like how to noe wad road ish dat oso wanna sae...den i was like do i look like i dunno? dotz...kids oso noe la...do i look so stupid? kaoz...den everytime so gan chiong wan break for mi...thx la...but i wanna bake gradually...itz not like i trying to kill myself la...i dun wanna get involved in an accident oso mah -_-"go home dat time sit bus until wanna puke...the journey seems so long~ mY hse realli dat far awae mehz?

went home...the little monster, joseph ish slpin...when he woke up we watch naruto together den i went to bathe...she came to the toilet outside and cry la...cuz he tot my dad ish in the toilet...he miss his gu zang~ haha so funnie siaz...dat boi...den we went to mac for dinner...cuz he ish kid and kids like to eat mac...but the guy behind the counter sux siaz...attitude onli...dun wana work dun work la...stupid siaz...this of attitude still wanna work in service line...dun let mi complain arhz...he think onli he noe how to attitude siaz! anger mi~ bu shuAng~

waited for dear's call...
wait 1 hr....
2hr...
arHhh call le haha and chat yay!
dear tml come back so happi! finalli can see dear le =)

or they dun express i was wondering...

is there realli sth like being in love forever with ur partner?

or mayb it has become part of us as time pass by?

i dunno if my parents are still in love not or has it become a commitment thingy...and their marriage ish like a responsibility to dem....

to tke care of notti kids like me and my bro...

to provide a shelter for us...

many married couples who hav been together for a long time doesnt seem to show their love for each other...

though its none of my business,

but are dey still in love?

or isnt the asian thingy that we are more conservative...dat they do not express their love for each other?

so shy?

wad will dear and mi turn out to be?

i noe i still love him very much...

but i wan our future to be filled with love and cuz of the love between us there's responsibility and commitment...and continue to be madly in love till old age...

will i get wAD i wan?

i dunno...

now it seems like im toking rubbish...i oso dunno wad im sayin le...

all i wan ish to be in loved forever...

lead a wonderful life with hubby bibi even when we are old...

i miss dear dear!

2006-01-26T19:03:00.000+08:00

didnt blog again last nite cuz i was tired...i dunno why oso...

it was a meaningful dae yesterdae cuz i went for my 5th blood donAtion and i brouGHt mY mum aloNg and dis time she passed all the test =) yay!

afterdat we went to chinatown market to buy seafood for CNY haiz...mAke mi so stinkO siAz...stupiD olD mAn...tke prawn oso dunno how to tke proPerlY...the stinKy water spAsh all oVer mi la...ass siAz...

den i go home showered and went to town with lin, bev and cindy...shop shop and shop...bouGHt a white adidas shirt for darlin...cuz he wantS a white shirt and wads more he likes adidas...hahaz...den the rest ish to pei the galz shop for new yr clothes and stuffs hahaz...

went home and waited for dear's call...

almost 10:20pm deAr deAr mSged mi saying dat he cant tok to mi...devastated siaz...cudnt tok to dear dear...when i miss him so so so so so so mUch~

nvm bah oso no choice de...

den slp lor tll this morning....

woke up kinda earli...hav to go for driving lesson oso...todae didnt progress alot...but wads exciting was i managed to go out to hit the roads! cool~ hahaz...bUt kinda scary...the instructor a bit tok cock oso...haiz wonder when den i get finish all dis learning shit and get my liscence...a bit regret that i didnt op for auto...itz much easier bah...at least the car wun stall -_-" stuPiD cruTch oso...hAiz...

kinda sians oso i broke my sunglasses frame dunno if it will work if stick it w super glue...haiz i like dat lor...fav lehz...

im missing darling so much...he sae he ish sick...haiz...gonna new yr le den sick summore....ting le oso heartache...dear.................................dun go back le la...itz giving u stress...making u sick...causing u pain...hear of ur condition i oso sad...........i wan dear dear...tml ish ur last dae le den can enjoy CNY hols...yay can see my dear soon~ bUt still got more than 24 hrs...dear, pls rest well and get well soon dun make mi worrie kaez...i love u~ i realli wanna wake up with u beside mi...and cuddle in bed all dae long...

hunnybAby...

many things happened lately

and i cant wait to hear all ur stories, ur complains and stuffs

like i've alwaes said...

i realli miss u lots...

my misses and yearnings for u gets more and more each dae

everydae

i look forward to nitefall

cuz when its abt time i will recieve a msg to call u

though our chat times are short

i realli cherish that little time toking to u

itz alwaes the best ting that happened the whole dae

ur all i ever wanted

i realli wanna spend the rest of my time with u

im waitin for u

cuz

i love u

im missing dear dear so muchy!

2006-01-24T13:00:00.000+08:00

didnt blog last nite cuz i was too lazy haha sorries darling...
aniwae it wasnt eventful...it was like movie dae...i watch memoirs of a geisha when i woke up in the morning den tong(2) meng(4) in the afternoon hahaz...afterdAt i went to NTUC to shop for some stuffs for CNY. den went to tpy to meet zhen zhen haha she so blur...cuz i told her to tell mi the bus she board to go to church so dat i can board the same bus at the other bus stop haha...den she tot she dun nid to board the bus...my dearest zhen zhen, why wud i wanna noe which bus has left? hahaz...my main purpose ish to get on the same bus mah...den she let called mi and said dat 28 has gone...den still ask mi "wo bu yong da na ge bus rite?" *doinKz* hahaz...

carol didnt go for lesson~ oH mY carol darlin.,...there's a lot for u to catch up man! we learned anOther groove and 4 more fill-ins....hahaz...nvm i teach ya....u got 2 weeks to master dem hahaz...

I WAN A DRUM SET!!!

yesterdae i was missing my dear dear so much!during drums lesson i was still lookin at dear the botak hahaz....changed my hp wallpaper hehez...dear u see la...u juz left and i miss u so much le...u dun go in kaez...we elope haha =X on the bus still peepin at our photo sticker siaz...dun let pple see...later dey snatch u awae hahaz!

haha dear became platoon i.c hahaz...hav to shout coMmanDs when u dunno how to...army ones too chim i dunno wor...gud luck darling haha hope u can cope...dun do anythingy wrong...u cannot kenna anyting de...ur dear dear will die de worz...after CNY cant cya for 16 daez i think i will die le la!!!even slp oso dream abt seeing u...dream abt u book out siaz...haha

as for todae...did nuttin much...jux missing u~ ALOTZ

dEar'S bAck...and lefT agAin

2006-01-22T22:00:00.000+08:00

21st jAn o6

eArli morning hAd to be at east coAst agAin...took a cab there and those pple were latE agAin...shuDnt hav wasted my money on cab oSo...they caBBie took a lOnG roUTe la...DamN duNno iSh pUrpoSelY or wad de lorz...fine la...den the JGC pple weRe so nOt pUnCtual la!sae mUz be there at 9am den wad aRrived abt 10am!!! still dare sae bettEr late den nevEr...tok wad coCk...blOOdy asshOles...dunno they wasting pple's precioUs time aRhz...and my dear iSh coMing bAck on thAt dae suMmore lA...wanna go pAsir ris de lehz...so thiCkskiNNed canT stAnd siaz...so lAte still tok shit! FinAlli the game enDed...my tEAM didnT run la...gud for mi thouGh...after dat we can leave le...den end up i had to wait for deardear at yiShun cuZ i cant get to pAsir ris in time...

wah dear stinks...hahaz...perspire too much le...since 5:30am...so pOor thingy...we went home...bathed den slp...but i didnt...cuz i was hungry den cudnt fall aslp...haha den i noodles lor...den dear dear's gRanny came...haha so pAisehz...den i had to go home to feed mY doGgIes...and dear acc mi home...thou i walked the doGs alOne...dear was surfing net i my room...when i was bAck...dear wanna read my bLog so i sHowed him...haha dear touChed...he cry den make mi cry oso...cuZ we recalled mAny things thAt hAppened when he haben go NS and oso that he cuDnt fiNd time to call mi...and he felt v sorry dat i hAd to wait the whole dae jUx to hear him for 5mins...he did his best to find time le but he ish jux too busy...

there's so much injustice in BMTC...tAurus...the compAny which Lee Hsien Loong's soN was in and fortunatelY for edden...wasnt as tough as dear's comPany!dear sae their block got dunno wad hang clothes on and shoe rack i think...so unfair and their admin time starts so earli...and my dear hav to work and work till 10+pm unfair la...and their trg oso not so xioNg...dear check with calvin, his co. trg ish somewhat like commando le lor...liddat jux let dem go commando la...still stuck there for wad...haiz...

we chatted for some time and soon fell aslp...again...i set alarm at 10pm for him to go home but he was too tired when he woke up so he jux continued to slp and stayed over at my place slpin on my bed...den i shifted cuz my bed too small for 2 people to slp comfortably...i jux wan him to slp well so i shift lor hahaz...cuz my bed ish more confortable den slpin on anything else in my room hahaz...unless he wanna slp with my dad hahaz...

22 jan o6

dear woke up earlier den mi and he slpt v well much much betta den mi haha...den he went to pee and chat with my dad in the living room for a while before he came back in...den mum came in to get mi to wake up to eat crystal jade...but end up we had ba chor mee...i feel cheated!after dat we went home we went back to dears hse...bathed and slpt again den hav lunch and den dear packed ur stuffs and slpt till dinner...haha so pig!everytime oso slp...we woke up at 6:3o pm and dear went to pee while i was in the room suddenly i rmbed those daes we quarrel and u got angry with mi...im very scared dat u dun care mi...den i cried and dear came in but i didnt tell u...and u tot dat it was jux cuz i miss u...den we had dinner and left home...almost late cuz of ur buddy siaz...haiz...didnt tok much on the wae there...im missing dear...

***

thou its onli 5 daes and i can see u le...

im missing u alot le...

i can bear to see u suffer inside...

and i wish dat u will b out very soon,

to be back into my arms...

im very afraid that we will separated

and i dun wish to see dat dae coming...

we noe best how much...

we treasure dis relationship

love for each other

we want to form our little family

i will love u with all my heart and soul

and look forward to seeing u

to form our beautiful future together...

i love u~

NOW AND FOREVER

***

i can finalli cya tml =)

2006-01-20T21:55:00.000+08:00

walked up and down of east coast sianz siaz...suddenli becum facilitator....frm zhuo bo to hav to walk uP and dwn with those pple -_-" walk till i bliSter suMMoRe...now my feet damn uGly with all the abrasioNs and bliSters and dead skin siAz...

heck it

ery happi tml can see dear deAR le...hopefulli i can make it own to pasir ris in time to get u hahaz...i love dear! i miss u so mUch!cant wait to cya siAz...touCh uR head! hahaz....sia lAhz i jUx lOve touChing bOtAkz =)

8 bras stolen!!!bloody pervert!

2006-01-19T10:59:00.000+08:00

woke up at 9am this morning...the moment i open the door muM caLLed mi to sae thAt oUR bRas were stOLEn...damn it mAn...quiTe new one suMmore...oUt of the 8 got 3 triumph bras! omg...the 3 dat beLonGs to mi arE my fAv suMMore...damn the asshOle pervert...tke my bra for wad....dun tell mi to give hiS wife or gf...i doUBt he hAv oSo...PERVERT!!! damn piSsed...

my 1st driving lesson

2006-01-18T11:01:00.000+08:00

i went to tekka market with my parents cuz my dad wanna eat BBQ food tonite so we went to get seafood...we bought a lot man...flower crab, super big prawnz, stingray, fish, scallop, chicken wings and sotong...wah...wonderful dinner tonite...

i think sudoku ish taking over my life...whenever im free i will do that...hahaz...den i went for driving lesson...wah...abit excited to drive but my leg quite tired...den i jux drove ard the circuit till i damn sianz...round and round and round in circles...piangz...

den i went home for dinner and the BBQ food were there waiting for mi to feast on...yummy....

im still tired...so tired...

2006-01-16T23:36:00.000+08:00

i juz wake up own time own taget every dae and im still so tired lehz dunno why oso...
woke up and did my bro's sudoku book hahaz...den eat breakfast and downloadin songs at the same time too hehe super multitask... =) den left home for sch to get the jog-a-ton card...see some teachers whu happen to walk past and chat a bit and den play bball haha jux carol and mi...i felt so like crazy man...i knew i was cuz i was still in camp mood and i noe im irritatin carol with my songs and cheers and it continued to irritate bev when she came haha...im so bad and noisy!

den i went for drums wah the office is closed no wonder i call the whole dae no one pick up the stupid phone la lucky still got access to the hall if not cant hav drums lesson again damn sianz de lor...and during the lesson my hands and legs cant coordinate and they dun listen haiz...im still tired leh...

dear called to tell mi how bloody tough it was inside and im realli pissed with the wae the sgt treat the recuits (including my dear) why not fair de? every one shud hav the same treatment why the other company can more slack and my dear hav to go thru so much and tolerATE with all those shit? they make dem pump on little stines dun they noe its painful and may cute? damn them...my dear didnt get admin time and had to be confined for 17 daes after CNY cuz of the 1 week CNY break they give wad shit siaz....wadz their fucking problem with not taking care of the welfare of he recruits....recruits not human arhz...damn dem man...that osh not the wae to treat humans lorz...and my dear ish sufferijn lehz....too much and gettin too far and overboard!

im back le...

2006-01-15T18:04:00.000+08:00

i went for camp for nayang primary sch...man those children...its my nitemare...and its my 1st camp summore...makes mi wanna quit dis job man...SAVE MI from those monsters...luckily im out le...im so happi!!! they are rich, pampered and notti...cuz they dun listen to instructions and they move so slow....

dae 1
a dae which my nitemare begins...the kids arent listening to mi...and they seems to get simple things in their heads and like cant understand wad is call "ask permission to go anywre", "listen to mi", "kip quiet" it seems that they onli listen if ur fierce and get angry...or when u threaten to deducte points or stop the games! some even attitude...i was like...wanna scold dem vulgarites le but i noe i cant...and they move so slowly and the rock wall time was delayed...and the onli kid which went all te wae up was FINNA...the loud voice...wah...she shout...my ear drums will hurt...she is a very cute and lovable gal...best kid in the grp...i love her...and the guys were so egoistic...and hav a very bad mind set...dey even said that they wun hav gf in future cuz they hate gals...cant stand dem man...mArk their words and i hope they remain single forever...hahaz...im so evil...there was nuttin much and the dae was tirin and bad...it was rainin...and they kids were giving mi a headache...i even hav 2 lost sheeps...man....cuz they werent listenin to mi....so irritatin....fuck...

dae 2
todae is supposed to hav kayakin and archery...it shud be a fun dae buy it ws raining again and all the activities were cancelled...haha..so sad...i dun mind cuz i dun get to play too...im evil...muAhaha...and the stupid charles was so funni...his eyes so small haha...and that guy so bad kip beatin mi on the last dae....but he ish a very fun guy...

dae 3
yay im going back todae...wah my leggy ish sufferin from abrasion....quite bad...move my leg nli jiu hui pain...so poor thing...nuttin much todae jux clean up and played some games and den we got readi to send them back to sch...haha and i was playin wif Finna....oHHH yeah yippie yippe yeah! hahaz...we 2 crazy galz...if onli finna ish older...like my age i think we may becum great frenz hahaz...after dat jeff, sarah john and i went to adam rd for dinner and sat there to chat till like 10:30 pm haha...damn tired and stinky nv change for 3 daes...hahaz....den awhile ltr i chat wif darlin and fell aslp v soon after i bathe...zzz

14 jan 06...
i woke up at 9 plus to go for briefing for the job that alvin recommend us...wah lao...walk up and down of east coast wAh damn tired...didnt hav enuff slp lehz den hav to walk up and down east coast wif my abrasions and my blisters...den so sunny and i got suntanned...arhhh...haha so scary....
after that i took 196 to queenswae wif suzanne to buy booties cuz i threw my climate cool awae...lazy to wash and didnt wan mama to do it for mi...its spoilt anywae and its very uncomfortable to hav water gg in from below the soles hahaz...so i threw it awae....suddenli i feel that all these are excuses to throe that sch awae haha...i feel so ba for dat shoe...im sorri shoey...
after dat i went o pasir ris to go to joyce's chalet haha...hungry arh...sat and tok and eat...catch up wif frenz and teachers...den ms lim and bf gave mi a ride hom...nice car...hMMm ms lim shud get married real soon hahaz....i wanna be the hua tong...throw flowers hahaz...reach home le damn tires...bathe and chat wif dear and fell aslp again....

15 jan 06
nuttin special...a boring dae...went to church den go to bishan to get junwei's presie cuz tml ish his bdae...went to get lunch and to buy some groceries for dinner tonite hahaz...den i was doing soduku until i start to touch my new notebook hahaz...sianz...

dear ish out

2006-01-09T22:21:00.000+08:00

i woke up in the morning to go to sch to play basketball and to have breakfast before we go to dairyfarm for our camp briefing...sianz the next camp ish at sarimbun...it was raining when we left and i was wearin my new shoe...freak! all dirty le...after briefing we went to beach rd to get hammockz...6.50 the cheapest we can get...den we ate...wah headache...and im still waiting for dear to call mi...he's out but i cant meet him cuz he book out so late ="(

gReat! iM seeing u tml le!

2006-01-08T23:13:00.001+08:00

todae wasnt dat bored le...i went on a shoPpin spree witH mummy...hAhaz...we went to buGiS wif daddy to hAv breAkfast...the soUp bAo at the shAnghAiNese restAuRant iSh quite niCe...buT the foOd iSh quiTe ex...nVm i'LL brinG dear go try some dae hahaz...den we went shoPpin till dad hAd to leave us...cuz he gta work...we didnt wanna shoP dat loNg de...but the rain jux dun seem o stop...and we cudnt go home cuz we dun hav umbreLLa...den kor and jiLL went there too...when we were abt to go to buGiS villAge, we cud cross bUt rmBed thAt kOr was thEre so we met up with him to get the car keyz to get umbrellA to go over with jiLL haha...oso nuTtin to buy de...siAnz...bUt oSo dun wan bUy le todae spent a lot of moNey le...den we went for dinner @ sakAe...oHh the sake was nice...its has 13.8% alcohOl but the taste doesnt seem like the alCoHol contEnT iSh dat hiGh...iTz like thoSe normal bottle ones we drink hahaz...afTeR diNner mUm and i went home 1st...

i fed the dogs and mummy brouGht dem doWn to wee wee...den we little bird flew inTo mY hSe...wah...had a hard time trying to get iT out...end uP i tot of switching off the liGhTs so thAt iT like flY to wre there ish light...and led it out...hahaz...den i watch tv and tooK ouT all the stUffs i boUght...as i wait for dear to call mi...i didnt get to hear from dear till 11pm...cuz u guys were very bz...we chatted awhile and u sae the sergent ish here so we put dowN the pHone in a rush and we didnt kiss gudnite but nvm la hahaz...u msged mi to call u again...i did but we spoke less than 10 words the phone was disenGaged...i cudnt get thru to u when i redialed...guess it was cuz that batt flat le...so nvm bah...u still hav to wake up at 5 tml morning...hurry get some slp...tok to dear when u bOok out tml hahaz...

finalli can see the man i love in the no. 4 uniform tml...haha i like man....it makes a guy look super man and macho...hahaz...but of cuz the guy cant be too fat or skinny la...my dear ish ah bing ge! i like!!! *droOlz* hehez...lOOkin forward to see dear...

gReat! iM seeing u tml le!

2006-01-08T23:13:00.000+08:00

finalli can see the man i love in the no. uniform tml...haha i like man....it makes a guy look super man and macho...hahaz...but of cuz the guy cant be too fat or skinny la...my dear ish ah bing ge! i like!!! *droOlz* hehez...lOOkin forward to see dear...

13 th mOnTh toGeThEr le

2006-01-07T21:32:00.000+08:00

thou todae is our special dae...there isnt anything special hAppening toDae...i slackz...i was lAzy to wake uP in the morning to go for mY jog...so i slpt in till 10am...den i watched tV all the wAe...nuTtin to watch oso so i stiCked to aNimAl plAnet...i ate dou jiang youtiao for lunch and cameh ome to continue watching mY Animal plANEt...hAha...siaNz...thou iT was showing a docuMenTaRy on sNAke...i stiLL fell aSlP...i was jUx too bored le...when i woke up i was achinG all over...hmmm...im still missin my darlin for the whole dae...and my wait seems to be in vain...but i noe i hav until 10:30pM to receive ur call...nvm i'LL conTinue waitin...hahaz...

i went out in the evening to orchard cuz my bro having a performance there...cuz music forest got ke chuan for the ngee ann poly Xcape dance coMpetition...didnt stay to watch...sianz oso...haiz...den ate wanton mee at heeren den took pics there hahaz...shop awhile...mum and i left 1st...jill and kor continue pa tor-ing haiz...im back at home to continue my wait...im so bored todae...where ish my dear?

hAppiE 13tH moNTh dear...i love u...

guess u didnt noe how hAppie i was when i saw ur msges when i woke up todae...

one at 5:11am and one @ 5:12am...

so earli lorz...

i wonder if the slpin bUg in u ish dead not?

hahaz...mayb itz jux too frighten to come out...

im toking rubbiSh le...

not im the correct state of mind le...

i miss dear...and love u loads!

life seems empty without u

2006-01-07T15:09:00.000+08:00

i cried myself to slp last nite...

im startin to think that mayb i've over-reacted to the situation le...

since its not dat i wun cya forever...

there isnt a nid to be so sad...

well mayb i've not get used to life without u...

the emptiness that im feelin...

is overwhelming mi...

i realised the importance of u in my life...

the place u have in my heart...

all i noe is that...

i have no choice but to adapt to it no matter wad

all i cud do...

is to sit and wait for our next meeting...

and pray that the LoRd will kip u safe and well...

itz onli so earli and im bloGging le...theres nuttin to do todae...jux stayed online...and mum booked tix to thailand on feb...which means that i might not be able to see dear for 2 weeks during feb...i was guai this morning...i woke up at 8:10am to jog...hahaz...den had breakfast at the market den go home and sit in front of the com till 1:40pM i left to eat my lUnCh...didnt eat mUch...jUx rojak and sOuRsop drink...damn full le...plAn for toniGht is diNner at ADAM ROAD! hahaz....*drOoling le*

jUx now dear called mi...to chat...so happy to cya msg...but tok tok awhile u put down thephOne cuz ur sir came in to get pple to the interview...hahaz...den a called u back twice den we chat a little longer we put down the phone le...dear inside oso sian outside oso sianz...cuz u sae no physical training...hahaz isnt that gud? well i dunno abt u...but u sae ur jux slacking awae...haiz...i dunno wadz best inside...

deAr is gone...

2006-01-05T22:21:00.000+08:00

i woke up at 5:50 am...did realli go back to slp cuz i was afrAid dat i mighT not waKe up at 6:10am when my alArm riNgs...it seeMz like a uSual dae to sch but this time round iM goinG to mY dear's hse...i reached hiS pLAce at 7:30am...we slpt together...till 11plUs den we went to bUy lunch...

very soon we mux get ready to leave for pAsir ris...
den we took a shuttle buS to the jetty and took a ferry to tekOng~ as we get closer to tekonG iSlAnd...i jux mean that ur leavin mi sOOn...vEry vEry sOon~ we reached the plAce and got sepArated whereby i and ur parents went for a tour and lOoked aRd...liSten to toks and stUffs sianz...den when i finalli got to cya again was at the audi...den sit there so lOng...liSten till wanna slp le lorz...we finalli get to be with u during the food sampling...hAhaz...food was quite gud...after dat...we followed the crowd and walked to the jetty...

the turning point

u had to leave us le...sobz...no choice...hAd to watch u leave...and head to the jetty and go home...im so sad...i cant hav dear with mi le... ="(

i wonder wad ur doing inside...i hope everytingy is fine...i waited for ur call...and u onli did @ 10:34 pm...tellin mi dat the lights are out and u hAv to slp le...well of cuz i hav to let u right...cuz tml dear hav to wake up @ 5:30 to fall in @ 5:45am mAn...supper early!!i hope dat mY darlin will hAv a gud nite of rest~ and thAt tml wun be too tough on my darlin...thou he will slim down but i dun wan him to become skeleton -_-"

i miss my darlin...

=last dae of freedom=

2006-01-04T20:07:00.000+08:00

i slpt quite earli last nite...
but i still woke up at 9 plus (usual time)
washed up and cooked breakfast

-MENU OF THE DAE-
100 mArks set meal

1 hotdog
2 eggs
hot milo /coffee

101 marks set meal

2 hotdogs
1 egg
hot milo / coffee

i cooked the 1st set for myself and mum ate the 101 set meal...hahaz...the menu was as such cuz i have my fial theory test todae...and i hope i pass...cuz mum jux kept tellin mi its v diff to pass for the 1st test if u nv go and do revision blah blah blah...hahaz...end up...i still PASSED...hahaz...gud...dunid study le...

after my test i went to khAtib to meet up wif my hubby...den we took a train to orchard...we wanted to eat the mango desert which ur sista recommend but den up buying other food...and when we reached the shop...u didnt feel like eating dat le...cuz u sae no mai xiang...hahaz...so we walked to far east...and i ate oyster mee sua...and met BRENDA!!! oHh i miSs her man...she lOOked so diFf with a new fuNky hAirstYle...hahaz...chat awhile and she left to lOok for food and a quite plAce to eat and read...we walked awhile den left for heeren to go to city chain to look for a watch for dear...but they were not suitable...den we shopped awhile and went to cine to eat at cafe cartel...

=FOOD AT CARTEL=

soft shell crab with prawns
beef lasagne
cooler than the cool (mango and peach soda)
pink sth (forgot wad itz called...its strawberry and peach smoothie)

food was yummy...but oso very full! den we went to tke piCs uPstAirs...mAn...itz the moSt expEnsive mAchine i'Ve enCoUntEred...11buCks...but iT was quite cute hahaz...but not many stUffs to decor the pic...but iT hAs shiNY bAckGrOunD!den we left the pLAce to centrepoinT to buy bra hahaz...black oNe...=X den took a cab from centrepoint home...

we sat awhile den looked for the stuffs u wan and den slpt...after awhile i shifted to the bed belOw cuz i wanna let dear slp more comfortably...but when it was time to wake up...dear cudnt find mi...hahaz...and went to asked mummy wre i went...den mummy told him im slping and dear found mi at the bed below hahaz...

dear ish leaving le...can u not go?
i hugged dear so tightly and cried...cuz once u leave the next time i cya is tml and when i cya tml...im seeing u off to tekong...and i wun get to cya till 5 daes later...i realli dun wanna let u go...dear...the sorrow i feel within mi was like a dagger piercing thru my heart...thou i noe dat its not like i wun be seeing u again but its dat we wun be able to spend as much time together le... ="( finalli i let go...i had no choice...

dear,

my heart ish so heavy...

and sorrows filled every single space within...

i will miss u...

and i'll wait for ur return...

i promise...

i love u!

i went to sch todae!

2006-01-03T19:11:00.000+08:00

once againz its bac to sch...

but not for mi...

i jux went to play and visit my frenz and chers'

brought durians for dear to eat

wah smelly!

but dear like...hahaz...

i noe its nice but i dun like the smell hehez...

dear is a STINKY boy~

=played basketball=

the sun was BIG!

super sunny and i felt restless...

didnt wanna run...

dear said i very lazy...

mayb itz due to all those fats building up...

ms tan and ms ong said i put on quite a bit...

time to run~

but the tot of exercising makes mi sick...

i realli hate running...

we chat a lot...

den when ms tan went back to the staff rm...

we chat at the bball court

=ms lim came back le=

toked awhile

we left sch to occ to play pool...

hahaz im so lousy!

dear pro wor...

den came bac for dinner...

-slpt on the bus like i alwaez do-

dinner was nice...

and im so full...

guess my dietin will hav to postpone till darlin go ns

cant wait to cya tml...

and hopefulli my final theory test will pass~

dun wanna study le...

dun wanna touch any more books except novels hahaz

***

as ur enlistment date draws nearer...

...my misses for u each dae accumulates...

...as the nite falls...

...the dae u leave mi becomes sooner...

...it onli made mi realise...

...that i realli love u...

...that i cant live life without u...

...ur like oxygen...

...the source of my survival...

...all i can do is to wait...

...as i do so...

...u will always be with mi in my heart...

i love u

***

3 daez to ur enliStment

2006-01-02T22:55:00.000+08:00

4:45 am i woke up from a nitemare...
checked the hp...
dear didnt msg...
still plAying mj...
i was quite upset abT it...but tot...no point cuz it wun change aNythingy anywaez...

woke uP at 11am...
watched tv all the wae to 1+ pm
went for lunch...prawn nOodles -_-"
2 plUs pm - bAck hOme and dear wAs still slPin
3 plus pm - went to yiShun to visiT my granny bUt she was aSlp so didnt see her...
4 plus pm - i reAched dear's hSe...

miZ u so mUch...
slpt and watch tv (as uSuAl)
i like it when i can lAy down on ur lAp and watch tV with u...hahaz...
left @ 9 pm cuZ dad iNSiSt dat i go lOok for dem @ semBAwaNg...
10:30 pm - hOme and the little moNStEr iS bAthing...
10:45 pm - he iS plAying witH hiS tRActOr -_-" noiSy lA...
datz all abt todae...

*i woNder wAd wud life be after uR enLiStmenT...
guess oThEr den missing u bAdly...
itz wud be stiLL miSsin u bAdlY ="(
dun wan u to go lehs...
dear...*

010106

2006-01-01T20:36:00.000+08:00

we woke uP quiTe lAte toDae...

11am...i woke up and lay down by mY bed lOOkin at dear...

slP until so cute hahaz...

iTz gud to cYA the moment i oPen my eyes =)

so sweet...

den i fell aslp againz...

the next time i woke up...dear was still slpin bUt woke up a little later...

hahaz...mum was waShing the toilet so we onli can lAy in my bed and hugz...

*sMilEz*

afTer dat we washed up and u plAyed with the com...

while i cook "breakFaSt" for u...

=MENU=

CreAm of MushroOm soUp

hOtDoG and suNnY sidE uP

coLd mAsh POtAto with eGg and chEEse...

haha...iTz mY 1st time CooKin he BAo dAn for deAr to eAt...

oN my oWn suMmOre...

cuZ nOrmal if i cOok durinG diNner...

im onli hLpin mUmmy and did erealli cook it all by mySelf =)

realli like mArried le *shYz*

den we watch tV...very soOn it wAs 5 plUS le...and dear hAd to go home for diNner =(

-it rained-

dear stayed longer to wait for the rain to stop den we left the hse when the rain was not so heavy...

-still drizzling-

we sepArAted...cuz im gg for dinner wif mum @ bugiS...

-rain stopped-

we went to eat @ siam kitchen...damn full den shoPPed awhile for new yr clothes...

onli bought a jeans @ s.N.k hahaz...

dear...

im realli happie that ur alwaez by my side...

esp todae...

its special cuz i get to cya when i wake up...

to cuddle in bed with u...

under the blAnket in the cold room...

how i wish dat we cud be like this everydae...

how i wish dat u will alwaez be by my side...

24-7

we may hav disagreements...

get pissed off with one another...

but our love still remain strong...

hOpefuLLi it will continUe to grow stronger each dae...

that no obstacles would be able to pull us apart...

i love u...

its new year eve!

2006-01-01T01:58:00.000+08:00

i spEnt the whole dae at home...
doing nuttin but watch tV and study up for my final theory test...

afTer dat dear mSg mi if i waNNA go for diNner toGeTher
i said yes so we went to glAss hSe together with mUmmy
cuZ she niDed diNNer anYwAe...
the pLAce wAs great bUt suPer coLd so we chAnGed to the coUch seat~
hAha...
nO noRmAl meNu toDae...so nO choIce...got the festive one...
jUx eat lA...
it wAs quite nice but i still prefer seAfOOd plAtTer

after dinner we went to soMerset to meet cHoryeow and sEan to get the snow sprAys...waH 15 lehz...so mAny!den we took the trAin to mEet zhen, lin and sy...
we waLked aimLeSsly plAnning to go to m.o.s
we did...we cut queue cuz we met lucern whu told us iriS wAs queuing den we cut even more cuz they had frenz nearer to the entrance...
*there was even a fight cuz the bouncer dun let a guy in den blah blah blah...*
hahaz...
we were dis close to entering the plAce but we gAve up cuZ it wAs real croWded and its not worth to pAy 30 buCks and jUX stAnd ard...squeezin with everyone den after awhile to go home...den the 5 of us left and walk to esplanade to watch the fireworks and to play w the sprays...
man the pple there...siao one...wre got pple spray directly into the face de...mouth and eyes all kenna...kaoz...bu shuAng!
tHe fireworks were brilliant!
MAgNiFiCenT!
BEautiFul aRhz...hAhAz...
after dat we walked to go hOme...
den we saw 851 den tot can go back to yishun and told the other 3 end up itz the wrong directioN haha...sorries...den dear and i walked all the wae to buGis to tke 145 home...
dear is tokin to my mUmmY nOw...hahaz...
and is stAying oVer =)

dEAr...i thou we quarrel...and i grumBle and alwaEz bU shUAng and get uPseT...i've nv doubt ouR love or wAd...thou at times i wud wonder if it wud reallie last...

*i hope it does*

jUX wanna let u noe...i will try my best to kip this rShiP goinG
so that we will still remAin sOOOOooo lOvinG
lOokin forward to the dae we get mArried...
hAv kids...
aged...
and meet un heaven =)

i love u dear~ i realli do...
hAppi new yeaR!

*mUAcKz*

am i reallie dat sensitive?

2005-12-30T21:13:00.000+08:00

siAnz...eArliE morninG noT in a guD mOoD...duNno why oSo...jUX vEry siAnz and biTz pEk cheK...when to woRk but bEfore dat i met pEArl to pAss her soMe GP stuFfs...den woRk loRz...siAnz...when to BK and ate oUr fOOd den slAck...sit there oso siAnz so lin, zhen and i went for shOppiN at centrEpoinT haha....den we went bAck at 4.35pM and sAt there awhile before the gang deciDed to go...den as uSuaL...we gave oUt the flYers...den go bAck....

i met dear @ tpy...wAh u lAte agAin...bUt nVm...hahaz...den i was behiNd the pillAr when u reaChed...bUt u still cuDnt c mi...tOO bad...so fuNNie siAz...turning and lOokin ard bUt cant finD mi...den we went for pizza...wah...ex siAz...bUt dine-in is real diff from delivery...itz muCh bettA...after dat we went to city chain to see watches...

the bad thing that happened todae...

see see den i squart down to see the adidas watch den dear was like dun squArt lehz...cuZ u cud see my underwear...okie fine...jUx sAe properly lA...den i waLked oIt of the shop to lOOk at the CYMA watChes oUtSide den u got the bU nAi fan lOOk like eyeing oN my bUtt lorz...damn siAz...realli bu shuAng la...so i waLked awae den we both becamE unHappi...u wan to noe the reason well datz the reaSon~ siNce u sae that u didnt o anY to mAke mi upseT...den toO bAd lOr tREat it as im tOO senSitiVe le lorz...

...i dun wish to tok to u...

leAve mi aloNe...

and pLAy ur mAjOng lA...

plAy all u wan i cant be boThered le...

aniwae...u nv listen to mi...

since u like to do wad u like i will too...

coNtinuAtion~

2005-12-29T20:47:00.000+08:00

12 deCemBer o5
todae is sUzaNNe's bDae haha...bought her so mani hello kitty stuffs...

this morning mum was like so unhappi that everyone is alwaez not at home to accompany her...sae this and that. she is like finding fault with mi lorz... KAoz! im busy on course and work den got bbQ and stuFfs...it jUx haPpened that i got a lot of activities last week wAdz...but i oso dun like to be at hOme iTz so boring~ nuttin to do oSo... pArtly oso cuz she kept mi at hOme for so mAni bLoody yRs le...den she complAint that i nv tok to her...well if she wanna tok den dunno hoW to tok to mi mehz...muz i tok to her arhz...i oso dunno wAd to sAez lorz...

i went to ur hse to accompany u but before that we went to the bank to apply for atm card!!!oHHh zhang da le! we waited for more than 1 hR lArz...den we went home...ate and watched que shen II, fell aslp and woke up for dinner...haha as uSuAl lorz...

13th decEmbEr o5
i woke up earli for my basic theory test todae...it was super easy larz...stuck there for the whole morning cuz hav to settle the praCtical stuFfz sianz...

oHhh dEAr i miSs u so much! i love u! tml go lOOk for u loH~

14 dEcEmbEr o5
earli in the morning quarrel with mummy~
want to meet u at ur hSe
=as uSual=
deAr bought lUnch for mi...ate and watched tv...kissed...huGged...slEpt
woke up plAying hammie the hoPPerhead (game)
dear watch mi play until like so sianz...still sae i dunno how to play game de...
so NOTTI! *biTe uR heAd!*
i went off @ 5+ cuZ got druMz lesson @ 6:30pm haha~ i waNNA buy drumz...its like 60o+ wahlAo eHHh eX siAz...but iTz quiTe a bArGain la...
hOme le...we chAt oN the phone for quiTe a while before we slp...hAhA
bUt i slPt @ 2+ 3a.m

i miZ mY deAr

15 dEceMber o5
went to victoriA seCreTs wArehOuSe sAle with mUm, bro anD jiLL (koR'S gf) tHen walK wAlk with mUm ard orchArD...koR bDAe coming le bUt stiLL dunno wAd to gEt for hiM lehZ =( JiLL sAe he waNA a silK pAjAmAs but i coUldnt find a nice oNe =(

Then i went to meet Junwei (mY sec scH fren...cuz ex-)
*pS* dear dun angry huHz...
we walked ard orchArd...waH i can say i finished walking all the buliDings along orchArD toDae arH...tired siAz...

DeAr i realli miSs u arhz~
u mj nOw den i siAnz le...
dunno when i can cya agAiNz lehZ...
soBz...didnT get to tok to u lehz...hOpefuLLi i can hear from u lAtEr...
MUACKZ

16th dEcemBer o5
hMmm i jUx foUnd out tHAt i didnt mAke a record oN wAd i did todae...hAha...bUt bAsed on my mem...i was wae too earli for work...so i ended up at borders searching for a gUd bOOk to giv to my kOr as bDae present bUt i foUnd nOne...den went to work...

After work i went to kino to gEt -the memOir of a geishA- to read haha...den went o flAsh and splAsh to get my kor a poUch for bDAe...oHHh den i chioNg to read the bOOk...iTz quite nice!

17th dEcember o5
itz kOr's biRthDae todae!!!!

went to work...haiz slack quite a lot...dun like this teaM...lAzy lehz... -_-"
met up with dear after to eat kAng koNg chAo HeH bee hiAm and stinGrAy @ AdAm roAd...YUMMY!
kor got performAnCe at mArinA sQuArE bUt deAr diDnT wAnnA go to wAtch so we hEaDed for hOme...
i went to bAthe and auNtie kEEchOuN caLLed mi sO i chAt with her for quIte lOng...aND deAr wAs upset abT it...cuZ i wAso n the pHone for quiTe loNg lA...den aftEr i huNg uP i hUrri to coNtinUe bAtHing den chAnGed into tHe piyO piYo pAJAMAs tHAt deAr bought for mi wiTh bUbU one...
deAr...can u not leAve mi?
itz the lAst time dat i see deAr before i got foR mY aTTAchmenT cAmp...i will miSs dear very mUch de! realli cant bear to cyA leaVe...

18 dEceMber o5
sianz i didnt go to church again...very lazy arhz...haha...kinda slPy too...aftEr dat i went to work....damn it lor the pple realli too mUch le slAck like duNNo wAd....we walked to fAr east BK and ate ans slAck till 3+ 4 en go cuz no choice cuz it was raining and we had to go bAck to get the uMbReLLas....afTer dat the rain sToPPed and tHoSe pple jUx stOod therE wiTh the uMbreLLas and chat like there wAs nO tml...and we were like wad the fuck iS wrong with these pple? kiNda piSsed with thEir workin aTTiTuDe~

went hOme quIte soOn aFtER work to pAck uP to go cAroL'S hSe but in the mid of pAckin....we hAd a tiff.cant be bOthered...it wasnt a gUd dAe for mi...going camp tml le...i will still miSs u~

19th deCember o5
i went for my camp todae le =( im miSsing my dear dear...lOve u mY dhuBBy!

toDae we did the high elements..FUN! but nOt enuFf....cuz chem liping and her hubby came to tryout 4 the charity tingy...actualli i kinda sianz and i miss home and our beds and YOU! sorta regret coming cuz i dun get to cya and i cant call or msg u and there isnt any plug to charge the stupid hp!

oHHH we did oUtDoor coOking todae~ FOOD SUX! we ended quite late in the nite...icalled u while waiting for en....haha so happi cuz i cud hear ur voice....so sweet......i love u dear.......
i had a long dae.......tired and sticky....i dun like the feel and im beginning to think twice on whether i shud tke this job nots...aniwaez......

I LOVE DEAR AND MISS U!

2otH deCemBer o5
damn siAz i snored laz nite and the stuPid en record in the phoNe.....soRriez eN eN...
oHHh hAv to wear tHAt tee i wore yest. diSgUstinG! i dun wan lehZ...bUt every new trainer oso lidatZ...siNce im not theo nli oNe den no choICe lorz...i went hiking uP the bukiT timAh hiLL toDae! haha iSmAil realli loOk liKe the moNkey on the dO not feed mOnKey siGn!!! sO cuTe!
haha i reached the suMmit todAe! dAmn tiring...my legS arE super suAn lehZ bUt it wAs a nIce eXperiEnCe...hAhAz...iF oNli i WaS tReKkin wif deAr...oHHh i sortA injUred my aNkle todae again...vEry minOr one..nO proB aFtEr awhile can jUmp ard AgAin~ hahaz...

AfTer lUnch we leArn hOw to pItCh tEnT...a frAme aGain...siAnz...i almost fell aSlp siAz...oNli woke uP when tHey were doinG the dome tent...iT wAs mUch eAsier and nIcer toO!aftEr dat we learn abt 1st aid and knoTs and lasHinGs...

oHHh dEAr......we hAvent seen eaCh oTher for 3 daez le.......i miSs u super bAdly lehZ...kInda slpy le *yAwNz* hMMm realli miSs ur bEd and tHE weekEndS we spEnT bY slPinG with eaCh other....mAn if oNli ur with mi~ i go orhorh le...GuDnites and i hOpe to be bY uR siDe reAl sOon~

21St deCember o5
oHh i went to anoTher camp site todae...to recce the plAce and routEs for camps to be held there...gOt mUd oNe! eee i dun dare go in...cuz i sure rAshes de lorz...but dunno how to tell dem...then went to mSiA...at there now itZ 00:12:12 and we are still haVing briEfing...siAnz duNno why they got so mUch to sAe...all alMost the sAmE oso lorz..hMMm afTer tml i wiLl cyA soOn...hAha...fri iS coMing soOn...

I SAW FIREFLIES!!! iTs beAuTiFuL! thIS mSia camp quiTe run dowN the bed quite diSguStIng...hAiz...but very tired aRz...dun care le...

hunny i realli miss u alot...called u jux now bUt u plAyin mj...so didnt distUrb u fuRther...hAiz...hope dat u got win lorz...dreading to go home and to cya...dun wana dream of u yet...dreamz are not gud...makes mi tired...haiz i wanna slp and i wan dear~

22nD deCeMber o5
toDae woULd be a long dAe for mi...went for wAterfall treKkin...oHh my gOSh! i got soMe leeCh bites! So diSguSting lehZ...kAoz...hOpe dat they eXtiNct arHz...jUX lIke moSquiTos! but the waterfAll thEre dAmn shioK mAn! BEST! the watEr wAs so cOld~ afTer the fun and relAxing pArt we hAd to walK bAck into the jUngle and go bAck to camp..eee the trip bAck wAs so loNg! den kennA soMe more leeches on mi~ gEt lOSt lEeCh! when we were nearing the camp, carol and i was like running bAck to get out of the jUngle and to get thOSe bLooDy leeChes oUt mAn!

kiLLing LeeCh time!!!

rested awhile den hAd to do the shErwoOD and No mAn'S lAnd obstAcles.oHh sUzanNe foUnd 3 leeChes in her uNder pAnts..dun think too mUch IS the iinNer pAnts unDer the bbAll shorts...
damn mAn at the obstAcles.....i cudnt croSs teh moNkey bAr for the 1st time...so wAd? i fell into the muDdy watEr! eEWWw~
we hAd caMpfire afTer diNNer...btw i hAvent bAthe yEt~ eee
iT wAs fun thou...afTer thecampfire still cant bAthe cuZ they wan shOw uS piCz...wah so mani...see until i doZe oFF oN sUzaNNe's back haha...tired lehz...when finAlli it wAs over...everyone went for suPper and i sTAyed in the bUnK to shower...i cant stAnd mYSelf le...afTer suPPer...got news tHAt we're gg for mUD teK tml~ oMG! i dun waNNA get dirty agAin! dun wan go~ i wanna hUrri hOme tml atHz...sobz... DEAR!!!

23rd dreCemBer o5
oHHh fiNAlli i can go hOme toDae! i went to the swaMp trek todae =( wAhlAo so mAni mOSquiTos.......19 biTes oN my right leG and 23 bites oN mY left.when we left the junGle..they were still "coming" aftEr oUr bLooD.....fOlloWing uS aLL the wae to oUr camp!sobz...so ke liAn arhz...den we bulit raft...shOwered hAd breAkfAst and pAck up for home! YAy!

kAoz mAn the bUS why got so mAny fliEs inSide?! bz gettIn the flIes mAn...hAha we HAd rAmlY bUrgEr ont he bUS agAin~ wOOhOo! when we reAched the cuStoMs...the driver cuDnt clear and there wAs a lOng delAy! kAoz...wAste my time...

finAlli hOme le...stArTeD unPAcking den deAr came awhiLe lAter....i go shOwer and den u kip asking mi to chAnge my clOtHes...this canot dat oSo canot...arHhh *BITE U* so mA fan huh! den we went to oRchArd...swAy~...mY shOes sPoilt! so hAd to bUy a new one...wAds worse wAs i forgot to bring mY hP~ diff to coNtAct so i hAd to wait for u at the shoe shop after u went to ciNe to check for tiX for nAnia...den boUght one pAir from U.R.S den went to liDo to try oUr lUck...we got it...4th row from the screen....hAiz...bettEr den 1st row...n we watched it...it was quite nIce~

den we waLked ard orchArd...and dear kip complAining dat iTz v croWded...and dat u dun wanna go to town aNiMore!haha imMpoSsiBle...oHh im so shAg...i fell aslp soOn afTer i got hoMe...didnt even shOwer...and dear left mY hse alone...so pOor thing...oHHh~ sorrie...end up i woke up agAin to bAtHe haha...

24th deCeMber 05
*iT chriStMAs eve*

i went our with mummy and my aunties @ mArinA sQuArE...bouGht presents for my famiLy and dear and my fren...uHhh speNt quite a lot oF moNey arHz...den i went o ur hse...cuZ u hAving mj in the morning.....wAhkAoz...u lOSt 70 buCkz! mAn! datz a lot...gimme mAh...at ur hSe le i bathe and slpt all the wae to 9+...sOrrie dear...im sO piGggy...we had curry for diNner and i continuE to slP till 10+ when u wake mi up to go home...and i continUe to slP agAin~

hunny im sorri i dint realli accompAny u todae...mOreover its chriStMAs eve...im sO soRries buT i nOe u didnt miNd too cuZ u nOe dat iM totaLLi shAg awae bY the camp...huNny...i lOve u kAez...mUAckZ...

25tH deCember o5
iTs cHriStMAs and i didnt go for chriStMAs service...im a very bAd gAl...im sorri LOrd...cuz i wAs still very slPy...i spent the whole dae at hOme unti l u guYs came over for steamboAt...aTe quite abit bUt wAs resTriCted by dear dat i cant tke seafOoD cuz of thoSe stUffs on mY lEgs...and i went to the doCtor to get soMe mediCation for it...got a jAb on mY BUTT! *shy*

aftEr foOd the joke wAs...
"any activity?"
"ze li arhz?"

and it kept rePeatin until we decIDed to plAy moNoPolY~ there wasnT any ulTimAtE wiNNer bUt a lOSer...MR eDdeN Goh a.k.a huA huA gong zi (dat dae...cuZ he wAs so flOwery...shiRt and shorts got so mAny flOWers!) as uSuAl lA...itz alwaEz him~ hahaz...im so siAnz...No pArtY...No gg to clUbS liKE i uSuAlli do...and didnt get to kiSs and hUg my deAriE todAe!

26th dEcemBeR o5
hMMm deAr came oVer to aCcompAny mi toDae to go to beAch roAd to bUy sTuffs...i bought a deUter BAg anD a caMelbAk for 150 bUckz...hMMm regReT...i shUD hAv bArgAined lor...den mAyb i couLd get a better priCe~ soBz...when we went home...joSepH wAs OreAdi at my pLAce...as uSuAl...sittin and stiCking to hiS gu zhAnG a.k.a mY dad haha...den dey went to NTUC to get titbits for thAt liTTle moNstEr den the boTh oF uS jUX went into the roOm to slP...agAinz..hAha...5min lAtEr mY auNtie caLLed...den i went bAck to slP...5min lAter elSie caLLed...nVm...go bAck to slp again...5min mum called to sae dat 5min lAtEr i hAv to go dowN to hlp her cArry the stUffs up!!end uP i didnt get to slp...and the liTTle moNstEr, joSpeH wAs lIke eH-phAnt (elepHant) cuZ we were watCh AnimAl plAnEt...haha so cuTe! bUt he iS a moNstEr! luCky he dun stAy with mi...or i gUess i wiLL beCome mAd one dAe~ heez...

27tH deCeMbEr o5
hMMmz i was suPPosed to hAv druM lessoNz todae de...but joSh hAv a wedding aPPoinTmEnt haha...so no choIce shiFt to tml le lorz...so i stAyed at hOme the whole dAe i gUess... hmmm... =( cant realli recall wad i did le wor...

28tH deCember 05
i'Ve got druM lessonz todae~ mAn...i learned a new grOOve..wOOhOO...kiNda touGh thou...almoSt giV up mAn! after the lessoN...we sTayed awhile lonG to plAy with the druMz...jOsh gave uS a new oFFer...he cuD get a druM set for 550 buCkz mAx...wOOhOoo i wAn! hAiz...AfTer dAt i went to yiShun to lOOk for my deAr wif sWoLLen lipS cuZ he ate crAbZ when he wAs aLLegic to it...cuZ itz hiS siStA's bDae~ haha...we bought pAcked riCe and aTe as we wAtched shAllOw HAl...den slp agAin and miSsed diNner cuz we were stiLL quiTe fuLL den i took a cab hOme...reLuCtAnTly to leAve for hoMe...noT cuz i dun wanna leaVe deAr bUt cuZ i duN wanNA leAve hIS bed...i wAnnA slP!!!! when im hOme i wAsnt tired or slPY animore...hAha wAtched tv and reAd my BooK...i fiNished it uP...and i stAyed up till 2:30 am to chioNg finISh! hahaz...

29tH deCember o5
finAlli my bloG hAd caught up with thE actuAl dae le...i went to woRk todAe it was kiNda slAck...everyone onli hAv to giv oUt one stAck or so...which wAs leSs thAn 50 flyeRs haha...oHh eaSy joB...aftEr dat anglin, zhen n i went to perlini silvers to get some earrings haha den to lOOk for the guy whu soLd the cryStAl anGel to uS cuZ it broke...sobz...he's gone...NO more stAll there le =( iM sorrie dear...

oHh i hAd a tiff wif dear agAin~ hAiz...u dun seems to try to uNDerstAnd wAd im gg thRu mAn...uR not the onli one inVolved...and im the one whu is facing the siTuAtion with a greater impAct...i sAid hUrtFul words to u...im sorriez...bUt i did noe dat it wud hurt u...but it was the thing dat i realli wanna sae...sAdly for for us...cuz it seems to mi dat ur so selfish to sae that im stubborn but did u put urself in my shoe to think how i felt? it certainly dun feel gud if ur forced to do something dat u dun feel like doing or sth dat u dun like...

...i cried...

guess u didnt noe too...ur too bz fuming while on the phone...and u surely cudnt sense it when we were sms-ing...huNny....somethings are not meant to be said out...u muz try to be more sensitive to my feelings...itz jux like some things must not be written down to show itself...and i had mani tots todae...i dun understand why u can go ahead to do the things dat i dun realli like playing mj overnite...or even at nite...jux cuz u sae u wanna do wad u like to do...but think of this...i like to party at cluBs...why cant i go ahead with it even thou u dun like while u can do wadever u like even if i dun like it??? dun u think its unfair? u sae dat itz cuz of the dangers...hunny...im not trying to be like act smart or wad...its not my 1st time in those places...i noe wad to do...i mayb still young but im not dat young to the extent that im dat stUpiD thou i aDmiT im not very clever~

hunY im not tryin to hint anithinG or complain...but to let u think of someting tHAt ur miNd hAd not coMe acroSs dat iS hAppen betWeen uS...the unFairneSs~ uR iNSeNSitiviTy and the effoRt to tRy to feeL wAd im feelin...iTz not dat i heCk care...buT wAdz wroNg if i dun waNNA shOw it?

im sorrie dear if i've hurt u todae...but u've hurt mi deeply too...i jUx hOpe dat we will stiLL be as loving...mUAckz...

8th dEcemBEr - 11tH deCember

2005-12-26T23:03:00.001+08:00

=8tH=
we slept till the afternooN and woke up and dear as so notti...kajiao onli~
we washed up and left for tpy to collect the photos den to novena to eat fish and co.
SEAFOOD PLATTER!
so full la...but the stAff there attitude no gud jux cux the both of us were in bball shorts and tee?!
look up no uP arhz~
nvm...after dat we went home

i sorted the pics out to do the album for dear...den awhile ltr dear went to slp...haha was snoring so loudly~ nOnstoP mAn...so noiSy~
haha went i returned from walkin the doggies...dear was still snoring away...muAhAhaha...
den i finished up the photo album abd we ate the peach tart we bought from HAns

when we were on our wae to the bus stop there was an indian man who seemed to be scolding an imaginary child...(mayb it was there jux dat we cant see *creePs*)
he realli shouT oUt loUd and was so fierce lehz...scAred

=9th=
im working todae and mummy alwaez make a louD enTerAnce into my room like scAreD she wun wAke mi up liDatz...dun understand why oso lehz...den i end up staying awake cuz of her gRanD enTerAnCe into my room! todae we start work quite latecuz of some logistics prob itz was quite relaxing and we finished up quite earli todae...and slacked quite a bit oso lorz... den dear came after work to gimme my hp cuz i left it at his hse yest. haha... HE TOOK A CAB...EX LEHZ...RICH KID! we shopped awhile wif the gals and went to eat at subwae...i was so bloated la...we when to buy stuffs for zhen and went home... chat till ur jiejie wanna uSe =(

=10th=
i woke up @ i+ am mSged dear that i had nitemare that everyone was out to hurt mi or to kill mi...cuz i chose to be wif u in my dream...everyone was kinda zombiefied by sth i dunno wad...sobz...i was even trying to kill another gal if the insecticide for self-defense...
DEAR IM SCARED!
u comforted mi, hugs and ask mi to go back to bed
ur awake cuz ur watching vCd~
alwaez lidat de...watch vcD nv wait for mi de lehz...everytime oso so gan choing canot wait for mi ahile to watch together le lehz...dun fren u le lah!
im workinf earlier todae...
very sians lehz
i didnt get to tok to u much lorz...
called u in the dae u play mj...no time to entertain mi...
at nite u ask mi to msg u after i bathe den up u fell aslp while waitin...
now u sae ur sista ish using the phone n u cant tok to mi...
forget it i no mood to tok le...
wanna tok to u oso so diff...
i slp u awake i awake u slp...ar bo ish no free to tok to mi...siAnz...

=11th=
todAe wasnt dat siAnz dunno why oso... i kept watchin the maTreSs ad at the soMerset biG tv...haha very cute arH the shEeps... after work we (the galz) met up wif carol to hav dinner @ pepper lunch...after dat we went to m)phosis to get the top i wan but cant find le =( siAns den went to missha to get eyeliner and eye make up remover...hahaz... dear oso no gud de sae i put le not nice =( tok to u till i wanna orh orh le la!

aNniVerSaRy...0712

2005-12-07T22:39:00.000+08:00

***

its our anni todae =P

so fAst lors...

we've together for 1 yr le...

dear, i noe my temper can be quite bad and thru out the yr...i've made ur heartbreak, made u angry and get u on ur nerves for quite mani times...

den when i lose le i will cry

IM SORRI FOR ALL THE UNHAPPI TIMES

cuz of my sucky temper and stupid attitude

i realli wanna change to the ideal kind of xiao nu ren...

i will try but i hav no confidence to change totalli...

lets hope dat i will succeed =)

...also...

thank u dear for being there with mi (ALWAEZ)

and not giving mi up

i noe dat u will alwaez love mi n i will alwaez love u too =)

...so...

lets work together to to build up a happie and beautiful future for us as we live happily ever afetr jux like in the fairy tales

I LOVE U LOADS

more than this 4 words can express themselves

it seems like an endless pit

the deserted seabed where all my love memories are kept untouched

stored as lovely treasures

cuz ur the one...

the onli one whu hav the access to dem

BABY I LOVE U!

and happie anniversary!

***

~~~

i woke up quite earli today seeing the msg that u sent mi last nite...

indeed i was aslp but not soundly

cuz i was lazy to read the msg when i hear my hp beeped haha sorrie...

no one was at home todae

and i wateched tv as i dressed up

i put on make up todae and got ready to go

then dear called saying that u will be late

>_<

jUz 5 min onli mah~

we walked to JAck's plAce @ orchard and i realized a cooler and shorter route was to alight at somerset instead haha...im so blur...

orders:

- escagot (as usual...itz my fav)

- fresh oyster (dear like it)

- seafood salad

- black pepper steak ( medium for my darlin)

and the bill was 52 bucks

we went to heeren to tke pics and was having so much fun den we went home to feed my doggies

i walked dem cuz dear was restin in my room den i changed and went to dear's hse...

for him to change to go to the bball testi match n bbQ

we took a cab home and to sch...siAlA...spent so muCh on cab fare -_-"

the testi match for the bois started when we reached

and dear onli get to play 3 min as i was playin w the seniors at the other court hahaz...

after the matches we hlped to set up the bbQ pit andstuFFs and we ate for quite long b4 we startEd to plAy pressure...haha i "kiLLed" dear!!!

we left the place at abt 1+

when we reah home we saw a same xiaoqiang

i moved back and dropped the fan waking ur mummy up...

opps sorrie...

den i went to shower and after ur out we watched tv for a while and slpt together...wah so nice to cya in the morning when i wake up...

-061205-

2005-12-06T22:33:00.000+08:00

tml is our anniversary and i dun get to cya todae cuz i got camp training...
now...
im a step nearer to dis job and i think dat i will realli enjoy it lorz... and also earn some cash for myself...and to get some time spent as u get in NS next yr lorz...
iTz been a fun long dae and im kinda tired and sad cuz i dun hav enuff $$ to get the photos developed by todae...cuz i very gundusami...
=forgot to check the cd-r and ended giving them the empty disc yest. ="(
thou u dun mind dat i delay the present but i do lorz...
im kinda tired...slping earli

msg for u

2005-12-05T22:22:00.000+08:00

itz exactly one month to ur enlistment...
i will miss u and i know that u dun wanna go for NS...but darling its a part of a Singaporean guy's life~
soOn it will be over and we can still be together le! hahaz... =) and no matter wad i will ber wif u...its not like we wun be able to see each other for the whole 2 yrs....take it positively and enjoy this period of evoling from boi to MEN~
den u come out to becum very SEXY and MACHO whahaha....
i love it man!
dun worry kaez i will alwaez be wif u and i will alwaez love u and i will not leave u...

-051205-

prE-enliStmenT dAez

2005-12-05T20:54:00.000+08:00

im writing this as our sweetest memories...
gUd or bad...everythingy we've been thru...
to let u noe how i spend my daez with or without u ard...
and as a reminder to myself that...
i hav u,
dat u hav mi,
all i noe is that i wanna be with u...
and im truely madly deeply in love wif u...

051205

~
todae is a mondae, dear complaint that i work work work then never accompany u so i went to ur hse todae...but before that we meet at yishun 10 to watch chicken little...u were pretty bored by the movie n so was i... =( it was jux the typical saw the world cartoon...sianz...(i like fish! its so cute...like so stupid lidat)

we took a bus home and spent time together...slpt and woke up for dinner...yummy i ate alot!!!

~